Midlife Misery: the Journals

My name is Launa and I am a Survivor of Narcissitic Abuse, discovering herself through divorce, mental health, and female friendships. I am a 47 year old GenXer Born and raised on the West Coast. After "barely" surviving a Traumatic Event - in an Emergency Room - in February 2024 - when my Narcissit - Ex Husband - lied to the Emergency Room Staff while I was unconscious. My Abusive Ex Husband's actions that day in February 2024 - caused the ER staff to hold me on an Involuntary Psychiatric Hold, instead of treating me for my physical ailments. My EX Husband provided 5 FALSE Psychiatric Diagnoses to the ER staff that day and if they were true, I wouldn't be able to funciton out in society AT ALL. I certainly wouldn't be here today, able to tell my story in any type of rational, comprehensible manner. I suffered another - equally traumatic event - by way of Spousal Abandonment one month later, in March 2024. When my Narcissistic Abuser - my EX husband - abandoned me and the marriage while I was taking a shower. He cut off all communication and filed for divorce less than a month later and I have not seen, comunicated, or spoken with him since. My Abusive Ex Husband continues to drag out the divorce - a process that has been going on for over a year. My Abusive Ex Husband has bankrupted me and turned my only family member, my Mother against me. My Abusive Ex Husband continues to stalk and harrass me while he weaponizes the Divorce Court System against me. This is my story and its a story about: Gaslighting and Manipulation Harassment Stalking via Flying monkeys and bluetooth Trackers Cyber-terrosism Gangstalking Cyberstalking My Marriage to a Kratom addicted, narcissist & sociopath Spousal Abandonment Law Enforcement manipulation Mental Health System Abuse Violations of the HIPPAA family privacy rules Violations of Privacy and Therapist-Patient Confidentiality Laws Medical System Manipulation Suicide and Suicidal Ideation fabrication Possible longterm poisoning Potential Attempted Murder And last but certainly not least its a story that includes Identity Theft Superior Family Court Fraud and Potential Tax Fraud & Evasion My journals have helped me get this far and sharing them was my first attempt at vulnerability..... I hope to continue this process by sharing more of my story on this Podcast as I navigate 9 year marriage to a Narcissistic Abuser and healing the trauma from my marriage. In addition to healing my childhood trauma that I've spend almost a decade working on in Therapy. I'm figuring out how to forge my new path forward, realizing that I've always been happier alone and unchained. I'm learning how strong I am when I've been pushed to the brink. I'm learning that I can still trust my judgment in people and within myself - Two BAD APPLES (who have claimed to be the "closest ones to me") did not spoil my entire bunch. I'm Finding comfort in the fact that my female friendships have always been and continue to be the MOST VALUABLE asset in my life and that I can FULLY TRUST MYSELF AND my emotional intelligence - despite what my Haters (the bad apples) want everyone else to believe . Thank You for listening it truly means the world to me - XOXO Launa Podcast Website Link Supporter's Club Link This story as told in the podcast and blog is based on my understanding and perspective, and should not be interpreted as factual claims about any individual or entity without further verification The names and places have been changed or left cryptic to protect the accused My name has also been changed to protect myself from my ex as he continues to drag out the divorce process in court