Transform Your Life with Suzy Antonyan & Ilya Fedorovich

On this episode of the Overcomfort podcast, I have the opportunity to sit down with Suzy Antonyan & Ilya Fedorovich to talk about their lives before and after David Dobrik's 'Vlog Squad'. Suzy gets vulnerable about her life growing up overweight, reads a personal letter that has never been shared, and her biggest transformation in life with Ilya's help and guidance. Ilya's shares his experience training and guiding Suzy and many others using Xeela, his fitness company that is changing lives and has become his true passion. 

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Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:04):
Welcome back to the Overcomfort Podcast. I am your host,
Jennica Lopez. Thank you so much for watching and listening
from Urber platform. You guys are at I'm very excited
for today's episode. You guys, this is okay. I'm gonna
be very honest. Okay, first of all, this is Susie
and Ilia.

Speaker 2 (00:23):
I don't know. I don't know why. I just hear
the no.

Speaker 1 (00:29):
This is Susie and Ilia.

Speaker 2 (00:31):
They are.

Speaker 1 (00:32):
If you guys haven't watched YouTube, I don't know what
you guys are doing. This is a very full circle
moment for me. I will tell you guys and be
very honest. I've watched you guys, log squad all that
since for a long time, and then I stopped watching.
I'm gonna be honest, and I don't know why. I
think I just got too busy.

Speaker 3 (00:48):
But.

Speaker 1 (00:49):
I've kept up and I'm super happy to have you
guys here to share your stories and who you guys
are and you know, get to know you guys, because
look at you guys. This is the first time we meet.
Like I didn't get to meet them before to get
like a good conversation with them. So this is you know,
like on our first date. This is our first date.

Speaker 2 (01:09):
Yeah it is. We Yeah, we weren't even really talking before.
The cameras are not either, I know. I'm like, we
wanted to we wanted to save everything. Yes, okay, so
I've seen.

Speaker 1 (01:18):
A couple of tiktoks, like I want to clear up,
are you guys dating or you're not dating? Let's just
I just want to know, like, let's so we know
the people want to know. Wow, can you read me

(01:39):
my amendments?

Speaker 2 (01:40):
I am I'm trying to find out. How long have
you guys known each other for? Five years? Right?

Speaker 3 (01:51):
Six years? Six?

Speaker 2 (01:52):
Yeah? Yeah, we want each other for a while the
last year.

Speaker 3 (01:57):
Yeah, as with anybody that can train every day, text
every single day every day.

Speaker 2 (02:03):
Okay, yeah, sounds like a problem. What myself like a
problem that?

Speaker 1 (02:09):
But he's like, I'm just kidding, of course, not of course,
of course.

Speaker 3 (02:14):
But we've got really closer.

Speaker 2 (02:16):
Yeah that's so cool.

Speaker 1 (02:17):
I love that.

Speaker 3 (02:18):
Because I got to see her get into a fight,
you know, yeah the room and like I experienced all
that raw.

Speaker 2 (02:29):
That's what she said, are you really we're really we're
really outing me this morning?

Speaker 1 (02:40):
Welcome feisty.

Speaker 2 (02:42):
I text you, I'm like, yo, why did you do that?
Don't worry?

Speaker 1 (02:47):
Well, Okay, so you guys have been friends for like
five years, and because I feel like you guys are jokesters, right,
everybody's a little jokester and like the little squad and
all stuff. So like that you guys are like training
and stuff. This is like the time to be serious?
Was that hard? Because I feel like, like, look with
Susie already, I've laughed a couple of times, and I'm
just like, I don't know how I would be able
to train her.

Speaker 2 (03:08):
Yeah, pleasingly answer that question.

Speaker 3 (03:12):
Anybody that's like serious about training and wants to lose
weight comes into it with the mentality of like, I'm
not joking around. And obviously there are moments throughout where
like we have fun.

Speaker 1 (03:24):
You have to mm hmm not it's like training.

Speaker 3 (03:27):
Yeah, but the bottom line is like we get down
to work and like we have fun, but we get
it done.

Speaker 1 (03:33):
No matter how many do you complain a lot? Are
you a complainer?

Speaker 2 (03:36):
I She's like, wait, okay, answer answer a fully please.

Speaker 3 (03:44):
I mean she complains a lot, but I will say,
no matter how many times she complains, she still moves forward.
You know, there's at least a positive to it. Where
she does, she does do it.

Speaker 2 (04:00):
All right, but but she's just stop big.

Speaker 3 (04:07):
Honestly, I think overall you've done really well, Like about complaints.

Speaker 1 (04:13):
Look at him complimenting, I mean, after just being rude,
after destroying I mean, it's fine.

Speaker 3 (04:21):
I'm punching down. I'm not punching up.

Speaker 2 (04:23):
It's it's a good balance. He's a libra' massage.

Speaker 1 (04:26):
You're a libra.

Speaker 2 (04:27):
I love it. When's your birthday?

Speaker 3 (04:28):
Can you guess?

Speaker 2 (04:31):
I feel like she's like, I'm not a psychic October
She googled October.

Speaker 3 (04:38):
Sixth, October sixteenth, I'm.

Speaker 1 (04:41):
October third, I'm a libra.

Speaker 2 (04:42):
Toot, I'm assage nice all right? Cool?

Speaker 1 (04:48):
Well, okay, before we get into obviously like the training
and odd stuff. We'll get more into that later on,
but I do want to know before social media who
you guys were, Like, who was Iliyah? Who was Susie?
Before obviously lock squad and you know all this crazy stuff,
like how did you guys grow up? Because you mentioned
to me you lived here in the valley right from

(05:08):
the valley, you lived in Chicago. Okay, so Susie, how
was it life growing up for you? Like you've mentioned
before like it's because of your weight and all that, Like,
can we go get more into that?

Speaker 2 (05:21):
Oh Jesus christ, y'all really want me to tear up
this morning?

Speaker 3 (05:24):
I will.

Speaker 1 (05:25):
I will tear up with you.

Speaker 2 (05:26):
It's it's it's a Susie Susie.

Speaker 1 (05:29):
It's Susie Day.

Speaker 2 (05:31):
No, So I I grew up? I grew up? Are
you talking about my personal life? Both?

Speaker 1 (05:37):
It could be anything like who was Susie before social media?
Like what was like a day of Susie?

Speaker 2 (05:43):
Dude?

Speaker 3 (05:44):
Can we put actually interested in this too? Because I
don't know you before?

Speaker 2 (05:52):
It's crazy. I So I grew up like with my parents,
my my mom and my mom, my mom and dad,
my brother, and growing up was actually really really really
difficult for us. But I think that that's definitely what
shaped me into who I am today. And we've had
a lot of obstacles, a lot of obstacles have gotten

(06:14):
in the way and in family life, whether it was
that or whatever it was. And yeah, growing up, the
number one thing was that I was always like very
very self conscious and hm. But it's it's weird because
after growing up, after high school, I immediately got a

(06:36):
job at hot topic right after. I'm just gonna tell you,
right after high school what happened. I got a drop
up hot topic after going working there. I was working there,
but I was also a student full time because I
was trying to get into being I've never said this publicly.
I wanted to be a niaidle nurse. It's a baby nurse.

(06:58):
It's it's it's the babysic. It's the nurses that go
and they take care of the babies after the babies
are born, after the babies are born. I wanted to
be a nurse because I love kids so much. Neonatal nurse, net,
neo natal, neonatal nurse. Yes, interesting, that was what I
wanted to do. That was what I wanted to do.

(07:19):
So it's crazy. I've never told anyone that, but I
was going to school to be a neo natal nurse
and I was doing a bunch of research on it,
and I just didn't like what you needed to do
before becoming a neonatal nurse because and that made me
really sad, and I knew emotionally I couldn't handle that.
But and then after having one job, I had to

(07:42):
get a second job. So I was working two jobs.
At one point, I was working at a hot topic.
I was working as a after school supervisor at a
private school, and I was also a full shit I
was also a full time student. So I was doing
two jobs and a full time student.

Speaker 1 (07:59):
What privates if you don't my mask.

Speaker 2 (08:00):
It was a Catholic Holy Trinity Catholic school in Atwater Village, Okay, yeah,
so I was after school supervisor there. So yeah, we're
two jobs in the full time student and only because
it was it was life was really it was really difficult,
and I just kind of wanted to make things better.
But yeah, for the most part, I don't know where

(08:23):
else to go with this. I've always I've always had
jobs growing up. After my first job was literally when
I was seventeen years old, sixteen, seventeen years old. And
the way I actually got my first job, I forgot
to mention this is I was failing high school. I
was about to not graduate. I was I was behind
a hundred credits. I'm not even kidding, I was behind
the hundred credits. So I would wake up at six

(08:44):
in the morning, be at school at seven am, be
at school till three pm. Right after three pm, I
would have to go and get more go to this
school where I.

Speaker 1 (08:55):
Had to get like the secondary.

Speaker 2 (08:57):
Yes, so I had to get more, get more credits.
And then after I was done getting my credits, I
had to get hours volunteer hours. So my volunteer hours
just happened to be at Hot Topic. Wow. So I
volunteered at Hot Topic for two months so I could
gain credits for school so I can graduate because I
barely made it. I barely made it to graduation because

(09:20):
my freshman year of high school, I just didn't even care.
I just I never I did school. I'm being honest.
I did school. I would just go hang out and
I would just it was. It was a bad time.
But and then I where was I going? Oh? Yeah,
so I I went to school. I went. I worked
at Hot Topic, and because I worked there for two months,

(09:42):
the manager really liked me. So because I was volunteering
there for free for two three months, she ended up
really liking me and she ended up hiring me. So
that's how I got my first job.

Speaker 1 (09:50):
Whow Okay, that's crazy.

Speaker 2 (09:53):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (09:54):
But so in between of that, because you have your
your Armenian armormenion Armenian right, are your parents strict with you.

Speaker 2 (10:04):
Yeah, fifty to fifty growing up? Yes, from until I
was until I was they realized I have a I
have a good head over my shoulders. I guess that
was like sixteen seventeen day.

Speaker 1 (10:16):
Right, they ky, let you go, and then you're like,
let me did school?

Speaker 2 (10:19):
Yeah? Yeah, I went to school and I yeah, I
was working for I think it was uh a year
and a half. I was working two jobs and I
was a full time school. Yeah, okay.

Speaker 1 (10:29):
And you mentioned that you always like battled with like
your weight and stuff growing up though, right, So was
it because of what for me? Because I'm Mexican and Latina, Like,
I feel like it's I guess hard, not harder, but
it is more difficult because all we is rice, beans,
tortillas and bread and all this stuff and you have
no other options. You had to eat because I obviously

(10:51):
you're younger and I don't. Yeah, I'm gonna share, and
I've people are probably tired of hearing it from me.
But I went to fat camp. Wow, my mom sent
me my can't she sent me to fat camp.

Speaker 2 (11:01):
When I was.

Speaker 1 (11:05):
Ten eleven? I would say, And so because my mom
if you guys, you guys probably don't know. But my
mom was an artist. She was a Mexican artist, so
her image and her weight was super important to her,
and so it reflected on her kids. And then because
my grandpa was also very like tough on her too,

(11:27):
like he made them go to the gym. And then
my dad also was like a baseball player. He wanted
take me to track or whatever. And I went to
fat camp. So that's why I was asking, like, how
was your weight growing up? Like was it like really
really heavy on you, like your parents are, like did
you have no other choice or.

Speaker 3 (11:44):
What was that?

Speaker 2 (11:45):
Like?

Speaker 3 (11:45):
Like wait, so sorry before you answered that, can you
tell me what fat camp entails?

Speaker 1 (11:49):
Okay, So fat camp it was like this thing. And
she also had sent my sister too, and they put
the camp was strategically next to Hershey factory and somewhere
far so every day that my sister would wake up.

Speaker 2 (12:04):
That's my st up.

Speaker 1 (12:05):
You would smell the chocolate.

Speaker 2 (12:07):
Fuck that's really fucked up.

Speaker 1 (12:08):
No, but let me let me just say this at
the end of the day, like my mom had her
best intentions, and I'm grateful because now I know like
what it means to take care of your body. And
although she didn't do it in the best way. Like,
I know what it means to take care of your
health and your body, and I know that, you know,
at that time it was important. But fat camp was
basically just a hardcore boot camp. You I was sent

(12:30):
to San Diego. It was like a dorm, like a
big college dorm, and you would you're in a room
with a bunch of girls or yeah, girls and there's
obviously boys. Obviously it was like separate. But you wake up,
you work out, you have you go to the buffets
like a certain like male plan breakfast buffet. Yeah, like
like a buffet, but like like cafeteria per se. Right,

(12:53):
So the cafeteria you go, there's there, you get your food,
you have your you have your notebook of what you're
eating and all this stuff. You have a specific person
that you're accounted you have to be accountable with. And
our dessert were like little gummies, like the Welch gummy bags,
but the small little baby ones.

Speaker 2 (13:12):
Right.

Speaker 1 (13:12):
So it was basically that you go with the cafeteria,
you go work out like twice a day, and then
that's it. Eat, workout, sleep, What do you do throughout
the day. I honestly I can't remember. All I remember
is like running around the school like as part of
like exercise. That's all that's literally be That's all I

(13:33):
remember is literally running.

Speaker 3 (13:34):
This is during the summer.

Speaker 1 (13:35):
This is yeah, during summer. But I remember I hated
it so much, Like I cried until and I had
my sister come pick me up. I was like this
is like I'm sorry, like I can't do this, Like
it was literally eating me alive. Like there'd be kids
even though probably had it worse than what I probably felt.
But they were like they would save all their gummy bags,

(13:56):
the little gummy bear bags inside their their cabinets, and
they would come to check like the like the supervisors
or whatever the fuck they were like they would come
and check the cabinets and like see or whatever. But
I don't know if they do them now, but I hope.

Speaker 2 (14:11):
It was a lot.

Speaker 1 (14:12):
It was draining. It was a lot, and like to
this day, I still battle with like obviously like battle
body body dysmorphia and like really taking care of myself
because it is social media.

Speaker 2 (14:23):
It is like.

Speaker 1 (14:25):
My family had a reality show. So like watching back
the clips and like YouTube and all that stuff, like
it would mess with me. So that's why I was asking, like,
how was it for you before social media? Like your
weight and like a normal day or you know, even
for you Iliyah, like you creating.

Speaker 2 (14:40):
Zela.

Speaker 1 (14:41):
I keep saying around Zella Fitness, Like what made you
get to the point of creating something to help inspire people?

Speaker 3 (14:48):
Yeah? You know what I mean, you want to go first,
because I think there's still a question for you to.

Speaker 2 (14:53):
Yeah, there is. I didn't know. I didn't know you
want to Yeah. Yeah. Growing up, I think I started
getting bullied when I was in elementary school. And the
very first bullying. I will never forget this in my
life because I remember I called my mom to come
pick me up because I was crying and these girls,

(15:16):
these group of girls, they literally were bullying me in
elementary school. I think I was in I think I
was in fourth grade or something. I'll never forget. They No,
I wasn't in fourth grade. Fifth grade, and I was
going through puberty a little by little, and I think
I was twelve thirteen. Raised how old you are in
fifth grade? Sixth grade?

Speaker 1 (15:35):
Sixth grade, you're probably like eleventh eleven.

Speaker 2 (15:38):
Or yeah, And I think a little bit little I
was starting to go through puberty or whatever. And these
girls started calling me pizza face, and it was the
most fed up things I've ever heard in my life.
And I started crying. And then that started. They started
attacking me more and more and more and more. So
from then on, I used to get bullied for being fat,
and I used to be called for being just. It

(16:00):
was just it was really really messed up. It messed
me up so bad to the point when I was
in high school, I literally used to just hang out
by myself on the third floor. Wow. Yeah, it was bad.

Speaker 1 (16:11):
Oh my god. I feel that because I would go
to school too, and I wouldn't be able to do
the pe like thee because I was too I was
too tired to run, yeah, like, and people would make
fun of me because I'd be at the end or
like you know when in high school you have to
reach a certain time girls how to reach like yes,
under eleven minutes to do them mile and I'm like,

(16:32):
I would literally be like, I got my period, I
can't run today.

Speaker 2 (16:35):
You know what I did is I be friend with
my pe teacher and I be friends with my pe
teacher and I just begged her. I'm like, please, I
will do anything, just do not make me run. And
I used to. I remember even in high school, in elementary,
middle and high school, I used to not want to
be seen in the cafeteria because I would just get
bullied so much because people because it's I don't think

(16:59):
I don't. I've never said this, but it's even when
you're ordering food. Whenever you're anywhere around food and there's
other people around you and you're you're in a public setting,
people look at you differently.

Speaker 1 (17:09):
The judgment exactly.

Speaker 2 (17:10):
So whenever I would go want to go get something,
get food from the cafeteria, the kids would just start
picking up and they're like, oh, you don't need that food.
Fat ass like fat, soul like whatever it was, it was,
it was bad. It was bad. It was really bad.

Speaker 1 (17:24):
But now you feel like it's shaped you to who
you are.

Speaker 2 (17:27):
I think it's made me mentally very very very strong,
and I'm happy with especially with ill like he he
he's changed my life. Like it's you know, I can't
look at it because.

Speaker 1 (17:41):
Cry I want to be invited to the wedding anyway.
So how did you start your whole fitness all that stuff?
Because you came from Chicago, right, yeah, so I was.

Speaker 3 (17:51):
I was born in Belarus and then I came to
Chicago when I was really little, I was like three,
and I lived in Chicago until I was about twenty four,
roughly moved to la about three years ago, and in
Chicago was doing something completely different actually plumbing. Oh yeah,
so like something completely different. But I loved working out,
like I love fitness, and I think, like first and

(18:14):
foremost a characteristic that I've had and like that I've
just seen come to me naturally. It's like I just genuinely,
like with all good intention, want to help people, and
like combining fitness with that, I was like, I want
to start a fitness company that a I can make

(18:35):
money off and make a living off of and be
help people. Right, So like I have these two two
things in my life I want to achieve, and so
that's why I started Zeo Fitness.

Speaker 1 (18:44):
You put it hand in hand exactly. Wow, Yeah, because
you were were you always fit or you kind of
all like you started and you just got inspired.

Speaker 3 (18:53):
So my my mom was so strict on me when
I was growing, like so so strict with food. I
can't even explain to you. I would up until about seventeen,
where I got my first job or when I got
my first job. No McDonald's, no eating out, like like

(19:15):
zero zero, and I remember going to like going on vacations,
and we go on vacations maybe twice a year. We
go like Mexico or whatever, and it would be an
all inclusive restaurant or all inclusive resort, and I would
just binge like crazy, like Coca Cola, sprite pizza chips.

(19:35):
My mom would be like, why are you what are
you eating? And I'm like, at the time, I was
just a kid. I didn't know what was going on.
But it's because I wasn't allowed to have anything, right,
And then when I'm allowed to have something, I'm just like, Okay,
I'm going all in, which actually kind of carried into
like my current life. But the point is I don't

(19:56):
know where I was going with.

Speaker 2 (19:59):
The how have you watched the Office? My favorite sometimes
that sort of sentence, I don't know where I'm going,
but I hope I find it along the.

Speaker 1 (20:05):
Way, like you're finding it. No, you were saying how
your mom was super strict on you, and like.

Speaker 3 (20:10):
Oh, you asked me like if I was always fair?

Speaker 1 (20:12):
Yeah?

Speaker 3 (20:12):
So yeah, so my mom was really really strict. I know,
like I went out of tangent. Yeah, but she was
super strict and I didn't.

Speaker 1 (20:21):
I was.

Speaker 3 (20:22):
I looked always really good. I played sports, I was
genetically blessed with a really good physique. And yeah no,
but I you know, actually, another reason of why I
want her to do is like I didn't want to
waste my jeans. Yeah, you know, I was like I
was just like literally blessed with a nice body and
all I have to do is eat correctly and work

(20:44):
out and I'll look really good. So I didn't want
to waste.

Speaker 1 (20:46):
That must be nice.

Speaker 3 (20:48):
Yeah. No, definitely I do have the upper hand like
in terms of that, but it's still a lot of
it is.

Speaker 1 (20:53):
No, of course it is. So when so when Susie
came into the picture, like hey, Ilio, can you help me?
Like did you take it serious or how was that?
Like did you actually believe her?

Speaker 3 (21:07):
I mean, so I remember that. I remember It's like
a tea. I was in the Zealo gym and Susie
comes up to me. She's like, hey, I'm I'm I
want to do this fight and I want you to
train me for the fight. And in the moment, I
wasn't thinking immediate okay, this is going to be a
documentary weight loss journey. I was thinking, okay, yeah, she
wants to help her fight. I can have my boxing coach,

(21:28):
my boxing trainer help her.

Speaker 1 (21:30):
Okay, wait was that fight like a legit fight or
was it like trolling?

Speaker 2 (21:35):
No?

Speaker 3 (21:35):
I was fighting, Okay, I mean it was a legitimate fight,
but it like it was an amateur fight.

Speaker 1 (21:40):
Okay, okay, okay, so thank you, yeah, okay.

Speaker 3 (21:45):
But yeah, So at that point in my head, I
was like, Okay, this could actually be something, right, this
could be the start of her journey because she's going
to be training and getting into shape for the match anyways,
I might as well start her fitness during. And so
that's how we got started.

Speaker 1 (22:02):
Did you have that plan though, like because you did
Na Natalie right, yep? Did you want to do somebody
else or did you want it just to come to you?
Like want them to want it?

Speaker 2 (22:15):
Yeah?

Speaker 3 (22:15):
I think first and foremost, you you have to have
them want it more than you want it, you know,
for them. And that's like so important because if I
reach out and I'm like, hey, I want you to
do this, it's not going to mean much never Yeah, right,
no matter, no matter anything, they have to come to
you and have to be like I want.

Speaker 1 (22:33):
To do this, dude, So did you expect to like
be where you're at now?

Speaker 3 (22:37):
Though?

Speaker 1 (22:37):
Like cause the fight kind of like it didn't fuck
you up? Because I noticed that like after December like
twenty twenty two, you stopped posting. I like I noticed,
and then in March you started posting again of this year,
so I'm like, did it really mess you up? Like
mentally and then obviously physically.

Speaker 2 (22:57):
Like a yeah, in December, after the fight, I went
into Ilia's office and I told him, I don't know
if I wanted to, I think you should say the story. Yeah,
so the he's he'll say about her, I just talked
too much.

Speaker 3 (23:14):
We don't really have like much of a plan.

Speaker 2 (23:16):
Yeah.

Speaker 3 (23:17):
After the fight, Yeah, it was just kind of like
if she wins, great, it'll be this awesome moment. And
she obviously ended up losing, which then made me realize, Okay,
now she needs a redemption arc. And that redemption arc,
in my eyes, was she needs to run a marathon.
And for like for probably a month, she hated me,

(23:38):
like hated because because I would make a run so
fucking much because obviously for a marathon, you got a
train and the number one thing she told me when
she started, like, I'll do anything but run.

Speaker 1 (23:51):
I hate running.

Speaker 2 (23:52):
When I first started, when I first first first started,
I said, Yo, bro, I'm gonna tell you one thing.
You literally have me claw I'm Mount Everest. Yes, have
me climb. I have me climb up, dude, I have
me climb anything. Do not make me run.

Speaker 1 (24:07):
I hate it though. I hate running too because I
have big test, Like I'm just like, it's so as
a girl, just feels so ugly.

Speaker 3 (24:16):
But I mean, yeah, I totally agreed and probably uncomfortable,
but I took that as like a positive and I
was like, Okay, I'm going to make her do something
that she hates, right and and I'm going to make
sure that she understands that even if she hates it,
she's still gonna be able to do it, you know
what I mean. And so after that month, we obviously

(24:40):
had a actually multiple conversations, and she changed her We
changed up her mind a little bit, and she got
more into the routine of it and got consistent, and
then she ran a half marathon.

Speaker 2 (24:51):
Well before the half marathon, we run a so yeah,
so basically to kind of sum it up as yeah.
In December, after the fight, I felt really discouraged and
I cried and I it was bad. I just didn't
want to move forward and I was I was upset.
I was sad, And after speaking with him, he just
as he said, we just wanted to keep going. And

(25:12):
he told me, he said, yo, you can't stop, like
let's go, like we gotta do this, and one hundred
percent without him, I wouldn't have been able to. And
we started training before the half marathon. We actually ran
a spartan race. I don't know if you're aware. I
don't know if you know what this was.

Speaker 1 (25:29):
Yeah, I I've done something like that called a mud run,
but it's mud and it's like, oh, that was horrible. No,
I want at that time, the time that I did it,
I was I was a lot, like way more overweight
and client getting in mud and you're breathing like it's
just really really bad, and I just I was during
a reality show and that was like the moment for me,

(25:50):
like that I needed to lose weight Insteah. So for me,
I mean, I'll do it again just to see where
my body and my mind is at. Yeah, but it
seems like, Okay, that seems scary.

Speaker 2 (26:01):
Yeah, dude, a Spartan race, if it's crazy, we did
it a month apart. Yeah, we did a Spartan race
after we did a half marathon together. Oh my god.

Speaker 3 (26:10):
And it's funny because the marathon was supposed to be
this like the peak of it, this huge accomplishment. But
after the Spartan race, I'm like, I don't give a
fuck when everybody says that was the hardest thing ever,
and really half marathon?

Speaker 1 (26:25):
Is it like X Games like harder? Probably.

Speaker 2 (26:29):
I mean, it's just like we were in the middle.
I'm sorry to cut you off. We were in the middle.
I'm not even I'm I swore to god, I'm not
even exaggerating when I say this in the middle of
the desert. Imagine being just miles into the desert and
you're just running and if you died, I mean in la.

Speaker 3 (26:51):
Oh no.

Speaker 2 (26:52):
Yeah.

Speaker 3 (26:52):
So it's similar to like the Mound round where you
have obstacles every many miles. Yeah, it's pretty brutal.

Speaker 2 (27:00):
It was twenty five obstacles.

Speaker 3 (27:01):
Yeah. I made it made everything else seem like a cakewalk.

Speaker 2 (27:03):
Yeah, it was just we had to go over we
had to go over big walls. And I'm five feet tall,
so tiny. Yeah, so I'm five feet tall, so seeing
these giants, I'm just looking up. I'm like, dude, what
is going on right now?

Speaker 3 (27:20):
Yeah?

Speaker 2 (27:20):
And you have to you have to.

Speaker 3 (27:24):
Rock climb.

Speaker 2 (27:24):
No, not rock climb the rope ladder. No, hangy, think
you like you go like that?

Speaker 3 (27:32):
Oh?

Speaker 2 (27:32):
The monkey bars, monkey bars?

Speaker 3 (27:33):
There we are.

Speaker 2 (27:35):
Thinking the monkey bars. One monkey bars were actually spinning.
Oh no, as it's spinning, you had to jump on
to the other one. You made her do this. We
wanted to. Oh my god. It made when you're in
that situation, it makes you strong. Of course, fighter flight, yes,
it's a fighter flight.

Speaker 3 (27:56):
And also again, like I said, doing something that hard
makes you realize everything else is. And then after the marathon,
it was easy, brezy, fun.

Speaker 1 (28:07):
It was so easy, like the marathon should have been first,
and then the spartan.

Speaker 2 (28:11):
No, I'm happy that the spark Yeah, I'm happy this
spart was first because then it made us stronger, Well
made me stronger that I looked at the half marathon
kind of like a quote unquote reward, if that makes
any sense, right, because it's thirteen miles. But you know
what the thing is is when you're running, you don't
realize you're running for me anyway. After three miles, I
don't even feel my legs anymore. I'm just i just

(28:33):
feel like I'm running on a cloud.

Speaker 1 (28:34):
I'm just like I can't relate. I'm still thinking about
when am I gonna stuff? No, but dude, that's awesome.
I just from in these nine months, you've you've it's
been nine months, right or you're almost You've done a
boxing fight, a Spartan race, and a marathon.

Speaker 2 (28:51):
We have marathons.

Speaker 1 (28:52):
Dude, that's off boss ship right there.

Speaker 3 (28:55):
He did swim week.

Speaker 2 (28:56):
Yeah, and I did swim he walks.

Speaker 1 (28:58):
I saw that you're hot shit right there? That's why
was it Miami?

Speaker 2 (29:04):
Yeah?

Speaker 1 (29:05):
Dude, how did you feel? Were you nervous though?

Speaker 2 (29:07):
Like in the beginning, I was a little nervous, But
it's the second I was about to go on on
the runway I heard them yelling from my left ear,
and that's what pumped me up.

Speaker 1 (29:18):
No, I was because it was like your first time
wearing a two piecee or.

Speaker 2 (29:22):
No, well, I wore one in Cabo two years prior, right,
but it was long like the Long Underwears. But I
we I after that. I never wore it again just
because I didn't like how I look but it was
it was again. It was just like the Long Underwars.
It wasn't like what I wore.

Speaker 1 (29:40):
So how do it feel like now? Like after that?
Did it feel different? Did you like how you looked?

Speaker 2 (29:45):
After one hundred percent? But I definitely I know there's
more progress that I would like to make, But for
the most part, I'm proud of everything that I have
accomplished and with Ilia's help, and yeah, doing that runaway
was just it was It was crazy. It was especially
hearing them because they were they were a legit front row, right,

(30:05):
they were legit in the front row. And as I'm
about to go up, they noticed that I'm not. I'm
about to go on the on the on the runaway,
and I hear them yelling, and it just I got
this burst of adrenaline in me. WHOA, we're in a
clap to that good jobs, cute clapping music.

Speaker 1 (30:24):
Yeah, we're gonna do having music. All right, We're gonna
go on a quick quick break and we'll be right back.
Because I kind of want to know what your family
thinks about where you're at, and talk more about your
fitness and all that.

Speaker 2 (30:35):
Okay, wait, what do you mean we're going on break?

Speaker 1 (30:37):
Oh it's because I have to go on break. No no, no, no,
going for lunch for lunch, but we'll be right back.
Welcome back, you guys. Okay, so I break, we're talking
about like Shoddy and o'suff. I would honestly love to
see her do a whole little ilia. Can you say

(30:58):
it again?

Speaker 2 (30:58):
What's the zeala?

Speaker 1 (30:59):
Z love Zila? I don't know why my mind goes
to Zayla, I know, but like it's the ex anyways,
but for all of it, dude, that would be a
cool YouTube video though, for like everybody to do like
a whole trial.

Speaker 2 (31:12):
I'm scared me and ill training her, dude.

Speaker 1 (31:16):
Yes, because because she's no she's good because I've taken
her to the gym with me and she'll run like
she'll run more than me.

Speaker 2 (31:24):
I'm like, that's that's actually really cool.

Speaker 1 (31:26):
Yeah, but anyways, be on the point. How does your
family feel about your journey?

Speaker 2 (31:33):
They're really proud of me. Yeah, it's funny, you know,
it's really really really funny. I was just talking to
my mom about this. Yesterday, she stepped on the scale
and she looks at me all for She's like, I
lost eight.

Speaker 1 (31:47):
My parents.

Speaker 3 (31:49):
My dad will send me photos of him. You're at
twenty four hour fits with your mom. You're streaming at
her with a whistle.

Speaker 2 (32:01):
Due I make a talk on her and you're like, yo,
what the what are you doing?

Speaker 1 (32:09):
I like how Susie laughs but doesn't last like she
holds it like in her That's what she said.

Speaker 2 (32:17):
They never disappoint Huh, they never disappointed.

Speaker 3 (32:21):
You've never had a bad one. Yeah, yeah, there.

Speaker 2 (32:27):
He's saying that. That's what she said, has never been bad.

Speaker 3 (32:29):
Oh wait, what she's really good at that's what she said. Really, No,
it's like it's it's pretty impressive actually, because it's not
it's not cheesy ones. It's it's the ones that you
wouldn't think of, right.

Speaker 2 (32:42):
And he always tells me, he's like, how do you
think of it? Whatever? We're talking about something, but it
always spot on. Okay, sorry, no, yeah, my mom, my
mom and my mom. She stepped on the scale yesterday
and she told me. She told me, she's like, I
lost eight and I have to say, I mean, it's Okay,

(33:03):
I always make fun of my mom. My mom knows
if my mom was watching his MoMA love you. But
I get mad at her sometimes because she's getting older,
and I always tell her, dude, stay away from sweets.
So whenever she's whenever I see her eating sweets, now
she gets scared of me and shows just hide it
or if I see it, I'm just I tell her, yo, dude,
don't you're getting older. And in my brain I get

(33:26):
afraid because whenever you get older or you're more prone
to getting you know whatever, diabetes. Yes, diabetes is the
number one thing I'm afraid of her getting. And yeah,
and with my dad as well. I always get mad
at my mom and my dad. Yo, you guys need
to lose weight. My older brother Nick actually lost some

(33:47):
weight because he did get a little jelly. I'm gonna
be honest with you saying it on air right now.
He did get a little jelly because I got attention
because I was losing weight. So he's like, if that,
i'm'll lose weight though. But Vardon, my younger brother, Vardon
is seven teens, so I don't think he's really there.
Of yo, I need to do it. But my older
brother did it. And my parents I'm trying to motivate

(34:08):
them because they're they look at me and they just
they don't. I don't think that they can. I don't.
Let me just put it to you this way. They
didn't believe that I could do it because because I've
always loved food. I've always loved food, So I don't
think that they kind of were like, yo, she has power.

Speaker 3 (34:26):
There's your mom told us to so many, so many
she said. She said that Susie used to sneak in
food like door.

Speaker 2 (34:38):
Dash so embarrassing stops place like was.

Speaker 3 (34:42):
It canes or burgers or something or in and out
through her bedroom window.

Speaker 1 (34:49):
But look look about it, look now like I know she.

Speaker 3 (34:55):
Isn't it crazy? How like to what? Yes, humans will
go to to get their fixed because if you think
about it, like no, but really like food is like
a drug.

Speaker 1 (35:06):
Man be It was a comfort yeah for me because
my dad had passed away. I've always been like overweight,
but after my dad passed away, like it got more
and then my mom passed away. I had gotten this
gas stik surgery before my mom passed, and then after
it kind of just reversed because I kept eating and
eating and eating. Was it a comfort for you too, Like,
did you feel like you were hiding something or like,

(35:28):
did like eiling a part of you?

Speaker 2 (35:30):
I would feel sad when people, when kids would bully
me in school, and then I would go home and eat.
But here's another thing, is that again intermedian households as well,
you have to eat, and if you don't eat, you
are kind of you're being disrespectful to their food, whether
it's my mom or my grandma. And then I eat,

(35:51):
and then I and they're saying you ate, you eate.
So what do I do?

Speaker 1 (35:56):
Yeah, like then you ate too much or whatever. Yeah,
and you understand completely if you're so rude if you
don't eat it.

Speaker 2 (36:02):
Yeah yeah, yeah, it's like yeah, but.

Speaker 1 (36:04):
Then you make fun of me a day later. Yeah,
it's so ugh, I get it. Illia, did you ever
feel like because did you have like a responsibility not
only just to help her lose weight, but to help
her like mentally as well though as a friend?

Speaker 3 (36:17):
Totally? Yeah, I think they go completely hand in hand. Yeah,
it's that's I think it's. First off, you have to
change your mentality and understand that this is a lifestyle change.
It's not a six month, nine month, one year. It's like,
if you're committed to this, you have to figure out
a way to do it naturally forever, right, right, So
that's that's the hardest thing. Losing the weight is actually

(36:40):
pretty easy, like when it comes down to because it's
just science, right, right, If you eat less, then you'll
lose weight. But it's it's more than that. It's way
way more than that.

Speaker 1 (36:48):
Yeah, do you feel healthier mentally?

Speaker 3 (36:50):
Though?

Speaker 2 (36:51):
I was about to ask him, do you think I've
changed in the past nine months? I would like to
actually know.

Speaker 3 (36:57):
To be honest, I don't even remember the old U.

Speaker 2 (37:00):
Like, see that answers your question already.

Speaker 3 (37:02):
Yeah, Like I really I don't remember the old I.

Speaker 2 (37:05):
Don't remember the old me either. I don't remember the
old me. But I to answer your question, I do
feel mentally a lot stronger. You know what the thing
is is, I always tell ill I feel this is
how I feel. Maybe other people don't feel this way,
but losing weight has one hundred percent been the hardest
thing I've had to do. And the reason I say
that is because you need to stay committed, you need
to have willpower, you need to not you need to

(37:27):
want it. You need to stay consistent. You need to
stay consistent. And I've realized that mentally, what has done
to me is it's made my brain stronger. It's made
me more attentive, more awake, which I was before, but
I am. I feel it ten times more now and
I do feel like mentally I have so much more willpower.
Like this is just a prime example. I was just

(37:47):
talking about it a few days ago. I could easily
say no to alcohol hypothetically if I go out. I
stopped drinking whenever I was on the journey, because it's
just unnecessary calories that you don't of course, and I stopped.
I stopped drinking. And I was never really a crazy drinker,
but I would have drinks here and there or whatever.

(38:07):
You know, whatever you go out you want to drink.
But I started gaining so much more willpower where I
started saying no, and that made me start saying no
to other things.

Speaker 3 (38:17):
Yeah, being able to say no gives you almost like
more power to your willpower. It makes you feel like
you're in control, but not just.

Speaker 1 (38:25):
To like food or to drinking, but to like even
people like yes going out or something like getting setting boundaries.

Speaker 3 (38:32):
Yes, yeah, that's like super important to set boundaries when
you're on your journey. Yeah, I mean in your life
in general, but especially when you're trying to lose weight.

Speaker 1 (38:40):
Do you think you guys would have ever done it
like if it wasn't say Ilia wasn't your friend, like
or do you think you could have gotten this far
with the stranger, like a trainer that wasn't your friend?

Speaker 3 (38:51):
No? No, well I mean let me let me I'm
gonna step in for a second, because I think that
if you're a trainer that genuinely cares where you know,
a lot of trainers are just kind of in and
out like they don't actually care. But if you find
a good one, and there are good ones out there,
they're just really hard to come by, then you will

(39:12):
do it.

Speaker 2 (39:13):
Yeah.

Speaker 3 (39:13):
Number one, like I said before, the most more things
that you have to want it, and then number two
you have to have somebody else want it for you
as well of.

Speaker 1 (39:20):
Course of course, yeah, I know that was my trainer
for me though, Like she ended up leaving the Texas
and then after that, like she left when was it
like March? She left in March, and I haven't been
able to find a trainer since like because it's a
connection and luckily you guys were friends before, but it

(39:40):
brought you guys closer, right, So it's like it's she
was literally like my therapist, like that one hour session,
Like it's just it was so healing to me. I
it would I used to hate going to the gym,
but when then she came into my life, I'd be like,
I cannot wait to see her. I need to talk
to her about this, and the hour would go I like, yes,

(40:01):
it would just be so healing.

Speaker 3 (40:03):
And so we would actually have we'd have bi weekly
meetings where the meetings would be like therapy sessions, but
they're not. I didn't call them therapy sessions. I just
called them by meetings where it'd be me, Susie, and
our trainer Xavier, because Susie would get trained by me
and she would also get trained by Xavier, who's like

(40:26):
the strength and conditioning coach. And so anyways, we'd have
these meetings and basically it'd just be her us talking
about her feelings and what she hates, and during that
you know, thirty minutes of time, she would just completely
release and then we'd fix whatever she hated and then
move forward.

Speaker 2 (40:44):
But you have to have that.

Speaker 1 (40:46):
You have to have that vulnerability and to be able
to like say it and speak it, because otherwise, how
is he supposed to help you?

Speaker 3 (40:52):
Yeah?

Speaker 1 (40:52):
Yeah, or guide do you or whatever?

Speaker 2 (40:54):
Yeah?

Speaker 3 (40:54):
No, I have to know for sure, I do.

Speaker 2 (40:56):
I do agree with you for sure.

Speaker 3 (40:58):
Yeah No, there's.

Speaker 2 (41:01):
Because I was gonna say something, but I was. I
The thing with me and l is I I only
give him so many compliments like this is that's it,
and this is a compliment of the week. Is actually.

Speaker 3 (41:17):
That's is? I?

Speaker 2 (41:21):
Okay, I now it feels when I don't see him,
you start like missing a person because you feel the
same way. Yeah, I'm like, yeah, like cameras on yah. No,
I texted you the other day.

Speaker 3 (41:42):
I was like, because we're done with the journey. I
was like, yo, just because I'm not texting you doesn't
mean that, like yeah, stop and.

Speaker 2 (41:48):
I read that. That's like keep missing me. Sometimes you
have to let go you right.

Speaker 1 (41:58):
So okay, So talking about like being funny, do you
use that as a coping mechanism do you feel like
it helps you? Like are you I I'm gonna I'm
I'm gonna assume and it's not right to assume. But
is it like do you use it to block something
or just or you don't like to talk about your
feelings sometimes?

Speaker 2 (42:17):
Oh damn, I never really thought about it that way,
can I? Honestly, I'm gonna tell you what the thing
is is the reason why I am funny is because
I like to say what people are thinking. That's the thing.

Speaker 1 (42:32):
Also, like without a filter, Like straight up, sure, I don't.

Speaker 2 (42:34):
I don't have a fil He knows I don't have
a filter at all?

Speaker 1 (42:37):
Right, does it get you in trouble sometimes?

Speaker 2 (42:39):
Though? Sometimes I'm always in trouble. I'm always in the
nine months in the nine months, I was in trouble
every day.

Speaker 1 (42:48):
Did you ever want to like quit with her though?

Speaker 3 (42:50):
Yeah?

Speaker 1 (42:50):
With her? Yeah, Like I'm done, Like I can't that.

Speaker 2 (42:54):
I cracked the joke up, but like, all right, I
love her.

Speaker 3 (42:56):
No, No, I mean if the thing is I start
seeing results of the trainee, then like I'm all in
and I will not let anything happen like whatever, even
if I have to move that person into my fucking
bedroom and monitor that's awesome.

Speaker 1 (43:12):
You want me to like you're really passionate about it?

Speaker 2 (43:14):
Yeah?

Speaker 3 (43:14):
No, I mean, like my my trainees like my baby.
It's like my child. Like literally, so I will not
let anything like I won't make sure that they.

Speaker 2 (43:25):
Okay, no, but actually no, it's it's it used to
be a coping mechanism, comedy, because that's beside food. I
would turn to that as well. But it's I really, honestly,
this is this is this is the absolute truth, and
this is something i've I've I have not again. I've
kept I keep my emotions inside, you know, and I

(43:48):
haven't said a public I really do love to make
people laugh. I love seeing a smile on people's faces.
That that's that's It's truly that. Besides having no filter
and seeing what people are thinking. I do love making
people laugh and smile. It makes me happy.

Speaker 1 (44:01):
It makes me feel warm like that, you've made me
feel comfortable.

Speaker 2 (44:05):
Hell yeah the first time. Yeah, that's what I'm saying. Wait,
this isn't our first time meeting. We've met before. I'm kidding.

Speaker 3 (44:12):
What. Well, you guys seem like you like are friends.

Speaker 2 (44:16):
Yeah, yeah, we're cool, Yeah we are cool. Anyways, I'm
just next question next could no.

Speaker 1 (44:23):
I was gonna say, so, I heard you had something
to read to us today, to the class.

Speaker 2 (44:27):
Oh wow, were there already, don't I mean I just yeah, okay.

Speaker 3 (44:34):
Oh yeah, I saw you carrying that in the parking
lot and I was like, what is it?

Speaker 2 (44:37):
Yeah? No, you know what because I was putting my
jacket on and I I put my jacket on and
I tried hiding it but I couldn't, and he saw
it in my hand and I was like oh. But
then he was like, oh, cool jacket. And I was like, oh,
maybe he didn't see it. I mean, I definitely saw it,
but I wasn't like questioning it. Okay, yeah, all right,
so you know that. Hold on, I'm out my phone

(45:00):
numbers on it, so I'm sure I was showing up.

Speaker 1 (45:02):
Me let me show can I show it?

Speaker 2 (45:05):
Okay? So you know you know that I'm moving out right, yes?
Oh where are you moving to? Well?

Speaker 3 (45:11):
We we just into our house.

Speaker 1 (45:14):
We're getting married now, No, so you know.

Speaker 2 (45:17):
That I'm I'm moving out. So I obviously when you're
moving out your uhu, no, not your not your emotions,
You're you're taking out memories, memories because you're.

Speaker 3 (45:32):
Just throwing stuff away.

Speaker 2 (45:35):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (45:35):
So I was.

Speaker 2 (45:35):
I had put a letter of two letters actually in
a box and it's crazy. I told her about I
didn't tell her about it. I I told one of
the people here and they told her. She knows. And
this is the first time I actually I wanted to
text it to you a few days ago when I
found it, but I didn't. And I found a letter

(45:56):
that I had written myself in twenty twelve.

Speaker 3 (45:59):
Oh my, oh god.

Speaker 2 (46:02):
Twelve. Yeah, then I was sixteen years old and I'm
twenty seven now, so eleven years ago, I was sixteen
years old and I wrote this letter to myself and
I had I had. The reason I wrote this letter
is because I wanted to see who I was ten eleven,
twenty years from now, so wild. I'm going to open

(46:23):
the letter because I didn't even know. I forgot completely
that letter existed, because it was literally in my memory
box that I didn't I completely I forgot about.

Speaker 3 (46:32):
And have you read it before I read it?

Speaker 2 (46:34):
I read it a few days ago, yeah, when I
found it.

Speaker 1 (46:36):
Okay, So I want to prefer something though. I want
to say I'm bringing it up now because I feel
like we talked about like your childhood and like how
you're healed mentally now and kind of give people the
perspective of like, Okay, this was Susie at sixteen, and
now this is Susi at twenty seven and like eleven
years so you guys hear how her growth has been
since she was sixteen.

Speaker 3 (46:56):
This is the craziest shit I have ever seen.

Speaker 2 (46:59):
Oh wait, wait tell them So it's June first, twenty twelve.
It says it right here.

Speaker 3 (47:03):
I mean it literally feels like we are traveling back
in time.

Speaker 2 (47:07):
Yeah, so sor yeah again to anyone I'm listening or
watching or anything. Again, just to clarify, as Jenica said,
this was me at sixteen years old. I'm a completely
new woman. Now I'm twenty seven years old. I'm stronger mentally, physically,
just I'm I'm in a really amazing place. This was
me at sixteen. So I don't want to read the entire.

Speaker 3 (47:30):
Letterka, but I do want to read excerpts from it.

Speaker 2 (47:34):
Yes, And it's one sentence in particular that I did
want to read to you. Okay, I wrote, I love, Yeah,
I always loved. I don't know who he is yet,
but yeah, I'm gonna love.

Speaker 1 (47:47):
I'm going to fall in love with someone named Ilia.

Speaker 2 (47:49):
Yeah, I'm like, yeah, okay, go Dear Susie, Well, it's
currently June first, and it's one forty eight pm and
I'm in fifth period writing a letter. Things are going good?
Every day is the same shit difficult, Susie. Yeah, school

(48:10):
and home. I wonder if I've lost any weight and
if I'm the same person as I was in twenty twelve.

Speaker 3 (48:16):
Wait, this is twenty twelve. Oh you're writing now?

Speaker 2 (48:19):
Okay, No, I'm the same person as I was in
twenty twelve.

Speaker 3 (48:22):
I'm sorry you reread that song. I'm confused people, all right.

Speaker 2 (48:26):
Dear Susie. Well, it's currently June first, and it's one
forty eight pm and I'm in fifth period.

Speaker 3 (48:30):
Wait, read it again, but I just I want I
want you to do it like you did it originally.
Like Okay, slower.

Speaker 2 (48:38):
Dear Susie. Well, it's currently June first, and it's one
forty eight pm. This is June first, twenty twelve, and
I'm in fifth period writing this of writing a letter.
Things are going good? Every day is the same shit?
School and home. I wonder if I've lost any weight
and if I'm the same person as I was in
twenty twelve. Wow, that was the first sentence of my

(49:02):
two page letter. Imagine The first thing that comes into
a sixteen year old mind is if I've lost any weight. Wow, Wow, damn,
you're getting me emotional. I would cry, Hey, I might
put some water in my eyes. I just let me.

(49:29):
I think I talked a little bit more about wait here,
I want to read it, but I'm just talking about
being a bridesmaid and talking about best friends and loving
one direction. Okay, icends you can't see.

Speaker 1 (49:47):
Did you have an idea of when you wanted to
read this or open it again?

Speaker 2 (49:52):
No? I was supposed to read it in a year.
I was supposed to read this letter a year from
after that, dafter I wrote it. Yeah, that's crazy. I
I actually have a second letter away.

Speaker 1 (50:01):
So it magically disappeared.

Speaker 2 (50:04):
No, I didn't. It didn't disappear it. I put it
in a box and I completely forgot that I had
the book, and I was I'm moving out now and
I was going through old stuff, and it just I
took this out and I was about to I was.
You know what's crazy is I was about to rip
it up, and then something in my brain was like,
don't throw that away. What open it? Something just told

(50:25):
me to do it. So I opened it and I
opened this and I it's you know what the crazy
part is is, I remember exactly where I was sitting
down writing this letter, like it all clicked to me.

Speaker 1 (50:35):
You were in fifth period.

Speaker 2 (50:37):
It was in fifth period one.

Speaker 3 (50:38):
Isn't it amazing how we have these memories that are
stored away, but they're not unlocked until you find something
that makes you remember it.

Speaker 2 (50:45):
Yeah, fucking like her.

Speaker 1 (50:46):
She's like she literally something told her. And I'm I'm
a huge believer in God or subconscious I would literally
be like, God literally told me to open this box,
pull out this letter I wrote out eleven years ago.
That's crazy.

Speaker 2 (51:00):
One second, it's I wanna I want to talk about
I'm like talking about like it's just irrelevant stuff that
you should talk about. I would, uh what else? It's
like it's basically not trusting people at sixteen, which is insane.
I feel that it's crazy. I literally wrote a letter.
I wrote a sentence here that said, we're scared to

(51:21):
let people go, We're scared to let people get close
to us, We're scared to hurt us.

Speaker 1 (51:26):
Literally me at sixteen two, Yeah, bro, what.

Speaker 2 (51:29):
What are you going through?

Speaker 1 (51:30):
What happened?

Speaker 2 (51:32):
And then let me see Wow, before. I think I
talk about weight in the other one as well. Let
me see if I have change behavioral appearance, what I
hang out? And then I basically just talk about I've
been dreaming of going to New York ever since I
could remember. And then you went right, yeah, isn't that crazy?

(51:58):
And then I wrote, anyway, I want to know how
have I changed, friend wise, behavioral appearance, et cetera. I
wrote that twenty twelve, June first, and then I wrote
a second letter, actually a year after January ninth, twenty thirteen.
Actually it wasn't the year. It was six months later.
I wrote it. I don't know what I was thinking,
clearly I wasn't. But let me see, let me see,

(52:20):
let me see. I think I've talked about I think
I talked about weighting this one in my eyes. Can't really.

Speaker 3 (52:27):
You want to read it?

Speaker 2 (52:28):
No, man, you're gonna it's talking about one direction and stuff.
It's weird.

Speaker 3 (52:32):
I want to find the way part.

Speaker 2 (52:33):
Yeah, I think it's up to New Year. Actually I'm
already down here. I just turned eighteen. I don't think
I talked about it.

Speaker 3 (52:45):
Did I I want? I don't know?

Speaker 2 (52:50):
Tell oh, I wrote over here, I wrote tell me
yearly how everything changes, and when you're older, you could
read them all and see how your life has changed.
Let me see in the book. Tell me why. No,
I don't think I talked about weight, but I don't

(53:12):
think I talked about wait in the second letter, but
in the first letter. That's kind of crazy, right, twenty twelve,
sixteen years old. My first sentence that I wrote is
I wonder if I've lost any weight? In a two
page letter, and I was gonna send it to you.
I was gonna take a picture and send it. But
then again, something in my brain told me not to
do that.

Speaker 3 (53:31):
You should bring it to the watch party tomorrow.

Speaker 2 (53:34):
Okay, I'm like I was. You know what's crazy is
I actually was going to do that. I was gonna
do that. That's crazy since sixteen years old, dude.

Speaker 1 (53:42):
But now, literally, you read it at the perfect time
of your life though, Yeah.

Speaker 2 (53:47):
Fucking while, Yeah you read it right now. Yeah, it's
like it was meant for you, and you know where
you know where the box was? It was literally I
put I have a memory box that I had put
together of I have a scrap book of my childhood
growing up, and I had made that because I love
worts and crafts. So I put all of my memories

(54:07):
in that box, and I put and I got that
box and I slid all the way in the back
of my bed so you could never see it almost again.
As I was, I'm saying, unless you thought about it
one day, right, and I didn't even know, dude, imagine
if I had, I don't know, I I would I tripped.
When I read the letter, I was like, whoa what

(54:28):
the first sentence is me talking about my weight?

Speaker 1 (54:33):
But like, if you think about it, like you're sixteen,
literally worrying about your weight. That's when you could be
worried about going to prom or going on a date
or going hanging out with friends, but you're worried about
your weight.

Speaker 2 (54:44):
Yeah, I know, it's said.

Speaker 1 (54:47):
I feel that though. I feel that, Like it's just
you're so consumed about something and it's like you were
ready to help yourself right up until this point. Yeah
that's crazy. Well okay, well we're we're gonna go on
a quick break and then we're gonna come back and
talk about Zila and all that good stuff because we
have some nice little things.

Speaker 2 (55:06):
How long I do this?

Speaker 1 (55:07):
Right?

Speaker 2 (55:07):
I feel like I've been here for two hours.

Speaker 1 (55:08):
No, we're almost done. We're almost done, No worry, but
we'll be right back. Welcome back. We're back from our
little break. Okay, so I wanted to talk about Zila,
how you created it, your programs.

Speaker 3 (55:20):
Yes, so, uh, before before we jump into it, off camera,
we're talking about how in the Spanish community, it's kind
of like a paradigm. We're saying to lose weight because
of the foods that Hispanic seat. And it's funny because
our next documentary trainee, his name is Jimmy Hispanic. He's

(55:44):
four hundred and twenty five pounds. He's five eight, So
that's gonna be a big one, a big one. Yeah.
And he's the sweetest dude ever, like the coolest guy.
But yeah, he's very very overweight.

Speaker 1 (55:59):
And you've started, did it already his journey?

Speaker 3 (56:01):
Yes, okay, started his journey. Yeah, he's on week number
two and yeah he's all in, like he's committed.

Speaker 1 (56:07):
So when they start the journey, do you have like
a idea amount of weeks or you kind of just
go as you can see it.

Speaker 3 (56:13):
Yeah, So we set it up based on how much
weight they have to lose and how much time we
have and in his case, you know, there's I guess
unlimited time, right, but his is going to take about
two years.

Speaker 1 (56:26):
Wow.

Speaker 3 (56:27):
Yeah, so and you know, if he does it quicker
than great. But yeah, I want him to get down
to like two hundred pounds. So he's about to lose
two hundred and twenty five pounds.

Speaker 1 (56:35):
So say, for example, like that, what is his program
A week program look like?

Speaker 3 (56:40):
I mean, it's honestly pretty. I mean, obviously it's a
little different, but it's also similar, right, because he's very
out of shape. Therefore his sessions are more timid and mild,
whereas someone lighter obviously gets it a little bit more
intense off the bat. But yeah, so he's eating at

(57:01):
a deficit, at a cloric deficit, working out, watching his macros. Yeah,
it's it's funny because a lot of people put weight
loss in these like crazy terms and make it so
fucking difficult for people to understand. But the reality is, like,
it's really not that hard. It's I mean, in terms
of how to do it, it's less calories than you

(57:25):
burn per day. It's exercising, and it's eating the right foods.

Speaker 2 (57:32):
But the hardest part is consistency. That's totally that's.

Speaker 3 (57:35):
What Yeah, day over day is what people fail at. Yes,
you know it's like you do it one day, but
can you do it for two months straight?

Speaker 2 (57:43):
Right?

Speaker 1 (57:43):
Was it? Is it harder for you to do macros
suzy because of where you live, like not where you
live being at home and stuff too, Like was it
hard macros eating right and stuff like that?

Speaker 2 (57:52):
Well, we had a meal props?

Speaker 3 (57:54):
Okay, Yeah, that's also one thing that highly suggests how
to be listening is prep.

Speaker 2 (57:59):
You know, got meal props are so much cheaper than
going on grocery shopping. Really, I never understood.

Speaker 1 (58:05):
I feel like I've done the math and it's kind
of well, they both.

Speaker 3 (58:07):
Kind of like they probably add up to abop the same.
Like a meal, A good meal prep is probably around
like ten to fifteen bucks for one meal for one meal, yeah, yeah,
which is if you think about it, like door dash
or post bates. Yeah, you're paying at least bare minimum
twenty dollars. Yeah, yeah, so it's it's totally worth it.

(58:28):
But anyways, Yeah, I started Zela a year and a
half ago. Our first train he was our friend named John.
He lost fifty pounds. He went from two hundred and
twenty five to Yeah, about one seventy. That's crazy, and yeah,
he killed it. That's when we launched Zela with our

(58:50):
protein and our pre workout. And since then, we've done Natalie,
We've done Heath, We've done Susie, We're about to do Zaying.
Really yeah, actually he started. He's been two months and
we haven't documented much, but he's two months and he's
gonna looking amazing. Yeah, And Jimmy, like I was saying
the hispanic dude.

Speaker 1 (59:09):
I'm gonna I want to ask something, Okay, and I
don't know how it'll come off. But for me, when
I created my brand, like it always seemed like I
was leeching off of my mom and her name. When
you created Zeila, did anybody ever did y'all get comments
because of David? Yeah? Was it hard for you though?

Speaker 3 (59:27):
Yeah? I still get comments to this day it's like
didn't didn't David fund this or whatever. It's like, at
the end of the day, what I need to prove
is that this is something that was my baby, was
my vision, And like, I'm not saying that I didn't
get help, right, there's definitely you're gonna get help no

(59:49):
matter who you are, You're gonna get help from your friends,
and I definitely did get help. But like at the
end of the day, it's my mission and my job
for people to understand like this is this is not
Elia's thing. This is Zeala's Zeala stands alone. It's not
you know what I mean, It's not David's, it's not Ilias,
it's not Susie's.

Speaker 1 (01:00:06):
Because David doesn't work out or anything, right, he has
a piece of shop. Yeah right, So it's like completely
different and which I like because at the end of
the day, you are helping people, and which I feel like,
like I understand that because at the end of the day,
I wanted to create the podcast as well to so
people can listen like your guys' stories or whatever, to
heal people, yea, and to bring like some type of guidance.

Speaker 3 (01:00:28):
Or motivation or motivation.

Speaker 1 (01:00:30):
Exactly. You don't have a gym. We do.

Speaker 3 (01:00:35):
So it's actually at David's house. They built out a
gym in he has two garages in one.

Speaker 1 (01:00:40):
Of but like a public one. You would have never
opened a public.

Speaker 3 (01:00:42):
No, I do want to please do yeah, no, I
would actually want to open like a have you ever
been a lifetime Yes, lifetime fitness, uh huh, similar to that,
but I want to add machinery that's like a little
bit futuristic. I have this like really cool idea, uh huh,
but it's just so much fucking money. It's so much money.
And also it's like a separate business, you know, Like

(01:01:03):
right now we're focused on workout programs and protein and supplements,
so like that's what we're doing now. Once we blow
that up, then definitely the next move is is the
gym dude?

Speaker 1 (01:01:16):
Yeah, because like liability and all that stuff. But I
would I would probably be like first member. I would
honestly love to go to you.

Speaker 3 (01:01:23):
I'd be kind of yeah, like I've worked out.

Speaker 1 (01:01:26):
I don't even know how many years.

Speaker 2 (01:01:28):
Yeah, I was two years. I just I was just
like we've been talking. I know, I know people have
heard it so many times.

Speaker 1 (01:01:35):
But we don't have to make like a whole thing
just like no, Okay, well, look like I said, I've
I've been overweight a lot of time in my life.
My dad passed away when I was twelve thirteen, right,
I gained a lot of weight obviously emotional eating, and
then I got the gastric bypass or sleeve whatever, I
don't remember which one. I got it before my fifteenth birthday,

(01:01:58):
and then after my mom passed away. My birthday was
in October and my mom passed away in December. So
after that, I just kept eating and eating and eating,
went to private school or whatever, and we did the
reality show and it got to a point I was
already going to be hitting three hundred.

Speaker 3 (01:02:17):
Wow, I'll tell you, I'm five seven wow.

Speaker 1 (01:02:21):
Five seven, And it was very, very hard for me.
And I remember my specific moment because I always asked, like,
what was like the breaking point for you? And one
of my guests was here before was he said that
his breaking point was that he couldn't go up the stairs,
and he because he has a heart murmur. For me,
it was I we had a reality show and looking

(01:02:43):
back on the clips and all that, like I hated
how I looked, and social media obviously, and I hate
that I have to say that social media was a
part of it. But because I was in the limelight
a lot, like I had no other choice but to
help myself, and I started like I couldn't breathe, like
it was it's harder for me. I love to sing
sometimes like privately at home and stuff. But like I

(01:03:04):
loved but I get it, I don't don't, don't ask no,
But like at home, like I felt like my notes,
I couldn't sing as long as I could because my
breath was cut short.

Speaker 2 (01:03:19):
Are you soprano? Both?

Speaker 1 (01:03:21):
Yeah?

Speaker 2 (01:03:21):
I how do you know that, Susie? Maybe I know everything?
Damn y oh, Susie.

Speaker 1 (01:03:28):
No, But I did have to. I lost a lot
of weight. I lost like eighty pounds eighty and then
I got surgery. I did all this, like I did
a tummy tuck and all that, because it was just
I couldn't drop anymore. It was and I they took
off like thirty pounds of skin off of me.

Speaker 2 (01:03:47):
Whatever.

Speaker 1 (01:03:47):
Even then, even till this day, I still want I'm
still going. I'm That's why I was asking, like, dude,
please open up the gym, like I'd be so down.
Like I go to the gym here in Woodland Hills
and I loved it up until my trainer left. But
because like it's all the same energy in the vibe,
and I feel like that's what your gym would kind
of be, like everyone's there with the same mentality because

(01:04:08):
I feel like when you go to like twenty four
like la, like everybody's just doing.

Speaker 3 (01:04:11):
It just to do it, not with like, not with intention.

Speaker 1 (01:04:14):
Yes, so it kind of gets like training even as
a person just to go. So I don't know, I
feel like it'd be dope for you to open up
a gym.

Speaker 3 (01:04:22):
I do want to one day, for sure. I mean,
the next best thing that we're doing is we're launching
our app in January, and that is like the closest
thing that you'll get to a trainer. That's the closest
thing you'll get to a trainer. So you can have
access to that for free.

Speaker 1 (01:04:38):
Oh well, no problem, Okay, Well no, you brought in this,
you guys. They brought in the Zela unreleased.

Speaker 2 (01:04:45):
This comes out when on Tuesday the fifteenth, or whenever
you release this episode.

Speaker 1 (01:04:49):
So Tuesday, Today's Sunday, you guys on Tuesday that you guys,
Happy Tuesday.

Speaker 3 (01:04:54):
Uh.

Speaker 1 (01:04:54):
This is strawberry shortcake. That sounds amazing. I think of
the popsicle.

Speaker 3 (01:04:58):
Yes, it's actually so similar. The first time I tried it,
I was like, because strawberry shortcake popsicle was my favorite
ice cream growing I tried it, I was like hold well,
I'm going to.

Speaker 2 (01:05:08):
Open it, okay, and I put water.

Speaker 1 (01:05:10):
He said it's good with water.

Speaker 3 (01:05:12):
It is good. Way how much water did you add?

Speaker 1 (01:05:14):
It's like this is a sixteen ouns, so it's probably
like a like ten there is that good?

Speaker 3 (01:05:24):
Yeah?

Speaker 2 (01:05:24):
Did you do do.

Speaker 3 (01:05:28):
Like a scoop and actually do one scoop?

Speaker 1 (01:05:32):
One scoop? Okay? One scoop is what twenty five.

Speaker 3 (01:05:34):
Twenty five grands of protein for one scoop?

Speaker 2 (01:05:36):
Yeah, And just to clarify, it's vegan because a lot
of people, I was going to say, a lot of
people always ask question, Yeah, it's vegan.

Speaker 1 (01:05:42):
I'm gonna be honest. I don't like plant based and
I hope that one. Yeah.

Speaker 3 (01:05:47):
I hope so too, because I don't know. I didn't
like plant based either before I started Zila, But when
we got the formula down, I was like, damn, okay,
maybe I'm going to change my mind even like this.

Speaker 1 (01:05:58):
Like even just like that.

Speaker 2 (01:06:00):
Yeah, when this episode airs, it's going to be available.

Speaker 1 (01:06:02):
So your hands on with like all the products and
stuff like that.

Speaker 3 (01:06:04):
Like, yeah, so we have my co founder is a
chief formulator, and I bring him the ideas of the flavor.
He creates it. We go back and forth with iterations,
but he's like the science mastermind behind it, and I'm
kind of like the creative, the vision like that side.

Speaker 1 (01:06:21):
He tells you if it's possible or not.

Speaker 3 (01:06:24):
He usually doesn't tell me it's not possible. Usually it's
their strawberry. Just want to see that it's mixed correctly.

Speaker 1 (01:06:36):
It tast good already.

Speaker 2 (01:06:39):
That's my favorite part is a freeze.

Speaker 3 (01:06:41):
I just want to shake it for you.

Speaker 2 (01:06:42):
Yeah, that's my favorite part, is a free.

Speaker 3 (01:06:47):
I know.

Speaker 1 (01:06:50):
Okay, so this comes out today. Don't you have another
episode coming out?

Speaker 2 (01:06:56):
It's it's coming out today too. Okay, I just dropped today,
so make yeah fourth that final episode just drop today.

Speaker 1 (01:07:02):
Okay, well we shake this up. Yes, please give your
soul shows give everything, so find you your journeys all that.

Speaker 2 (01:07:09):
Yeah. So the fourth and final episode of My Weight
Law Journey is on the Zeala YouTube page. So Zeala
Fitness YouTube page x E E L A H. The
Strawberry shortcake protein just drop today. The workout guide to
the Workout Kids literally just dropped today on the Zeila
Fitness Yeah website.

Speaker 3 (01:07:26):
So she's got like a three months at home workout
guide where like, if you log in to the PDF,
you'll see exactly what workouts you can everything from home
with the bands and stuff.

Speaker 2 (01:07:36):
Okay, cool, I know everything that everything in the It
also comes with the box that you can with all
the equipment, all the equipment that you can will work
out at home. Awesome?

Speaker 1 (01:07:45):
Are you gonna Are you gonna stop?

Speaker 3 (01:07:47):
Now?

Speaker 1 (01:07:47):
Are you gonna keep going?

Speaker 2 (01:07:48):
I have to keep I'm going. I keep going, I
keep going. Keep I can't keep going? No, there there,
I'm definitely gonna keep going.

Speaker 1 (01:07:56):
Yeah, for sure.

Speaker 2 (01:07:57):
We He just texted me a few days ago too,
which is so funny.

Speaker 1 (01:07:59):
But yeah, do you have another goal?

Speaker 3 (01:08:02):
I am?

Speaker 2 (01:08:03):
Okay, I'm a little self conscious of my stomach still
and my arms my trice ups. So those are the
number Like those are the two biggest problems that I'm
that I want to make better. And also my buttocks.
I want to Yeah, my my butt got really small.
It did.

Speaker 1 (01:08:21):
Yeah, Okay, that's fine, We're gonna fix it. Alia will
fix the button without adult uh huh, what about you, Lilia?
Anything For the brand person.

Speaker 3 (01:08:33):
The biggest thing is, like I said, our app that's
coming out in January. I think like a lot of
apps that are out. Now, what do you think.

Speaker 1 (01:08:41):
That's really good? No, I'm not even I'm not even
fucking like, I'm not. I'm not doing this right now
because of the podcast. I swear it to gone like
I'm very picky about protein, so picky. Wow, I swear
you wow. Can you try it?

Speaker 3 (01:08:59):
Though?

Speaker 2 (01:09:01):
It's yeah, it's Do you that you like strawberry too?
A lot of people, a lot of people always say
that it's cold. Yeah, I make a pudding out of it.
You made what a pudding? So I make a I
make a pudding out of it and then imagine it's
so good.

Speaker 1 (01:09:17):
Okay, sorry, So what you were you were saying, what
do you want to do next?

Speaker 2 (01:09:20):
That's amazing?

Speaker 3 (01:09:25):
Wow?

Speaker 1 (01:09:26):
I haven't Wow.

Speaker 2 (01:09:27):
Okay, here, I'm not gonna listen to you anymore.

Speaker 3 (01:09:32):
Next time, I'll send you like a blender bottle so
that you can see how many ounces there are in
the No, no, no, I have them.

Speaker 1 (01:09:37):
I just wanted to do it like here right now.

Speaker 3 (01:09:39):
I don't so I think if there's like a little
bit less water, it'll taste more full.

Speaker 1 (01:09:45):
No, it tastes amazing. It tastes really good. You did
really good.

Speaker 2 (01:09:48):
I can't.

Speaker 1 (01:09:49):
I'm really interested into seeing like all the other products.

Speaker 3 (01:09:52):
Thank you.

Speaker 1 (01:09:53):
I'm obviously like you have a wonderful yeah result result.

Speaker 2 (01:10:00):
And she said wonderful and she waited for you to time.

Speaker 1 (01:10:04):
I wonderful what but really like you're I could see
like your heart and your passion into this.

Speaker 3 (01:10:09):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (01:10:10):
So I applaud you. I applaud you, Susie.

Speaker 2 (01:10:12):
Thank you so much.

Speaker 1 (01:10:13):
Thank you guys so much for being here and for
coming and sharing having stories. Make sure you guys get
your Zilla protein. Go watch Susie's documentary on ze La Fitness,
and you guys, if you're inspired, just please just follow
them and their story and who they are and Zela
and if you really want to get on your journey,

(01:10:34):
I highly recommend it. It's I promise it's worth it.
It's worth it right, good health, all that.

Speaker 3 (01:10:41):
Stuff to add to that really quick. On a final note,
there is never a good time to start ever, never
too late either. It's never too late, and there's never
a good time. So if you think that okay, next
week or tomorrow, it never works. There's never a good time.
So even if it's midday on a Wednesday, just.

Speaker 1 (01:10:57):
Start then and don't have to be on Mondays either.

Speaker 3 (01:11:00):
Yeah, it doesn't have to be on Mondays.

Speaker 2 (01:11:01):
Yeah, a lot of people do say that quote the
night Monday. No, bro, just yeah, I love it.

Speaker 1 (01:11:08):
Well, all right, thank you guys so much. Again, thank
you to everybody listening and watching. I appreciate it from
the bottom of my heart. And we will see you
guys next Tuesday on the Overcover podcast.

Speaker 3 (01:11:21):
Bye bye bye, adios.

Speaker 1 (01:11:24):
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