The Angsty Pod
For more than 2 decades, I have written in a diary almost every single day. And guess what? I saved them ALL. Each week, I will be reading from these archives and getting to know myself from the lens of my 10, 16, 25, and 36-year-old self. We'll explore big topics such as body image, queerness, divorce, addiction, mental health, and friendship. I'll read cringy poems and attempt to find compassion for the painful tenderness of my younger self. Join the drama of me and my guests as we explore our boy-crazy, closeted, angsty selves... one stupid page at a time.
Episodes
This episode covers most of my first semester of college and is a total whirlwind. One minute, I'm quoting Buddha. The next minute, I'm making out with everyone's girlfriend at the bar. I'm blacking out every Monday and will flirt with anything that has a pulse.
I spend most of my time apologizing to my friends for how I treated them the night before. I can't keep my crushes straight. The only guys I am romantically interested...
In this episode, I have just landed in college. Let the shame spiral begin!
My first night, I am drowning in loneliness until I make friends with my roommate Rhonda. We start drinking together and party our first weeks of college away.
I make friends... a lot of friends. Just like my high school days, I start making out with girls in secret corners of our dormitory and the bars I am calling my second home.
I have a hookup ...
Hope you all enjoy this special episode where I tell the story of our three weddings <3 (Spoiler Alert: One of them was a disaster)
"I spent years making other people’s weddings beautiful while believing I didn’t need, or maybe didn’t deserve, the same kind of care myself."
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It's 2007 - the summer before I leave for college. Life is a party and I am dying inside.
Also, I still don't know what happened with Dave. >_<
My entire life is devoted to house parties, bar hopping, and nursing my hangxiety. My heart is with my boyfriend Corey, but the rest of me... she's all over the place.
My life is bursting at the seams with drama, drama, drama. I'm mad at my boyfriend, my boyfriend's sister is ...
What goes up and down more than a yo-yo? My feelings towards my high school boyfriend!!! Things are getting even MORE unhinged over here.
It's 2007 and I've just gotten accepted into college. I've taken a year off to save for college and am working two jobs. The only thing standing in the way of my ambition is the fact that I am getting blackout drunk almost every single night. Oh, and then there's the super nice guy I'm datin...
This is a special/different episode where I expand on last week's episode and read the poem that inspired it all. <3 This is one of my favourite poems I've ever written and it was published in Gulf Stream last year.
I talk a little about how cohesive my creative life is right now - this podcast often informs and bleeds into my Substack, which often bleeds into my 52 Essays Project, which then informs my work as an abortion ...
Content Note: This episode explicitly mentions sexual assault. Please take gentle care when listening.
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Ooof, this one is a tough one <3 Everything was going fine - you know, just the regular stuff: sex, drugs, strip clubs, and bong riffs. And then, towards the end of the ep...
Content Note: This episode mentions suicidal ideation, suicide, drug abuse, a car accident, and mental health in a way that might be hard for some listeners. Please take gentle care. If you're in crisis, call or text 9-8-8 from anywhere in Canada or the U.S., anytime.
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In this episode, I dive headfirst into something I was avoiding during my last episode.
In the summer of 2016, on the cusp of adulthood, my mother left. I...
Content Notes: This episode centers around postpartum anxiety and depression. It might be a tender one for some listeners.
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Kristina Percy (she/ her) is an actuary by training who has somehow found herself the author of a book of poems, almost none of which are about math.
In 2019, she started writing e-mails to herself and her kids to work through what would later be diagnosed as postpartum anxiety. For over a year, it manif...
In this special edition BIRTHDAY episode, Yoda answers a few listener questions including:
- Why Doula of Words?
- How has sobriety impacted your writing practice?
- Are you ever worried someone will read your diaries?
Yoda also goes deep into her poetry archives and reads several deep, dark poems, which we really hope you enjoy! <3
Thank you so much for listening! We couldn't do this without you!!!!!!!!!
We're back in 2006 and I am struggling to balance being madly in love with my boyfriend and my new girl crush, along with working full-time, finishing high school, and planning for prom. Oh, and also, I go to a strip club and stuff gets crazy. Yes. I am 17.
Every time I enter a room, I am filled with near-crippling anxiety, believing everyone hates me and thinks I'm a liar. I want to open up and tell Corey everything, but it f...
In this episode, I get the fuck out nof Brisbane (no shade!) and start a whole new life in Perth, WA. There's ups, there's downs. There's sex, drugs, and soooo much alcohol.
In Western Oz, I get a job and make juuuust enough money to blow it all on an EPIC roadtrip across the south coast of Australia. I make two of the best friends a girl can ask for, get two back-to-back bouts of food poisoning, spend a day on an $8 million y...
It's 2010 and I've been in Australia for about a month and am finally settling into things. I'm still dying of homesickness but am eager to find a job and am already thinking of extending my stay in Oz.
My friend Ian tells me I need to relax and come live with him in his van, and I consider it, but ditch him quickly for a local named Alan. Alan and I dive into a very passionate fling. The fling takes us on a disastrous trip to Frase...
I'm skipping ahead a bit here and taking you to 2009. Brokenhearted from my messy break up with Corey, I let myself fall into the arms of the friend of my best friend's boyfriend. Him and I try desperately (and unsuccessfully!) to fit a whole relationship into a few months because surprise! I'm flying to Australia and no one can stop me.
Australia is the furthest I've ever traveled, and I am drowning in homesickness. So much so, I a...
The long-awaited episode is here!! I finally had the chance to sit down and interview my Dad, Ron, for The Angsty Pod!
"Let's call it a journal, not a diary!" lol Dads... ammiright?!?!
We sat down in my Dad's living room, mic between us, Dad sipping wine, me sipping Gingerale, and we talked for about four hours. We covered all kinds of topics, including the way his mother smelled, eating escargot, staying open to life's opportu...
Join me as I chat with my pal and client, Sarah Hanson! Sarah (she/her) is a poet from Minneapolis, Minnesota. She is a truth teller, trauma survivor, and constant reinventor. Sarah's writing practice is "in bloom" and her first poetry collection will be out April 28th!
In this episode, we talk about poetry, trusting yourself, and the importance of friendship. We exchange hilarious, heartbreaking stories of our youth, and Sarah gene...
Content Note: This episode mentions self-harm and suicidal ideation.
In this week's episode, I am falling in love and terrified of saying it out loud. I'm so terrified, I start inflicting physical and spiritual harm to myself and others. There's some tough stuff in this one but it was kindof cool to read back on how in love I truly was.
There are so many elements of this journal that remind me of previous journals - it's a new y...
Part way through this episode, I decide to split this journal into two episodes because just SO much is happening! It's winter 2005 and I am coked out of my mind. I go on a bender in Quebec City and am slowly falling madly in love with my very kind, albeit slightly troubled boyfriend. There's a love triangle. There's a party bus. There's a formal dance. There's sex and drugs and big time rock and roll... and there the hell ar...
CONTENT WARNING: This episode mentions suicide. Please take gentle care when listening.
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On October 1st, 2005, I got a phone call t...
This episode starts with me getting kicked out of my house and ends with me rolling around in bed with someone from my past. Oh, by the way, I'm 17.
Things at home are the worst they've ever been, but my parents are almost completely absent from this one. I'm left to my own devices and surprise, surprise, chaos ensues.
Join me as I reminisce about my first "grown-up" date where we sit on his bed and watch South Park. I'll intro...
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