All The Biggest Bombshells From Demi Lovato's YouTube Documentary

Demi Lovato is an open book in her new YouTube docuseries, Demi Lovato: Dancing With the Devil, and that's far from an exaggeration.

On Tuesday afternoon (March 23), the first two installments of the four-part series made their way onto the video streaming platform and see Lovato divulge in details about her sobriety, which she struggled with in 2018 when she experienced a near-fatal heroin overdose, as well as a number of other noteworthy topics, including her sexuality, failed engagement to Max Ehrich, as well as her #MeToo experience. The four-part film serves as the follow-up to her Simply Complicated documentary, which premiered in 2017.

In honor of the project's highly-anticipated premiere, iHeartRadio has rounded up the biggest revelations from the series, which arrives ahead of her upcoming album of the same name. The final installment of the series is scheduled to premiere next week, but if you're itching for a quick catch-up on Lovato's biggest revelations thus far, scroll on below!

Demi relapsed a month after celebrating six years of sobriety.

About a month after celebrating six years of sobriety, Lovato revealed that she relapsed with "drugs and alcohol" after a photoshoot. "I don't even know why I'm sober anymore. I am so miserable. I'm not happy. I have all this stuff that I'm dealing with," she recalls thinking at the time. "I picked up a bottle of red wine that night and it wasn't 30 minutes before I called someone who I knew had drugs on them. I'm surprised I didn't OD that night."

"I just so happened to run into my old drug dealer from six years before and, like, the odds of that happening were crazy and he had a duffel bag and I just went to town," she admitted. "I went on a shopping spree. That night I did drugs that I'd never done before. I had never done meth before, I tried meth. I mixed it with molly, with coke, weed, alcohol, oxycontin. And that alone should've killed me."

Her relapse led to a severe heroin addiction.

Two weeks after the relapse, the pop star said she was "introduced to heroin and crack cocaine" and became "physically dependent" on it. The addiction prompted her to write her confessional ballad, "Sober."

The July 2018 overdose almost left her dead.

Lovato offered fans a detailed revisit of the traumatic night that almost left her dead. After making the rounds with friends at a few bars, the group took to Lovato's house. When they left, she called one of her dealers over. The next morning, her then-assistant Jordan Jackson found the singer unconscious in her bed, called her bodyguard over and eventually dialed 911. "I'm just like, 'Do I call 911?' What do I do? So I called," Jackson said. "I just remember sneaking downstairs to make the phone call because I didn't want to get in trouble for calling 911."

"I had crossed a line that I had never crossed before ... I snapped," Lovato chimed in. "I had three strokes. I had a heart attack. My doctors said that I had five to 10 more minutes [to live]."

She was "violated" by her drug dealer the night she overdosed.

Aside from almost dying, Lovato confessed that she was "taken advantage of" by her drug dealer that evening. "When they found me, I was naked, blue. I was literally left for dead after he took advantage of me," she explained. "When I woke up in the hospital, they asked if we had had consensual sex. There was one flash that I had of him on top of me. I saw that flash and I said yes. It wasn't until a month after the overdose that I realized, 'You weren't in any state of mind to make a consensual decision.'"

Lovato’s friend, Sirah Mitchell, explained that the star had been given heroin "laced with fentanyl" that evening. "He also ended up getting her really high and leaving her for dead," she added of the dealer.

Fans started harassing Demi's inner circle after the overdose and she was not happy with that.

While close friend Sirah said she received a death threat, choreographer Dani Vitale's life was turned upside down because of the incident. "I lost all my [dance] teaching jobs. No one wanted to bring their kid to an apparent 'heroin dealer teacher,'" she explained. "I lost any artist that I was working with. They didn’t want to deal with the drama; I had TMZ following me to the studio. I had to rethink my future — all because of someone else’s decision, and that was terrifying."

She lost her virginity in a rape.

Lovato's doc also arrived with an emotional retelling of the trauma that she faced with another sexual assault. "When I was a teenager, I was in a very similar situation. I lost my virginity in a rape," she admitted. In the scene, Lovato shared that she and her alleged attacker had been "hooking up" at the time, but the star made it clear that she was not ready to lose her virginity. "I was part of that Disney crowd that publicly said they were waiting until marriage," she continued. “I didn't have the romantic first time. That was not it for me — that sucked. Then I had to see this person all the time so I stopped eating and coped in other ways."

She went on to admit she shared the assault with adults at the time but the alleged attacker "never got in trouble for it." "They never got taken out of the movie they were in. I always kept it quiet because I've always had something to say. I don't know, I'm tired of opening my mouth. Here's the tea," she continued. "I called that person back a month later and tried to make it right by being in control. All it did was make me feel worse. Both times were textbook trauma re-enactments, and I really beat myself up for years which is why I had a really hard time coming to terms with the fact it was a rape when it happened."

She's no longer sober.

In one moment of the docuseries, Lovato admitted that she has been smoking weed and drinking in moderation. "After so many years of being the poster child of sobriety, I didn't want people to criticize me for that," she explained with hesitation. "I've learned that shutting the doors on things makes me want to open the door even more. I've learned that it doesn't work for me to say, 'I'm never going to do this again.' I've really, really struggled with this. I'm done with the stuff I know is going to kill me, right? But I wish that I could get some relief maybe through, like, weed or something, and telling myself that I can never have a drink or smoke marijuana, like, I feel like that's setting myself up for failure because I am such a black and white thinker."

The failed Max Ehrich engagement was rushed.

"I'm really sad that things ended the way that they did…good news is I haven't picked up any hard drugs or anything like that. I'm hanging in there. Ugh. It's just sh*tty," she told cameras, only to return hours later to sob about the failed romance. "The video I made earlier wasn't an accurate representation of what I am going through. So I thought this whole time that I didn't miss him, I just miss the person that I started quarantining with. I don't know how to give my heart to someone after this."

"What happened? I think I rushed into something that I thought was what I was supposed to do. I realized as time went on that I didn’t actually know the person that I was engaged to," she explained in-detail.

She's learning to understand her queer self.

"I'm not willing to put a label on it right this second and I think I will get there," she said after admitting that she is "too queer to marry a man in [her] life right now. "But there are a lot of things I have to do for myself first. I want to allow myself the ability to live my life in he most authentic form possible, which I just haven't done because of my past and some things that I've needed to work on."

She thought about shaving her head for years.

"I want to be free of all of that, I want to be free of not only my developmental trauma, but the gender norms that were placed on me as a kid and the sexuality norms that were placed on me by my church," she explained to viewers, adding that she had been thinking of shaving her head for years, but never had the balls to do it until she started working on herself in 2020.

Demi sought out Scooter Braun to manage her knowing she was a "liability."

"I am an artist who just overdosed on heroin," the star explained to viewers. "Like, I’m kind of a liability. I don’t know if people are gonna wanna work with me. It was scary for me, but I didn’t feel intimidated at all." In fact, Lovato said that the business manager "made [her] feel safe." The interesting part of it all is that Braun had initially planned to turn her down. "I had every intention of telling her 'no.' I felt overwhelmed at the time. We had a plan for not only how we were going to say 'no,' but who we were going to recommend [instead]," he candidly explained.

Two weeks after meeting Scooter, the singer relapsed again.

"I am an artist who just overdosed on heroin,” the star explained. "Like, I’m kind of a liability. I don’t know if people are gonna wanna work with me. It was scary for me, but I didn’t feel intimidated at all." Lovato said that the business manager "made [her] feel safe." In the docuseries, Braun revealed that Lovato relapsed again two weeks after their meeting to discuss signing her. “I’m here to support you and I want to help you through this, not punish you," he said, admitting that he was "afraid" of another manager signing her. "As long as you tell me the truth, we’ll work through it."

Photo: YouTube/Demi Lovato