April 2, 2024 • 48 mins
Generational Healing: Beyond The Bloodline
In this episode of 'Practically Magick,' Courtney Pearl, a multi-faceted spiritualist, dives deep into the themes of generational healing, trauma, and Magick. The episode kicks off with a personal card reading from the Sacred Rebels Oracle Deck, pulling 'New Birth, Guarded Vigilantly,' setting the tone for discussion on nurturing new beginnings and personal growth. Courtney extensively discusses the impact of generational trauma and the process of healing, using the film 'Encanto' as a metaphor for uncovering and addressing familial wounds. She shares insights into the healing journey, including the benefits of spiritual and energy work, even when one lacks a complete understanding of their family history, emphasizing the body's memory of past traumas. Courtney also explores the concept of 'witch wounds' and the historical persecution of individuals seen as witches, relating it to the broader theme of healing. The episode encourages listeners to engage with their own healing processes, emphasizing the power of Magick in everyday life and offering insights on utilizing various tools and resources for emotional and spiritual growth.
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#### Generational Healing: Beyond the Bloodline
Courtney delves into the concept of generational healing by weaving in references from popular culture, notably Disney's "Encanto," a testament to the complexities of family dynamics, inherited traumas, and the gifts that each generation carries. This approach not only brings the topic closer to the heart but also illustrates the Magick in storytelling and its power to heal. By providing real-life examples, including her insights and experiences, Courtney offers a bridge between the ancient and modern worlds, highlighting how generational wisdom and traumas are passed down through our families. Through the lens of her healing practice, she emphasizes the significance of acknowledging and understanding our ancestral patterns to initiate profound healing. Courtney's reflections on the emotional burdens of past generations encourage listeners to embark on their journeys of self-discovery and healing.
00:00 Welcome to Practically Magick with Courtney Pearl 00:19 Unveiling the Sacred Rebels Oracle Deck 01:26 Generational Healing, Trauma, and Magick Explored 07:02 Insights from Disney's Encanto on Generational Healing 12:55 Personal and Client Experiences with Generational Healing 26:47 Exploring Ancestral Connections and Healing 37:20 Addressing Witch Wounds and Embracing Magickal Identity 46:03 Utilizing Magick and Healing in Everyday Life
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Courtney Pearl [00:01.75]
Hi and welcome to Practically Magick.
This is Courtney Pearl, paganwitch, card reader, healer,
spiritualist, Celtic priestess,teacher, artist, and mystic seeker.
I am discovering true Magick in theworld and I wish to share it with you.
So we're gonna start today's episodepulling a card and because of the
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topic of today's episode, we'regoing to use an oracle deck that I.
do not bring out very often.
It's called the Sacred Rebels Oracle Deck.
And it's one that I keep inmy sock drawer, actually.
I keep it for my own personal pullinga card rituals for morning and night.
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I won't say I'm that consistent.
I'm not gonna lie to you and act like I amjust that good at always pulling a card.
But I do keep this one for personal use.
And so I have not brought itout for public readings before.
But today's episode, just the topicof it, it's going to fit so nicely
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with this deck, especially the coverof the box has a picture of a young
child at the bottom and a woman inthe middle and then an elderly woman.
So kind of the.
made in the mother in the crone typeenergy, we're gonna be talking about
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generational healing and generationaltrauma and generational Magick, of course.
So I would like to pull a cardfrom this deck for today's episode.
And remember, we always start our episodepulling a card and this card is, we're
trusting belongs to whoever's listening atthis moment in time that there's something
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about this card you needed to hear today.
So the card that I've pulled is the number24 and it's New Birth, Guarded Vigilantly.
It's interesting because this is awoman and it's the card is almost all
in black and white but she has it'slike she's tending to a very new plant.
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Courtney Pearl [02:26.162]
green growth coming up throughthe center of the card and
right there on her shoulder.
So you can see the green in the in theleaves growing and you can see a light
green butterfly sitting on her shoulderand she's kind of tending to the plant
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but also she's tending to this littlefragile butterfly on her shoulder and
I think this is a clear message toanyone who's listening that what you
are needing to hear today is there issomething very new growing within you
and it can be outwardly maybe somenew beginnings happening in your life.
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There's some new job,new life, new growth.
Of course, we're coming into springtime.
So there is going to be new growtheverywhere anyway, but I feel
very strongly that this card has.
a more internal inward feeling about it.
So it's about looking inwardlyat what is brand new for you
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coming through, coming forward.
You're starting to see yourself in a newway that you have not considered before.
You are starting to cultivate skillsor cultivate this new way of life.
and it almost feels very fragile.
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It's very vulnerable, and it needs tobe guarded and protected on its way.
It may even be that you're startingto shift into a stronger, more
self-reliant sort of a vibe.
Like I'm coming into a placewhere there are certain things
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I won't tolerate anymore.
There is more I need to do for myself now.
And even though that's sort of astrength or it's coming forward as like
I'm going to stand my ground a littlemore, it's also going to need to be
protected as if it's something brand new.
So although this is a very strong choiceand a very strong path that you're
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starting out on here with this new part.
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It's important to remember that justlike a horse, foal is born and will
one day be walking and running on verystrong legs, that foal is not going
to be born walking on strong legs.
That foal is going to need somegentle love and care in getting
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up on those wibbly wobbly legs andjust starting something brand new.
So I need you to take a moment tothink about what that might be for you.
And what we're going to work onthrough this episode is talking
a little bit about that exactthing of shifting into new spaces.
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And when we're doing that,we're creating Magick.
So
We've talked about the creation ofMagick, making our lives Magickal,
making rituals, making spells, doingwhat feels right for you moving forward.
But I truly believe that in my healingwork, when I work with people in the
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emotional and energy healing world, Itruly believe that any calling you are
making out into the universe that says,this is what I want to have happen.
This is the new way I want my life to go.
That is what creating spells is all about.
Creating stories, creatingthis new story of your life.
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In that process, I don't think we cantalk about any of that or fully begin
to witness ourselves until we reallytalk about generational healing.
Because there are so many things, somany aspects of ourselves that we may
never get to the bottom of all of it.
No matter what we do and no matter howmuch we try, we will never ever fully
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know all the things about ourselves.
But to understand generationalthings is to understand a lot.
And I usually try to add insome stories, some folklore into
the topic of discussion today.
But instead of pulling fromsome ancient folklore or even
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Courtney Pearl [07:05.074]
something that has been around a longtime, I'm going to have you look at
the movie Encanto, Disney's Encanto.
Because when this movie came out andI watched it with my kids, I couldn't
believe all of the things that I had beendevoting my time studying and learning
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about when it comes to healing work.
and have this movie come out and explainit or give examples of it so explicitly.
I was going around.
I still am going around saying,have you seen this movie in Kanto?
And people are like, no, because if theydon't have kids, they probably haven't.
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But I'm telling people who don't havekids and don't have any reason to watch
a Disney movie, please watch this movie.
You must see this movie.
I don't care what age you are.
In my line of work, when you are observingthe world in such a Magickal way, when
you are able to see and feel energies,and I believe everybody has the potential
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for that if they seek that, in my lineof work, my experience, everything that
you can see and feel in a person whenthey are with their family, especially
if you can be around their family,
many generations of their family.
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It's almost like you can feel and tastethe things in the air around everyone
involved that makes them who they are.
And it's interesting becauseI married into a family with a
lot of their own family trauma.
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Many tragic things have
husband's family, a lot of people,a lot of family members that
have died young, unfortunately.
And when you get a chance to be aroundsuch grief or people who are grieving,
and just when it seems like they aredone grieving or if there is even such
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a thing or gotten back into a normalday-to-day life, something else happens
and the grieving starts all over again.
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And I have learned to becomevery comfortable, very
friendly with death and grief.
It's something that I have thoughta lot about and have been around.
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And I actually have a veryrespectful relationship with that.
But the movie Encanto, it starts out withthis woman who has three babies and her
husband dies tragically running from...
some oppressors that are chasingthem and they have to seek safety.
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Because of this trauma that they'veexperienced, they receive a Magickal
gift and their family is going tobe able to have these Magickal gifts
that will help the town to healfrom what they've been through.
They're very, very special becauseevery member of this family, when
they come of age, they get to...
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open a door that is Magickallymade for them in this Magickal
house and each member of the familyis going to get a Magickal gift.
And it might be strength or the abilityto grow flowers or talk to animals
or have prophecies or cook healingfoods that when someone eats it their
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ailments are Magickally disappeared.
Superhuman hearing, allof these really cool
Magickal gifts that they receiveand the message is unbeknownst
to grandma that your value inthis family is tied to your gift.
And when one of the membersof the family does not receive
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her gift, it's very confusing.
And she is the main character who is
Her purpose, her value to this familyis questioned, even though the family
is incredibly loving and incrediblyclose, it begs the question and it is
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forcing everyone in the family to lookat what these gifts actually mean about
them and how they value each other.
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And at the end of the movie, thereisn't really a bad guy, which is
my favorite part about all of thenewest Pixar Disney movies, really.
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It's like, there's no villainin this story necessarily.
It is about this family coming to anawareness of what toxic traits they had
been perpetuating for each other andhow they can begin to heal and begin to
witness that and to begin to make changes.
to how they treat each other, tohow they see each other, and to how
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they support and love each other.
And it's all because of this onegirl who didn't receive a gift.
It was her gift.
The gift was her, justher, not the Magick, right?
So I want to propose some thingstoday and I want you to have an
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open mind as you listen to how
When a lot of clients come to mefor healing work, whether it's reiki
or emotional processing, there areindications to me when something may have
been a generational trauma or generationalenergy that was passed on to them.
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Okay.
Just a second, I'm gonna adjustmy camera here for a second.
Courtney Pearl [13:16.27]
It's just my camera was on the wrongangle and it was driving me crazy.
That's better.
I think.
Okay.
Sorry about that.
I'll try to maybe edit that out or not.
Maybe that's just the real,real adjusting my camera.
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Okay.
Generational healing.
So there is some trauma and healingmarkers that did not start with us.
That is actually even before our ownbirth, before our own conception.
And this can be explained in psychology.
It can be explained in themystical energetic world.
Whatever way you look at it, I thinkthat we can agree that there are things
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we are dealing with in our lifetime,obstacles and belief systems that may
not have even started with us thatwere something that we are either.
It's written into our DNA from thegenerations that came before us or
from experiences they've had thatare passed on, the trauma and the
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effects of the trauma are passed on.
It's kind of like for anybody that'sdone any traveling around Europe, I
haven't been to a lot of the placeslike Germany and Poland and France
that I have heard people talk aboutvisiting those places and that...
there is still a very, there'san awareness that there was
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trauma from the war still there.
Even though probably mostly everybodywho actually experienced the war or
who lived through it has passed onby now, these are the generations
of people who've come after that.
And just speaking to my friends who arefrom Germany and who have family members,
living in Germany and they let me knowthat the effects of the war have changed
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the generations that have come afterthat and that there is still things like
when they see us stand up and put ourhand on our heart and say the Pledge of
Allegiance, they almost cringe becausepatriotism is maybe played down a bit
more in Germany at this point in time.
There is something that comes from
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those experiences that happenedbefore we were even born.
And I'm going to give some examples.
I read a book in my learning, in myeducation called Emotional Inheritance.
And this is a psychoanalyst who tookcase studies where she believes there is
a great correlation between some of thetraumas that we experience now when people
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are seeking therapy and seeking healingand seeking help that if they know what
came before them, if they can find out
what their ancestors wentthrough can aid in their healing.
She talks about one case studyin particular that I was always
fascinated with where she talksabout a man who was going through
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a breakup with his boyfriend.
It had been two years that he hadbeen dealing with the pain and
grief of this relationship ending.
started talking to him about his father.
And he was saying, well, my fatherhad actually unalived himself in a
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probably when he was a child,it was very long time ago.
And he says, of course,that's very traumatic.
I mean, that's something thatwe, my family has a lot of grief
over, but, oh no, I'm sorry,I'm getting the details wrong.
So it's not his father, itwas his father's father.
His father had trauma because hisgrandfather had unaligned himself
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when his father was a child.
So he was talking about that traumaof like, my dad had always been
really loving and supportive of me.
Even as I came out of the closetas gay, he was always really
loving and supportive of me.
But he says, I can't place it.
I have no proof whatsoever.
But I have a feeling that my grandfather,who had never met, he had never met
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before, had those struggles with...
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depression and thingslike that caused him to
to unalive himself, that hadhappened because perhaps his
grandfather was also gay.
And he just said, I don'tknow why I feel that way.
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I have absolutely no proof.
It's just a feeling I've always had.
And as he worked through that,he was able to heal some of the
grief that he was having overthis relationship that had ended.
That for some reason, even though he knewthe relationship, it was best that that...
that had ended.
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He could agree that he was ready to moveon and ready to find love again, but for
some reason he was just having so muchstruggle with this relationship ending.
And then once he was able to kind ofwork through what it would have felt
like for his grandfather to not be withthe person he loved because he could
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never have in his time and place andhis generation come out of the closet
and been authentic with who he was.
Once he worked through some of thosedetails, he was able to really, for
the first time, move on from thatrelationship and find love again.
And what's interesting is in the book,she outlines this this whole story,
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this case study, but she says he doeshave a conversation at one point,
many years later, he, he talks to hisaunt who was older than his father
died and she was able to discuss withhim that yes, in fact, their father
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had been gay, was homosexual and hadwanted to have a relationship with
a man and couldn't because he wasmarried and had children with his wife.
And that led to a lot of his mental healthissues and things that he struggled with.
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Courtney Pearl [19:47.398]
When he found out that every feelingthat he had innately had, his intuition
had told him was true, it releaseda new level of healing in him.
Because as he began to heal his abilityto be with the person he loves, to
find love with another person that wasalso healing the generations of trauma
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and pain that had come before him.
I know when I'm doing healing work withpeople, there are some things, elements
that come up that depending on certainenergy things like the colors that I
ask them to pull out of their body.
If you have a certain color and you aresaying, yeah, this color is black, which
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doesn't always indicate generationalhealing, but sometimes depending on the...
the emotion point that we'repulling out and all the heavy
energy that has to do with that.
I will say, does this feel likeit might be a generational issue?
Is this something thatdidn't start with you?
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Could it perhaps be something thathappened to generations before you?
And I'm going to talk alittle bit more about my own
experiences in that department.
But I did have another friendthat was doing the healing.
art school with and she had talkedabout this and she had talked about
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in her own experience she always hadto work out feelings of abandonment.
Feelings of abandonment came upquite often for her in her healing
sessions and emotional processing andshe thought it was very interesting
because she had distinct memories oftimes when she thought or had fear
that her dad was going to leave her.
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and that fear of abandonment hadcarried into her marriage and her
relationships later in life too.
This fear of abandonment was alwayscoming up for her and was subconsciously
causing a lot of issues, which youknow it can, but not intentionally, not
consciously, just was coming up a lotbecause fear is not a very high vibration.
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And when we are experiencing fear,we are not able to experience
the higher vibrations of lovethat connects us with people.
So if a lot of our arguments and ourissues and in relationships are coming
based on fear, we're going to get to thebottom of where that fear comes from.
So as she was doing her healingwork on fear of abandonment, she was
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very confused because she thought,I haven't actually experienced fear.
or incidences ofabandonment in my lifetime.
That's not something thatshe had experienced much of.
And so when questioning, why wouldI have this fear of abandonment then
if I'm having kind of the symptomsor the PTSD symptoms of an event
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that didn't actually happen to me,where would that have come from?
And in doing her own family research,and I know for us here in Utah,
those of us in the Mormon culture,
Family genealogy is a big deal.
It's a big, big thing.
And so culturally, we are all very bigon getting our family history together,
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researching our genealogy, and there'sa lot of religious reasons for that.
But for this particular incident, it wasincredibly helpful for her to go back
into stories of her family generationsback and realize that there was a period
of time where several of her ancestors
in succession, in a row, had thepatriarch or man of the family had
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passed away young or had left the family.
And so that gave her an incredibleawareness as to where that feeling of
abandonment might be coming from for her.
And when she pulls that out, when shemoves that energy out of her body,
she is not just healing that energy inherself, but she's actually taking it.
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empowering herself to take itfor her generations before her.
And so spiritually, if you believe inthe spirit and the spirit world, it
would be kind of like our ancestorslining up and saying, I'm so sorry I
didn't deal with that in my lifetimeor that I had those experiences in
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my lifetime and passed on that fearto you, but I'm here for you today.
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to gather around you, to support you,to put our hands on your shoulders,
and to help you move this energyout of your body so that you no
longer have to live with that painand that low energy in your body.
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And that is a very powerful experiencefor my clients to get to have.
It is Magickal.
It is like doing Magick.
And whether you're making itinto a spell or ritual or a
healing process or a session,
you can create those circumstanceswhere you get to say, I no longer want
to carry the burdens of my ancestors.
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I no longer want to live my lifewith these same patterns showing
up over and over and over again.
And psychologists, I mean, inthe psychology world, you can
definitely see the patterns suchas, you know, anger and rage.
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coming up for parents to their children.
If that is how they experience parentingand if children experience that from
their parents, it's more likely thatis the only way they will know how
to carry that on to their children.
So you can see generational healingin that same way as what was done
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to me, I do to others, unless Idecide to break those chains and
create new patterns for my children.
So all of this work that we are doingto witness ourselves and to witness what
our bodies hold is in the effort to breakpatterns and chains that do not serve
future generations, that we do no longerwant to ripple out into the world and
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have our children experience as well.
It's up to us to do all of thathard work, which is wonderful and
empowering, and it also sucks.
I mean.
If I can hear the voices ofyour ancestors right now, I'm
hearing them say, I'm so sorry.
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In my white light self, with all thelessons I've learned, having crossed over
into the plane of the other world or theexistence of the spirit realm, I would not
have wanted you to deal with all of this.
I would never have purposely passedthis on to you, son or daughter.
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But here we are, andwe are dealing with it.
So, I wanna talk a little bit about my,just give you another personal experience
of my own, which is that, when I, beforeI had done a lot of my own genealogy or
ancestry, I only knew certain things,like very vague facts and information,
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because mostly I was just not interested.
I mean,
ever before this, I wouldbe like, yeah, yeah.
So our ancestors did that, whatever.
Wasn't something thatI actively sought out.
And I have cousins that are, one cousinin particular that's a librarian and his
favorite thing in the whole world, he'svery good at doing our family history.
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So when I have a question, I go to him.
But.
The point is, because I come from mymost recent ancestral history, which
is not very old at all, is the Mormonpioneers who came across the plains
in the 1800s and settled here in Utah.
If you talk to a lot of generationalMormons that are not converts to
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the church, that is their story.
If they live in Utah or they're fromUtah, they'll say, yep, my ancestors
were doing the hand cards across...
the plains and all the way throughthe mountains and they were there
in whichever company was withBrigham Young that said this is
the place and settled here in Utah.
Unfortunately, that means there's a lotof trauma connected to that history.
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So if you don't know your family history,I was kind of working with my groups that
we were discussing the pain and grief.
of having that be our part of our history.
That because the pioneers came here andbecause of the events that happened when
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they came here, a lot of active genocideto the indigenous people, things that
were very harmful and painful, and thatpeople who are descendants of that feel
the pain and regret and the want to heal.
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the want to do what we can toheal that within ourselves, to
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decolonize, to work through that.
I didn't know a lot of my own history,so we were doing just a guided meditation
where the leader of our group waskind of helping us to work through
some of those generational traumasand she was saying, I'm going to take
you back through with your ancestors.
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had us do in meditation where shesaid, you're going to imagine a red
thread connected from your belly.
And you can see that red threadstretch in front of you and
behind you from your back.
And if you follow that red string back,you will meet those who came before you
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in your line, in your ancestral line.
And as I walked myself back to meet
the women who came before me.
I had such vivid imagesin my mind of a woman.
who had come across the plains as oneof the pioneers, pioneer settlers, the
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Mormon pioneer settlers, and she hadlost all of her children along the way.
And suddenly the pain and grief of my owninfertility came forward at this time.
As I saw this image inmy mind, I realized that
not only is my infertility somethingthat I had to work through and heal and
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understand about myself, I need to workthrough the pain of that is connected to
the ancestors that lost their children.
And what I kept feeling from thisparticular woman in my vision was
that she was very angry because ifshe had come across the plains to
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get a better life for her future.
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for her children and for theirfuture, then what was it all for?
What was she here for?
She's coming into this valley,in the Salt Lake Valley,
childless, without her children.
They had been buried onthe road along the way.
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And now she felt incredibly trapped andgrief stricken and really questioning
what is the point of all of this?
What was the point of following thistrek of religious fanatics across
the plains into the valley and cominghere so that her children could have
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a better future and they all died?
And that was an incredibly powerfulmoment for me, because as I did more
research and as I looked into thestories of the pioneers that came across
the plains and settled here, I wasincredibly sad for them, especially the
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women, because there were groups thatcame with the Mormon pioneers thinking
that they were coming to a better life.
And-
Actually, a lot of them weretold that they would be going to
California, that they would be apart.
They would be going to where therewould be a state in the US, but they
were, for lack of a better term, trickedby Brigham Young, who came here and
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saw this valley and said the words,those famous words, this is the place.
I can only imagine a lotof those women who were
because their husbands had diedalong the trail or because their
children had died along the trail.
And now where were they to go?
What were they to do now?
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This company they were with was not takingthem to California like they had thought.
And now because polygamy was verymuch a thing, they were going to
be forced to marry men just sothat they would have protection
and a family to provide for them.
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and probably father, youknow, children on them.
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So this is very painful.
This is something that I really wantto bring forward for people like me
who are descendants of those pioneers,whether you're still in a church or
not, it doesn't matter because thatgenerational trauma does carry within
us into our bodies and into our DNA.
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And it was powerful for me to
associate that to some of the pain andgrief that I've had in my lifetime with
my infertility or things that have comeup for me in my healing work of my own.
So I always tell people because althoughthe Mormon church and those who are really
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good at doing their genealogy and knowingtheir family's history and for the family
members that kept a written record likejournals and letters and things like that.
that is a great privilege tohave those items, to have that
history, and to know what happened.
I want to reach out for a moment totake consideration of all of the people
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who are descendants of slaves and ofpeople of color, people of all over the
world who are not so privileged to haverecord or documentation of their family
history, people who from closed adoptions.
do not know their birth family'shistory and do not know the genetic
history of their family, they areworking at a disadvantage, or so it
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may seem, because they don't have thatinformation to help with their healing.
And to that I would like to say, evenif you do not have the information
available to you, your body remembers.
You have that informationwritten into your DNA.
It's part of you.
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It gets carried on from generationto generation, whether you
have that documentation or not.
And to that, I would very muchrecommend doing some of the spiritual
and energetic work of accessing thatinformation within your own body.
And that's something that I do inthe IPT emotional process session,
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is I work with people who I say, itdoesn't actually matter if this is a...
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a logical, practical memory thatyou have because we are working with
feelings and we are working with whatyour body is going to bring forward.
So I've told people in sessionsbefore, if you're looking to do
generational work, start within.
Even if you aren't able or don't wantto do the research on your family
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history, start within, look within,start with a meditation, take yourself
on a journey and back into your...
into your own.
family into your own past because itwas part of my journey to go back and to
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see what the recent history of my familyhad done and been through, but to go
back even further than that and try toconnect with my Celtic ancestors and bring
forward what healing and what connectionthat I had with my motherland of...
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the Celtic people, which put meon the trajectory to becoming what
I am today, a Celtic priestess.
So it was all part of that generationalhealing that led me to where I am now.
So I do want to just address reallyquick that part of this work, if you
are in the Magickal realm, if you arewhat I call a like to call myself a swin
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rag Welsh for a charmer or a charmingcharmer woman, woman who does Magick.
If you are in the world of, ofwanting to explore witchcraft
and Magick and things like that.
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There is one thing about generationalhealing that you may particularly have
to address and that is witch wounds.
It even was quite a big step for me tobe able to associate myself with the
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word witch or to say, yes, I am a witch,I do witchcraft, I do work in the realm
oMagickic or instead of just being verycareful and saying, I do energy healing.
And I'm just a simple girlwho likes to I like crystals.
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I put crystals in my house.
I like that.
Sometimes I hang a broom above my door.
But that's just to make it so thatbad energy doesn't come in the house.
You know, it's just a verysimple, no, that's witchcraft.
Please, blowing out candles onyour birthday is witchcraft.
OK?
So.
I think that it's really important toclaim our identity, which is me starting
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this podcast and saying I am a witch.
I am a pagan witch.
I am a folk witch.
I am okay with saying thatbecause it's my identity.
It's part of who I am.
And in saying that, I need tocome to terms with the fact
that those that came before me.
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that did the work that I do, thatspeak out when something feels
unjust, when I talk about energyhealing and vibrational energy and
rituals and practice and worship andwhatever it is that I talk about, that
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Anybody else having done that in pastgenerations would have been called a
witch and would have been persecuted.
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Even women who never used the wordwitch, but would say, you can come to
me if you need help with something.
I know a few tricks and I know afew things that might help you.
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I can put together a charm.
I can put together a blessing.
They were called witchesand they were burned for it.
And as we know from the Salem witchtrials, sometimes those women were
quite simply just a woman whospoke her mind or had an opinion.
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And that's all it took for her to begathered up and tortured and imprisoned
and eventually hung or burned.
And it's important to address that whentalking about generational healing because
my fears are not just stemming from my ownancestors, my own bloodline, but from the
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experiences of the witches and the people
who came before me, who do what I do.
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I was once told in a past life regressionsession that I was one of the women
in the Salem witch trials and thatin many generations of my past lives,
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I was a woman in the village who wasknown for helping people, who was known
for knowing things about herbs andmedicines and charms and sometimes just…
being the woman in the village who wasjust a little bit odd and nobody wanted to
talk to because they were afraid of her.
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So if that gives you any insight intowho I am or what I'm all about, then
I don't know what does because thatgives me a lot of insight into myself.
Okay, and then when doing generationalhealing, when doing an integrated process
session, when I do a processing healingwork with people, if they need some...
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help and support in vibrational energy.
I often ask a client if they wouldlike me to muscle test and figure out
what rocks or crystals would be a goodsupport for them in what they need,
or if they're not much of a crystalperson, that's okay, because Bach flower
essences are incredibly helpful as well.
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I don't sell those thingsmyself, but I know how to get
them or where to access them.
And if you had the
a session that was working withgenerational healing or was helping
you to clear a lot of negativeenergy that didn't start with you.
You would want to have a littlesupport in helping you hold
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that vibrational frequency.
Bach flower essences are littletinctures of that flower that
holds that vibrational energy.
It's just the essence of the flower.
It's not the flower itself.
So typically they're okayto ingest because the flower
is no longer in the mixture.
but has held the essence of the flower.
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So those are taken, you know, dropsunder the tongue or sometimes it
doesn't even require the Bach floweressence or the tincture itself, but
to name the flower and tap it intoyour chest for however many days
that you might need that support.
So.
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That's just a little tidbit ofinformation on the Magickal side.
If that's something that you areinterested in looking into, I would
recommend that you seek me out and wewill get that figured out together.
Okay, so perfect.
My question from a listener todaywas going to be, what if I don't
actually know my own family history,which I did kind of touch on in
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this episode talking about that.
And what I personally can dofor people, if this is the case,
They were adopted.
They don't know their family history butthey would like to do some generational
work to heal and be witness to some ofthose things that will help them and I
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can do a guided meditation or you knowtaking you through During a Reiki session.
I will use my drum to help Bringa person into a very relaxed alpha
brainwave state and then we can
I can guide you through a guidedmeditation or sort of like a journey
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if you are of the shamanic practice.
They take you on alittle bit of a journey.
It's kind of like leaving yourbody for a moment and going back
in time and discovering what sortof things you need to be aware
of to help you to begin to heal.
Okay, so that is something that even ifwe do not have that physical evidence
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of what your family history is, thatdoes not mean that there cannot be
powerful generational healing done whenworking through some of the things that
you're finding stuck in this lifetime.
So if you feel like apattern keeps coming up.
You're like, I keep thinkingI'm never gonna find love.
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I keep thinking I'm nevergoing to have enough money.
I cannot get past that.
I just can't seem to believe it.
Then that might be for you.
So reach out to me and I'm gonnalet you know how to do that after
we talk about next week, ourepisode is going to be on the
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balance of masculine and feminine energy.
This is super important for whenyou're creating spells and when you
are creating manifestation or whenyou are just going through your daily
life, understanding yourself better andknowing what the masculine and feminine
energies actually are because I'm goingto give you a little teaser has nothing
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to do with being a boy or a girl.
It has nothing to do with gender.
Masculine and feminine energies.
It's going to be anamazing, amazing episode.
I can't wait for that one.
I would like to invite you to take whatwe've talked about today and use it
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to find Magick in your everyday life.
Even if that means in your nextquiet moment talking to your
own ancestors and listening.
to what they have to tell you.
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Use Magick in your everyday lifeto strengthen relationships,
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heal, prosper and thrive.
If you would like more informationabout these and other subjects, you
can look for me on my social media, onInstagram at prism underscore healing.
I do live card readings quite often onmy Instagram and I like to post about
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all of my resources andinformation as I am studying them.
So that's a great place to follow me.
You can also find me on Facebook, CourtneyPearl and Courtney Pearl's Prism Healing.
For more information, events coming up,I will be doing my Tarot for Tips, which
I do every month, a Healing ThroughArt workshop and my kids workshop.
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Heart Smart Art, which is an immersiveexperience to raise emotional
intelligence for children and adults.
I hold each of these eventsevery month, so please look for
my website, prism-healing.com.
That is where I will list all of myevents coming up that you can come to.
And I also have a blog for each of mypodcast episodes on my website, so I will
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resource any books that I've mentioned.
or anything else thatmight be helpful to you.
And you can read about it afteryou've listened to the episode.
Then you can also go tomy website, prism-healing.
That's prism, like as in colorsof the rainbow, prism-healing.com
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to book private sessions with me.
That is a Reiki session.
You can do a emotional process session,which I've mentioned many times and
is very incredibly powerful healing.
I also do intuitive card readings ifyou're looking to get a little bit of
clarity and get some answers to yourquestions and many other services
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that I provide there on my website.
So please come visit me on mywebsite because I have a lot
to offer and I am here for you.
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I would love to have you private messageme any of these questions on these
platforms, any of your questions on theseplatforms about Magick, healing, energy,
and it might be featured on a futureepisode as a question from a listener.
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So please write in your questions.
I would love to hear from you.
All right, I am soexcited to hear from you.
I'm so excited to talk to youand I'm so excited to spend this.
time with you.
So go do Magick, witches and wizards.
We'll see you next time.
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Hi and welcome to Practically Magick.
This is Courtney Pearl, paganwitch, card reader, healer,
spiritualist, Celtic priestess,teacher, artist, and mystic seeker.
I am discovering true Magick in theworld and I wish to share it with you.
So we're gonna start today's episodepulling a card and because of the
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topic of today's episode, we'regoing to use an oracle deck that I.
do not bring out very often.
It's called the Sacred Rebels Oracle Deck.
And it's one that I keep inmy sock drawer, actually.
I keep it for my own personal pullinga card rituals for morning and night.
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I won't say I'm that consistent.
I'm not gonna lie to you and act like I amjust that good at always pulling a card.
But I do keep this one for personal use.
And so I have not brought itout for public readings before.
But today's episode, just the topicof it, it's going to fit so nicely
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with this deck, especially the coverof the box has a picture of a young
child at the bottom and a woman inthe middle and then an elderly woman.
So kind of the.
made in the mother in the crone typeenergy, we're gonna be talking about
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generational healing and generationaltrauma and generational Magick, of course.
So I would like to pull a cardfrom this deck for today's episode.
And remember, we always start our episodepulling a card and this card is, we're
trusting belongs to whoever's listening atthis moment in time that there's something
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about this card you needed to hear today.
So the card that I've pulled is the number24 and it's New Birth, Guarded Vigilantly.
It's interesting because this is awoman and it's the card is almost all
in black and white but she has it'slike she's tending to a very new plant.
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green growth coming up throughthe center of the card and
right there on her shoulder.
So you can see the green in the in theleaves growing and you can see a light
green butterfly sitting on her shoulderand she's kind of tending to the plant
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but also she's tending to this littlefragile butterfly on her shoulder and
I think this is a clear message toanyone who's listening that what you
are needing to hear today is there issomething very new growing within you
and it can be outwardly maybe somenew beginnings happening in your life.
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There's some new job,new life, new growth.
Of course, we're coming into springtime.
So there is going to be new growtheverywhere anyway, but I feel
very strongly that this card has.
a more internal inward feeling about it.
So it's about looking inwardlyat what is brand new for you
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coming through, coming forward.
You're starting to see yourself in a newway that you have not considered before.
You are starting to cultivate skillsor cultivate this new way of life.
and it almost feels very fragile.
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It's very vulnerable, and it needs tobe guarded and protected on its way.
It may even be that you're startingto shift into a stronger, more
self-reliant sort of a vibe.
Like I'm coming into a placewhere there are certain things
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I won't tolerate anymore.
There is more I need to do for myself now.
And even though that's sort of astrength or it's coming forward as like
I'm going to stand my ground a littlemore, it's also going to need to be
protected as if it's something brand new.
So although this is a very strong choiceand a very strong path that you're
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starting out on here with this new part.
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It's important to remember that justlike a horse, foal is born and will
one day be walking and running on verystrong legs, that foal is not going
to be born walking on strong legs.
That foal is going to need somegentle love and care in getting
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up on those wibbly wobbly legs andjust starting something brand new.
So I need you to take a moment tothink about what that might be for you.
And what we're going to work onthrough this episode is talking
a little bit about that exactthing of shifting into new spaces.
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And when we're doing that,we're creating Magick.
So
We've talked about the creation ofMagick, making our lives Magickal,
making rituals, making spells, doingwhat feels right for you moving forward.
But I truly believe that in my healingwork, when I work with people in the
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emotional and energy healing world, Itruly believe that any calling you are
making out into the universe that says,this is what I want to have happen.
This is the new way I want my life to go.
That is what creating spells is all about.
Creating stories, creatingthis new story of your life.
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In that process, I don't think we cantalk about any of that or fully begin
to witness ourselves until we reallytalk about generational healing.
Because there are so many things, somany aspects of ourselves that we may
never get to the bottom of all of it.
No matter what we do and no matter howmuch we try, we will never ever fully
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know all the things about ourselves.
But to understand generationalthings is to understand a lot.
And I usually try to add insome stories, some folklore into
the topic of discussion today.
But instead of pulling fromsome ancient folklore or even
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something that has been around a longtime, I'm going to have you look at
the movie Encanto, Disney's Encanto.
Because when this movie came out andI watched it with my kids, I couldn't
believe all of the things that I had beendevoting my time studying and learning
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about when it comes to healing work.
and have this movie come out and explainit or give examples of it so explicitly.
I was going around.
I still am going around saying,have you seen this movie in Kanto?
And people are like, no, because if theydon't have kids, they probably haven't.
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But I'm telling people who don't havekids and don't have any reason to watch
a Disney movie, please watch this movie.
You must see this movie.
I don't care what age you are.
In my line of work, when you are observingthe world in such a Magickal way, when
you are able to see and feel energies,and I believe everybody has the potential
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for that if they seek that, in my lineof work, my experience, everything that
you can see and feel in a person whenthey are with their family, especially
if you can be around their family,
many generations of their family.
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It's almost like you can feel and tastethe things in the air around everyone
involved that makes them who they are.
And it's interesting becauseI married into a family with a
lot of their own family trauma.
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Many tragic things have
husband's family, a lot of people,a lot of family members that
have died young, unfortunately.
And when you get a chance to be aroundsuch grief or people who are grieving,
and just when it seems like they aredone grieving or if there is even such
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a thing or gotten back into a normalday-to-day life, something else happens
and the grieving starts all over again.
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And I have learned to becomevery comfortable, very
friendly with death and grief.
It's something that I have thoughta lot about and have been around.
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And I actually have a veryrespectful relationship with that.
But the movie Encanto, it starts out withthis woman who has three babies and her
husband dies tragically running from...
some oppressors that are chasingthem and they have to seek safety.
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Because of this trauma that they'veexperienced, they receive a Magickal
gift and their family is going tobe able to have these Magickal gifts
that will help the town to healfrom what they've been through.
They're very, very special becauseevery member of this family, when
they come of age, they get to...
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open a door that is Magickallymade for them in this Magickal
house and each member of the familyis going to get a Magickal gift.
And it might be strength or the abilityto grow flowers or talk to animals
or have prophecies or cook healingfoods that when someone eats it their
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ailments are Magickally disappeared.
Superhuman hearing, allof these really cool
Magickal gifts that they receiveand the message is unbeknownst
to grandma that your value inthis family is tied to your gift.
And when one of the membersof the family does not receive
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her gift, it's very confusing.
And she is the main character who is
Her purpose, her value to this familyis questioned, even though the family
is incredibly loving and incrediblyclose, it begs the question and it is
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forcing everyone in the family to lookat what these gifts actually mean about
them and how they value each other.
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And at the end of the movie, thereisn't really a bad guy, which is
my favorite part about all of thenewest Pixar Disney movies, really.
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It's like, there's no villainin this story necessarily.
It is about this family coming to anawareness of what toxic traits they had
been perpetuating for each other andhow they can begin to heal and begin to
witness that and to begin to make changes.
to how they treat each other, tohow they see each other, and to how
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they support and love each other.
And it's all because of this onegirl who didn't receive a gift.
It was her gift.
The gift was her, justher, not the Magick, right?
So I want to propose some thingstoday and I want you to have an
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open mind as you listen to how
When a lot of clients come to mefor healing work, whether it's reiki
or emotional processing, there areindications to me when something may have
been a generational trauma or generationalenergy that was passed on to them.
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Okay.
Just a second, I'm gonna adjustmy camera here for a second.
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It's just my camera was on the wrongangle and it was driving me crazy.
That's better.
I think.
Okay.
Sorry about that.
I'll try to maybe edit that out or not.
Maybe that's just the real,real adjusting my camera.
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Okay.
Generational healing.
So there is some trauma and healingmarkers that did not start with us.
That is actually even before our ownbirth, before our own conception.
And this can be explained in psychology.
It can be explained in themystical energetic world.
Whatever way you look at it, I thinkthat we can agree that there are things
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we are dealing with in our lifetime,obstacles and belief systems that may
not have even started with us thatwere something that we are either.
It's written into our DNA from thegenerations that came before us or
from experiences they've had thatare passed on, the trauma and the
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effects of the trauma are passed on.
It's kind of like for anybody that'sdone any traveling around Europe, I
haven't been to a lot of the placeslike Germany and Poland and France
that I have heard people talk aboutvisiting those places and that...
there is still a very, there'san awareness that there was
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trauma from the war still there.
Even though probably mostly everybodywho actually experienced the war or
who lived through it has passed onby now, these are the generations
of people who've come after that.
And just speaking to my friends who arefrom Germany and who have family members,
living in Germany and they let me knowthat the effects of the war have changed
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the generations that have come afterthat and that there is still things like
when they see us stand up and put ourhand on our heart and say the Pledge of
Allegiance, they almost cringe becausepatriotism is maybe played down a bit
more in Germany at this point in time.
There is something that comes from
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those experiences that happenedbefore we were even born.
And I'm going to give some examples.
I read a book in my learning, in myeducation called Emotional Inheritance.
And this is a psychoanalyst who tookcase studies where she believes there is
a great correlation between some of thetraumas that we experience now when people
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are seeking therapy and seeking healingand seeking help that if they know what
came before them, if they can find out
what their ancestors wentthrough can aid in their healing.
She talks about one case studyin particular that I was always
fascinated with where she talksabout a man who was going through
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a breakup with his boyfriend.
It had been two years that he hadbeen dealing with the pain and
grief of this relationship ending.
started talking to him about his father.
And he was saying, well, my fatherhad actually unalived himself in a
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probably when he was a child,it was very long time ago.
And he says, of course,that's very traumatic.
I mean, that's something thatwe, my family has a lot of grief
over, but, oh no, I'm sorry,I'm getting the details wrong.
So it's not his father, itwas his father's father.
His father had trauma because hisgrandfather had unaligned himself
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when his father was a child.
So he was talking about that traumaof like, my dad had always been
really loving and supportive of me.
Even as I came out of the closetas gay, he was always really
loving and supportive of me.
But he says, I can't place it.
I have no proof whatsoever.
But I have a feeling that my grandfather,who had never met, he had never met
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before, had those struggles with...
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depression and thingslike that caused him to
to unalive himself, that hadhappened because perhaps his
grandfather was also gay.
And he just said, I don'tknow why I feel that way.
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I have absolutely no proof.
It's just a feeling I've always had.
And as he worked through that,he was able to heal some of the
grief that he was having overthis relationship that had ended.
That for some reason, even though he knewthe relationship, it was best that that...
that had ended.
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He could agree that he was ready to moveon and ready to find love again, but for
some reason he was just having so muchstruggle with this relationship ending.
And then once he was able to kind ofwork through what it would have felt
like for his grandfather to not be withthe person he loved because he could
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never have in his time and place andhis generation come out of the closet
and been authentic with who he was.
Once he worked through some of thosedetails, he was able to really, for
the first time, move on from thatrelationship and find love again.
And what's interesting is in the book,she outlines this this whole story,
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this case study, but she says he doeshave a conversation at one point,
many years later, he, he talks to hisaunt who was older than his father
died and she was able to discuss withhim that yes, in fact, their father
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had been gay, was homosexual and hadwanted to have a relationship with
a man and couldn't because he wasmarried and had children with his wife.
And that led to a lot of his mental healthissues and things that he struggled with.
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When he found out that every feelingthat he had innately had, his intuition
had told him was true, it releaseda new level of healing in him.
Because as he began to heal his abilityto be with the person he loves, to
find love with another person that wasalso healing the generations of trauma
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and pain that had come before him.
I know when I'm doing healing work withpeople, there are some things, elements
that come up that depending on certainenergy things like the colors that I
ask them to pull out of their body.
If you have a certain color and you aresaying, yeah, this color is black, which
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doesn't always indicate generationalhealing, but sometimes depending on the...
the emotion point that we'repulling out and all the heavy
energy that has to do with that.
I will say, does this feel likeit might be a generational issue?
Is this something thatdidn't start with you?
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Could it perhaps be something thathappened to generations before you?
And I'm going to talk alittle bit more about my own
experiences in that department.
But I did have another friendthat was doing the healing.
art school with and she had talkedabout this and she had talked about
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in her own experience she always hadto work out feelings of abandonment.
Feelings of abandonment came upquite often for her in her healing
sessions and emotional processing andshe thought it was very interesting
because she had distinct memories oftimes when she thought or had fear
that her dad was going to leave her.
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and that fear of abandonment hadcarried into her marriage and her
relationships later in life too.
This fear of abandonment was alwayscoming up for her and was subconsciously
causing a lot of issues, which youknow it can, but not intentionally, not
consciously, just was coming up a lotbecause fear is not a very high vibration.
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And when we are experiencing fear,we are not able to experience
the higher vibrations of lovethat connects us with people.
So if a lot of our arguments and ourissues and in relationships are coming
based on fear, we're going to get to thebottom of where that fear comes from.
So as she was doing her healingwork on fear of abandonment, she was
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very confused because she thought,I haven't actually experienced fear.
or incidences ofabandonment in my lifetime.
That's not something thatshe had experienced much of.
And so when questioning, why wouldI have this fear of abandonment then
if I'm having kind of the symptomsor the PTSD symptoms of an event
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that didn't actually happen to me,where would that have come from?
And in doing her own family research,and I know for us here in Utah,
those of us in the Mormon culture,
Family genealogy is a big deal.
It's a big, big thing.
And so culturally, we are all very bigon getting our family history together,
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researching our genealogy, and there'sa lot of religious reasons for that.
But for this particular incident, it wasincredibly helpful for her to go back
into stories of her family generationsback and realize that there was a period
of time where several of her ancestors
in succession, in a row, had thepatriarch or man of the family had
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passed away young or had left the family.
And so that gave her an incredibleawareness as to where that feeling of
abandonment might be coming from for her.
And when she pulls that out, when shemoves that energy out of her body,
she is not just healing that energy inherself, but she's actually taking it.
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empowering herself to take itfor her generations before her.
And so spiritually, if you believe inthe spirit and the spirit world, it
would be kind of like our ancestorslining up and saying, I'm so sorry I
didn't deal with that in my lifetimeor that I had those experiences in
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my lifetime and passed on that fearto you, but I'm here for you today.
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to gather around you, to support you,to put our hands on your shoulders,
and to help you move this energyout of your body so that you no
longer have to live with that painand that low energy in your body.
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And that is a very powerful experiencefor my clients to get to have.
It is Magickal.
It is like doing Magick.
And whether you're making itinto a spell or ritual or a
healing process or a session,
you can create those circumstanceswhere you get to say, I no longer want
to carry the burdens of my ancestors.
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I no longer want to live my lifewith these same patterns showing
up over and over and over again.
And psychologists, I mean, inthe psychology world, you can
definitely see the patterns suchas, you know, anger and rage.
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coming up for parents to their children.
If that is how they experience parentingand if children experience that from
their parents, it's more likely thatis the only way they will know how
to carry that on to their children.
So you can see generational healingin that same way as what was done
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to me, I do to others, unless Idecide to break those chains and
create new patterns for my children.
So all of this work that we are doingto witness ourselves and to witness what
our bodies hold is in the effort to breakpatterns and chains that do not serve
future generations, that we do no longerwant to ripple out into the world and
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have our children experience as well.
It's up to us to do all of thathard work, which is wonderful and
empowering, and it also sucks.
I mean.
If I can hear the voices ofyour ancestors right now, I'm
hearing them say, I'm so sorry.
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In my white light self, with all thelessons I've learned, having crossed over
into the plane of the other world or theexistence of the spirit realm, I would not
have wanted you to deal with all of this.
I would never have purposely passedthis on to you, son or daughter.
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But here we are, andwe are dealing with it.
So, I wanna talk a little bit about my,just give you another personal experience
of my own, which is that, when I, beforeI had done a lot of my own genealogy or
ancestry, I only knew certain things,like very vague facts and information,
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because mostly I was just not interested.
I mean,
ever before this, I wouldbe like, yeah, yeah.
So our ancestors did that, whatever.
Wasn't something thatI actively sought out.
And I have cousins that are, one cousinin particular that's a librarian and his
favorite thing in the whole world, he'svery good at doing our family history.
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So when I have a question, I go to him.
But.
The point is, because I come from mymost recent ancestral history, which
is not very old at all, is the Mormonpioneers who came across the plains
in the 1800s and settled here in Utah.
If you talk to a lot of generationalMormons that are not converts to
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the church, that is their story.
If they live in Utah or they're fromUtah, they'll say, yep, my ancestors
were doing the hand cards across...
the plains and all the way throughthe mountains and they were there
in whichever company was withBrigham Young that said this is
the place and settled here in Utah.
Unfortunately, that means there's a lotof trauma connected to that history.
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So if you don't know your family history,I was kind of working with my groups that
we were discussing the pain and grief.
of having that be our part of our history.
That because the pioneers came here andbecause of the events that happened when
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they came here, a lot of active genocideto the indigenous people, things that
were very harmful and painful, and thatpeople who are descendants of that feel
the pain and regret and the want to heal.
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the want to do what we can toheal that within ourselves, to
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decolonize, to work through that.
I didn't know a lot of my own history,so we were doing just a guided meditation
where the leader of our group waskind of helping us to work through
some of those generational traumasand she was saying, I'm going to take
you back through with your ancestors.
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had us do in meditation where shesaid, you're going to imagine a red
thread connected from your belly.
And you can see that red threadstretch in front of you and
behind you from your back.
And if you follow that red string back,you will meet those who came before you
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in your line, in your ancestral line.
And as I walked myself back to meet
the women who came before me.
I had such vivid imagesin my mind of a woman.
who had come across the plains as oneof the pioneers, pioneer settlers, the
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Mormon pioneer settlers, and she hadlost all of her children along the way.
And suddenly the pain and grief of my owninfertility came forward at this time.
As I saw this image inmy mind, I realized that
not only is my infertility somethingthat I had to work through and heal and
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understand about myself, I need to workthrough the pain of that is connected to
the ancestors that lost their children.
And what I kept feeling from thisparticular woman in my vision was
that she was very angry because ifshe had come across the plains to
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get a better life for her future.
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for her children and for theirfuture, then what was it all for?
What was she here for?
She's coming into this valley,in the Salt Lake Valley,
childless, without her children.
They had been buried onthe road along the way.
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And now she felt incredibly trapped andgrief stricken and really questioning
what is the point of all of this?
What was the point of following thistrek of religious fanatics across
the plains into the valley and cominghere so that her children could have
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a better future and they all died?
And that was an incredibly powerfulmoment for me, because as I did more
research and as I looked into thestories of the pioneers that came across
the plains and settled here, I wasincredibly sad for them, especially the
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women, because there were groups thatcame with the Mormon pioneers thinking
that they were coming to a better life.
And-
Actually, a lot of them weretold that they would be going to
California, that they would be apart.
They would be going to where therewould be a state in the US, but they
were, for lack of a better term, trickedby Brigham Young, who came here and
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saw this valley and said the words,those famous words, this is the place.
I can only imagine a lotof those women who were
because their husbands had diedalong the trail or because their
children had died along the trail.
And now where were they to go?
What were they to do now?
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This company they were with was not takingthem to California like they had thought.
And now because polygamy was verymuch a thing, they were going to
be forced to marry men just sothat they would have protection
and a family to provide for them.
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and probably father, youknow, children on them.
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So this is very painful.
This is something that I really wantto bring forward for people like me
who are descendants of those pioneers,whether you're still in a church or
not, it doesn't matter because thatgenerational trauma does carry within
us into our bodies and into our DNA.
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And it was powerful for me to
associate that to some of the pain andgrief that I've had in my lifetime with
my infertility or things that have comeup for me in my healing work of my own.
So I always tell people because althoughthe Mormon church and those who are really
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good at doing their genealogy and knowingtheir family's history and for the family
members that kept a written record likejournals and letters and things like that.
that is a great privilege tohave those items, to have that
history, and to know what happened.
I want to reach out for a moment totake consideration of all of the people
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who are descendants of slaves and ofpeople of color, people of all over the
world who are not so privileged to haverecord or documentation of their family
history, people who from closed adoptions.
do not know their birth family'shistory and do not know the genetic
history of their family, they areworking at a disadvantage, or so it
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may seem, because they don't have thatinformation to help with their healing.
And to that I would like to say, evenif you do not have the information
available to you, your body remembers.
You have that informationwritten into your DNA.
It's part of you.
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It gets carried on from generationto generation, whether you
have that documentation or not.
And to that, I would very muchrecommend doing some of the spiritual
and energetic work of accessing thatinformation within your own body.
And that's something that I do inthe IPT emotional process session,
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is I work with people who I say, itdoesn't actually matter if this is a...
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a logical, practical memory thatyou have because we are working with
feelings and we are working with whatyour body is going to bring forward.
So I've told people in sessionsbefore, if you're looking to do
generational work, start within.
Even if you aren't able or don't wantto do the research on your family
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history, start within, look within,start with a meditation, take yourself
on a journey and back into your...
into your own.
family into your own past because itwas part of my journey to go back and to
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see what the recent history of my familyhad done and been through, but to go
back even further than that and try toconnect with my Celtic ancestors and bring
forward what healing and what connectionthat I had with my motherland of...
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the Celtic people, which put meon the trajectory to becoming what
I am today, a Celtic priestess.
So it was all part of that generationalhealing that led me to where I am now.
So I do want to just address reallyquick that part of this work, if you
are in the Magickal realm, if you arewhat I call a like to call myself a swin
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rag Welsh for a charmer or a charmingcharmer woman, woman who does Magick.
If you are in the world of, ofwanting to explore witchcraft
and Magick and things like that.
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There is one thing about generationalhealing that you may particularly have
to address and that is witch wounds.
It even was quite a big step for me tobe able to associate myself with the
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word witch or to say, yes, I am a witch,I do witchcraft, I do work in the realm
oMagickic or instead of just being verycareful and saying, I do energy healing.
And I'm just a simple girlwho likes to I like crystals.
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I put crystals in my house.
I like that.
Sometimes I hang a broom above my door.
But that's just to make it so thatbad energy doesn't come in the house.
You know, it's just a verysimple, no, that's witchcraft.
Please, blowing out candles onyour birthday is witchcraft.
OK?
So.
I think that it's really important toclaim our identity, which is me starting
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this podcast and saying I am a witch.
I am a pagan witch.
I am a folk witch.
I am okay with saying thatbecause it's my identity.
It's part of who I am.
And in saying that, I need tocome to terms with the fact
that those that came before me.
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that did the work that I do, thatspeak out when something feels
unjust, when I talk about energyhealing and vibrational energy and
rituals and practice and worship andwhatever it is that I talk about, that
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Anybody else having done that in pastgenerations would have been called a
witch and would have been persecuted.
Courtney Pearl [39:39.662]
Even women who never used the wordwitch, but would say, you can come to
me if you need help with something.
I know a few tricks and I know afew things that might help you.
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I can put together a charm.
I can put together a blessing.
They were called witchesand they were burned for it.
And as we know from the Salem witchtrials, sometimes those women were
quite simply just a woman whospoke her mind or had an opinion.
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And that's all it took for her to begathered up and tortured and imprisoned
and eventually hung or burned.
And it's important to address that whentalking about generational healing because
my fears are not just stemming from my ownancestors, my own bloodline, but from the
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experiences of the witches and the people
who came before me, who do what I do.
Courtney Pearl [40:42.222]
I was once told in a past life regressionsession that I was one of the women
in the Salem witch trials and thatin many generations of my past lives,
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I was a woman in the village who wasknown for helping people, who was known
for knowing things about herbs andmedicines and charms and sometimes just…
being the woman in the village who wasjust a little bit odd and nobody wanted to
talk to because they were afraid of her.
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So if that gives you any insight intowho I am or what I'm all about, then
I don't know what does because thatgives me a lot of insight into myself.
Okay, and then when doing generationalhealing, when doing an integrated process
session, when I do a processing healingwork with people, if they need some...
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help and support in vibrational energy.
I often ask a client if they wouldlike me to muscle test and figure out
what rocks or crystals would be a goodsupport for them in what they need,
or if they're not much of a crystalperson, that's okay, because Bach flower
essences are incredibly helpful as well.
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I don't sell those thingsmyself, but I know how to get
them or where to access them.
And if you had the
a session that was working withgenerational healing or was helping
you to clear a lot of negativeenergy that didn't start with you.
You would want to have a littlesupport in helping you hold
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that vibrational frequency.
Bach flower essences are littletinctures of that flower that
holds that vibrational energy.
It's just the essence of the flower.
It's not the flower itself.
So typically they're okayto ingest because the flower
is no longer in the mixture.
but has held the essence of the flower.
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So those are taken, you know, dropsunder the tongue or sometimes it
doesn't even require the Bach floweressence or the tincture itself, but
to name the flower and tap it intoyour chest for however many days
that you might need that support.
So.
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That's just a little tidbit ofinformation on the Magickal side.
If that's something that you areinterested in looking into, I would
recommend that you seek me out and wewill get that figured out together.
Okay, so perfect.
My question from a listener todaywas going to be, what if I don't
actually know my own family history,which I did kind of touch on in
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this episode talking about that.
And what I personally can dofor people, if this is the case,
They were adopted.
They don't know their family history butthey would like to do some generational
work to heal and be witness to some ofthose things that will help them and I
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can do a guided meditation or you knowtaking you through During a Reiki session.
I will use my drum to help Bringa person into a very relaxed alpha
brainwave state and then we can
I can guide you through a guidedmeditation or sort of like a journey
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if you are of the shamanic practice.
They take you on alittle bit of a journey.
It's kind of like leaving yourbody for a moment and going back
in time and discovering what sortof things you need to be aware
of to help you to begin to heal.
Okay, so that is something that even ifwe do not have that physical evidence
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of what your family history is, thatdoes not mean that there cannot be
powerful generational healing done whenworking through some of the things that
you're finding stuck in this lifetime.
So if you feel like apattern keeps coming up.
You're like, I keep thinkingI'm never gonna find love.
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I keep thinking I'm nevergoing to have enough money.
I cannot get past that.
I just can't seem to believe it.
Then that might be for you.
So reach out to me and I'm gonnalet you know how to do that after
we talk about next week, ourepisode is going to be on the
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Courtney Pearl [45:18.606]
balance of masculine and feminine energy.
This is super important for whenyou're creating spells and when you
are creating manifestation or whenyou are just going through your daily
life, understanding yourself better andknowing what the masculine and feminine
energies actually are because I'm goingto give you a little teaser has nothing
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to do with being a boy or a girl.
It has nothing to do with gender.
Masculine and feminine energies.
It's going to be anamazing, amazing episode.
I can't wait for that one.
I would like to invite you to take whatwe've talked about today and use it
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to find Magick in your everyday life.
Even if that means in your nextquiet moment talking to your
own ancestors and listening.
to what they have to tell you.
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Use Magick in your everyday lifeto strengthen relationships,
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heal, prosper and thrive.
If you would like more informationabout these and other subjects, you
can look for me on my social media, onInstagram at prism underscore healing.
I do live card readings quite often onmy Instagram and I like to post about
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all of my resources andinformation as I am studying them.
So that's a great place to follow me.
You can also find me on Facebook, CourtneyPearl and Courtney Pearl's Prism Healing.
For more information, events coming up,I will be doing my Tarot for Tips, which
I do every month, a Healing ThroughArt workshop and my kids workshop.
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Heart Smart Art, which is an immersiveexperience to raise emotional
intelligence for children and adults.
I hold each of these eventsevery month, so please look for
my website, prism-healing.com.
That is where I will list all of myevents coming up that you can come to.
And I also have a blog for each of mypodcast episodes on my website, so I will
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resource any books that I've mentioned.
or anything else thatmight be helpful to you.
And you can read about it afteryou've listened to the episode.
Then you can also go tomy website, prism-healing.
That's prism, like as in colorsof the rainbow, prism-healing.com
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to book private sessions with me.
That is a Reiki session.
You can do a emotional process session,which I've mentioned many times and
is very incredibly powerful healing.
I also do intuitive card readings ifyou're looking to get a little bit of
clarity and get some answers to yourquestions and many other services
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that I provide there on my website.
So please come visit me on mywebsite because I have a lot
to offer and I am here for you.
Courtney Pearl [48:43.598]
I would love to have you private messageme any of these questions on these
platforms, any of your questions on theseplatforms about Magick, healing, energy,
and it might be featured on a futureepisode as a question from a listener.
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So please write in your questions.
I would love to hear from you.
All right, I am soexcited to hear from you.
I'm so excited to talk to youand I'm so excited to spend this.
time with you.
So go do Magick, witches and wizards.
We'll see you next time.
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