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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Robuntarily Kip on Brisbane's Kiss ninety seven three Riptide Advanced Joy.
It's Robin Aryan Kip Kisses ninety seven to three. Vans
got married over the weekend, did he Yeah, his long
term golfriend in Istanbul, Turkey.
Speaker 2 (00:15):
One of my favorites cities in the whole world. Oh
my goodness, the Grand Bazaarre Mate. That is a shopping
meccha for anyone. You can have them. You can shop everywhere,
can you? Because the boss the river is on the
court on Europe on one side, Asia on the other.
It's amazing.
Speaker 3 (00:32):
Yeah. And for wedding gifts, I got seventeen carpets.
Speaker 4 (00:40):
Forgive me father, for I have sin.
Speaker 1 (00:43):
So this is unusual. Normally you can go to the
website at Kiss ninety seven three dot com dot you
give us your story and we'll decode your voice so
that no one can identify you and you get to
get something off your chest or ask for opinions on it.
But this person has sort of said, I don't want
to risk it even through the Dakoda. I don't want
to be part of it. I'll tell you my story,
but that's it, and I.
Speaker 2 (01:03):
Want to get it off my chest. This is full
on thirteen one O six five if you want to
join into this conversation. So I feel sick for saying
this out loud. This text starts with, but I truly
regret having children. I am a mum of two girls,
aged eight and twelve, but I just don't think I
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was made to be a mother. I feel like I've
been faking it their whole lives. I love them and
feel responsible for them, but if I'm really and truly honest,
they have been a burden in my life and stopped
me from achieving so many things. I had them thinking
maternal instincts would just kick in, like you hear about everywhere,
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but it never did. I've never told anyone. I don't
think anyone in my life would understand. My sister lives
for her kids. My mom was a loving mum, and
my partner, I think, would be horrified and send me
off for some sort of intensive therapy. I would hate
for them to ever know. So I'm just pretending every day.
Speaker 1 (02:10):
That's pretty heavy, isn't it. That's so heavy?
Speaker 2 (02:12):
But I think that all parents think have fleeting moments
of this and sit back, particularly the first five years.
I reckon which is when I call I was in
the trenches when your kids are just small. And I
mean if you're a baby person, absolutely that's great. I wasn't.
And you just think my life, what happened to my life?
(02:33):
What happened to my life?
Speaker 3 (02:34):
Yes, And that depend on when it shows up in
your life as well. If you feel like you had
your kids very young and you get a chance to
really develop or go towards the place you wanted to
and that's a long period before we can get back.
Speaker 2 (02:45):
To that's not just a mother thing. I'm sorry, it's not.
Speaker 5 (02:48):
It's not.
Speaker 2 (02:50):
Eight twelve. So this is a long time for her
to wait for the maternal instinct to kick in. Have
you had moments?
Speaker 1 (02:57):
Of course you moments, but moments, you know what I mean,
Like they're pretty fleeting and you like normally for me
obviously if you have it. At my story, Amber, my
now ex wife has Rafi half the time and open
the other half. And there are times when she comes
and picks him up and I'm like, ah, relieved, but
I reckon, I give it twelve hours before I go.
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I want him back now, you know what I mean
saying I certainly don't. Yeah, the idea of it going
on for days and days and days.
Speaker 2 (03:25):
Well, no, this is a lifetime, and she's now willing
to put it onto paper and say that she now
regrets having children. I mean, I feel like I've been
faking it their whole life. So there's a couple of
things here that I think. I mean, she says that
if she told her partner, he'd be horrified and send
her off to intensive therapy. I actually think that's important.
Maybe she's got undiagnosed post natal depression. I mean, that's
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the kind of serious end of it. But you know
the other thing is how many divorced couples have you
seen where one parent then disappears and never has anything
to do with their children. Yeah, you can't say that
those people aren't also going, Yeah, I'm back. I'm living
a life of Riley, And.
Speaker 3 (04:02):
She's joyed the life that she would have had, so
she could have been the career person. Some people are
gun career people and that's what drives them in life.
Speaker 2 (04:08):
Yeah, thirteen one oh six y five. If you've got
an opinion about this, ben of Sanctuary Cove, what do
you reckon?
Speaker 6 (04:15):
Hey, good morning, Robin. Yeah, she thinks the daughters are
a burden and they've prevented her from achieving things in
her life. She fails to acknowledge that they are her
greatest achievement. And when she's old and a burden, they're
going to look after her. Maybe you've got to take
her over to Turkey, take her to the bazaar and
get her one of those seventeen rugs. You'n what it's
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like having nice lounge room.
Speaker 1 (04:40):
I set it down on the rubber. But well, you
know what though, Ben, I know what you were saying,
But obviously she doesn't feel that. She obviously doesn't feel
that the children are in achievement. And then you know,
growing up as good kids is enough.
Speaker 2 (04:51):
No, no, And you know, I do wonder about the conversation, right,
like has anyone ever asked her? And maybe they're not
thinking too, But isn't that a great thing? Like wouldn't
that be an amazing thing to be able to sit
down with your partner and say, do you ever regret this?
Because there's this social thing that we're all never supposed
to talk about.
Speaker 1 (05:07):
It true?
Speaker 2 (05:08):
And yet if we did, Sue of the gap, what
do you reckon?
Speaker 7 (05:14):
Yeah?
Speaker 5 (05:14):
I have flip flopped through this for the last forty
two nearly.
Speaker 4 (05:20):
Forty three years.
Speaker 5 (05:21):
There's times when I, because I was a single month
for a really long time, you look at the kids
and you go, what the hell have I done? Because
I'm not particularly maternal. When my oldest two kids were teenagers,
one of them said to the other, do you ever
wonder why it is that we're the responsible adults?
Speaker 7 (05:41):
And she's then there's times when they are your best accomplishment,
and you just brag about them to everybody who's standing still,
whether they want to hear or not.
Speaker 4 (05:59):
That's the thing.
Speaker 8 (06:00):
So that's the thing.
Speaker 3 (06:02):
Yeah, but we who love kids talk it up like
mad and before kids, and then somebody comes into motherhood
or fatherhood and suddenly goes, I'm not seeing what they saw.
I just stop feeling it.
Speaker 2 (06:12):
Yeah, you sold me, you sold me a lie. And
I do wonder about dads too, right, because you guys
don't have you don't carry the child, so you kind
of have to watch it. And then you get handed
this thing that's the size of his life of bread
that has completely changed your life on the day, on
the day, and here you go, you go after this.
Oh you have to do is pay for it.
Speaker 1 (06:32):
Six fives and number if you want to get involved
seven twenty three. Our full Disclosure Now exposure story today
is a mum that admitted she regrets having kids.
Speaker 2 (06:41):
Yeah, and she didn't even want to have her voice
to Koder, so I read what she said us. But basically,
I feel sick about saying this out loud, but I
truly regret having children. I feel like I've been faking
their whole lives. I would hate for them to ever know,
so I'm just pretending every day now.
Speaker 1 (06:56):
You said, Robin that you can sort of relate, but like,
what was the longest you ever actually regretted having kids.
Speaker 2 (07:02):
I think there's been many a time where there's been
hours that I've kind of had to really regroup and
just go away and do the things that make me
feel happy. But for me, they're the greatest gift that
I've ever had. And you've had a career and I've
had a career. But you can love and hate them
in equal measures. Oh yes, but hours.
Speaker 1 (07:19):
You know, there's a difference between regretting it for hours
and years.
Speaker 2 (07:23):
For years eight and twelve. Her children are Kelly and
VICKI point you have a theory about this what is it.
Speaker 8 (07:30):
I just think when she's talking about her achievements and
what she hasn't been able to achieve in her life.
People study full time with small children, if travel with
small children, like people achiose that all the time. I
think that she's just blaming them for what she hasn't
been able to achieve. If she really wanted to achieve,
whether it's travel or for work, she would do that
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like people do it all the time.
Speaker 4 (07:53):
Yeah.
Speaker 3 (07:53):
I remember having that conversation my mama. I came home
from clubs and she was doing a study after doing
watching at two o'clock in the morning. She just couldn't
see my point.
Speaker 1 (08:00):
Well, Tina can see the person's point. We're going to
talk to Tina at Ananda right after this.
Speaker 2 (08:05):
It's a very interesting take on it.
Speaker 1 (08:07):
Time speaking up, Darren Hayes. I want you it's robuntary
and Kip Kiss is ninety seventy three doing it for
big box cars and full disclosure, no exposure this morning.
It's a fairly big faux pa in society.
Speaker 2 (08:20):
I'd have to say, yeah, right, this woman is so
concerned that she'll be recognized that she's just sent it
as script and I have read it but one paragraph
that'll kind of set it up. I feel sick for
saying this out loud, but I truly regret having children.
I love them, feel responsible for them, but if I'm
really and truly honest, they have been a burden in
my life and stopped me from achieving so many things.
Speaker 1 (08:43):
Now our next the person we're about to speak to
from Nando. This is not her name and as she's
asked to remain private, which is fair enough, so we'll
call you Tina. Good morning, Tina, Hello, it says here.
You know the feeling.
Speaker 4 (09:00):
I go. I never wanted kids. I've ended up with
them on my own now. I'm quite selfish. I like
to do my own thing when I feel like it,
and I have actually told my kids this and it
ended up being a fight between us because they were
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supposed to go to their dad and they ended up
with his mum instead, and he told them on the
phone that I made it all up, that he wasn't
even supposed to have them, and it was a massive fight.
So I said to my kids, I just blooted it
out and I said, well, do you know what, I
never wanted kids. I hate having kids because I like
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to do my own thing, and my kids got upset
and I said, you know what he wanted is but
look who's stuck around and look who's got years and
raising years and doing all this stuff for years. And
I said, I'm just trying my best. I don't know
how to do all this stuff. There's books on it,
but it's not how you've raised your kids though, because
kids nowadays are so different when I grew up, and
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it's so many more rules and regulations, and you just
feel there's so much pressure put onto you that you
can't handle it.
Speaker 2 (10:11):
You know, some of us how many kids four and
how old?
Speaker 4 (10:18):
Fourteen, twelve, nine and eight?
Speaker 2 (10:21):
And how are you with them now? Because that was
in the heat of the moment, and we all say
things when we pushed, So how is your relationship with
them now?
Speaker 4 (10:33):
I still try my best with them. I still try
to give them like motherly love and everything like that,
but I've never had that instinct. Then I've watched my
siblings and my parents with my kids, and they're so
nurturing towards them, and I'm like, why don't I have that?
But I'm also that person where I don't like people
being in my bubble and my space, and it is tough,
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and like I've you know, like being a mum, you
know you're space to stay home and look after the
kids and do the housework and everything like that. Some
people still think of that.
Speaker 2 (11:05):
Yeah, but I mean, what's your solution for this then? Mate?
If you've been really honest with them, even in a
fit of anger, these kids now know and has their
dad abandoned them? Like has he gone?
Speaker 4 (11:16):
He's not been in a picture for three years?
Speaker 2 (11:18):
Okay, So what's your solution for this? Knowing your personality
and knowing you are responsible for four children that are
going to be responsible. If you've got an eight year
old for at least another ten years, what do you
want to have happened?
Speaker 4 (11:32):
I just do my best with supporting them, trying to
give them as much guidance and love as I can,
and just finding them that I am here at every
step of the way, that they do need me, and
like they do come to me about problems and chat
with me and everything like that, and I'm pretty much
just yeah, doing it like yeah, fake it till you
make it's kind of thing. And then if I can't
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help them, I go to my mom, and my mom
gives so much more advice and help and support, and
I just feel if you do have a great support team,
like I've even I actually did a course about self
help and I started in front of a group of
over one hundred and thirty people, and my mom was there,
and that was the first time my mum heard that
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I hate being a mum, And my mum said it
was such a hurtful thing, and then I explained to
her why because I've got kids that have medical conditions
and one is very high ADHD and it is so
tough when you've got those type of kids, and you
just feel so flustered and overwhelmed, and we never know
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everyone's situation. That's the thing too.
Speaker 2 (12:37):
I really resonate with your desperation. I really do. I
so understand as a solo single mom just how tough
it is day in day out, the relentlessness of it.
And that's not just single moms. Some parents just struggle
to deal with it. But I guess the thing is, Tina,
and a lot of people will be judging you right
now one hundred percent, but I honor your honesty and
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I hope that you find the support that you need
to be able to find a balance between your kids
who desperately need you, and what you need from your
own life.
Speaker 4 (13:11):
Yeah, and that's why I've been doing the self help course,
because because I want to understand why I feel the
way I do. But you're there.
Speaker 3 (13:20):
You're there, Tina, feeling as you do.
Speaker 2 (13:21):
Now, you're there every day. Yep, well done, mate, and
thanks for having the courage to call us really appreciate
It's Evvantarian Kids on Brisbane's Kiss ninety seventy three.