Atonement: The John Paulk Story

Atonement: The John Paulk Story

John was an ex-gay, ex-drag queen and an evangelical Christian. He married an ex-lesbian, had three children and became the poster boy for “conversion therapy” for over 15 years, traveling across the world to preach the idea you can ‘pray away the gay’. John Paulk was living proof that they could change, that God would love them, and that they could live a “normal” heterosexual life. But John was living a lie: he was still gay. Now, he’s ready to tell his story.

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January 6, 2026 2 mins

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John steps back into the story he once tried to outrun.

Alongside expert insights and survivors of “Conversion Therapy”, John begins peeling back the layers of how he became one of the most totemic figures of the ex-gay movement.

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January 20, 2026 63 mins

John makes his way to the residential program that will shape his life forever.

There, he meets John Smid, the former director of Love in Action. And the woman who would become his wife.



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January 27, 2026 46 mins

John’s marriage becomes the jewel in the ex-gay movement’s crown.

Soon the couple are everywhere: Oprah, national ad campaigns, even the cover of Newsweek. But beyond the spotlight, cracks are forming.



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February 3, 2026 50 mins

John looks back at the spiritual wreckage the ex-gay movement leaves behind - and the lives it destroys.

Publicly, he’s its polished poster boy. But behind the public halo, he’s drowning.




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February 10, 2026 48 mins

When John Paulk slips into a D.C. gay bar, everything he’s built looks set to collapse.

Caught, exposed, and suffocated by shame, he clings to a lie that fools no one - not even himself.



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February 17, 2026 44 mins

John comes out for the third - and final - time.

In this final chapter, hear John’s journey from shame to accountability, and the hard-won freedom of living authentically.



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It was presented by John Paulk. The producer was Kate Holland.

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