January 22, 2025 • 30 mins
Recorded live after the end of the world, this special mid-month "break-in" episode explores the themes of transformation, mental wealth, and joy in adversity through personal anecdotes and philosophical reflections.
Avant-garde motivational speaker Emerson Dameron shares his journey from personal turmoil to rediscovering his unique philosophical genius—and encourages you, the most "I" of all possible VIPs, to embrace life’s challenges for growth and resilience.
• Discussing the impact of life's transitions on personal growth
• The Pacific Wheel as a gigantic ham-handed metaphor
• Redefining wealth beyond financial terms
• The importance of mental wealth, resilience, and enlightened denial
• Ego death: It's something to brag about!
And! Introducing Helena the Brit in "Summer of the Sex Idiots"
...and That Guy in "I Am the Drug."
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Emerson Dameron (00:36):
The end of the world is a lagging indicator.
By the time it's over, it'sbeen over for a while.
It's not truly over untilthere's no chance of it coming
back.
But sometimes you have torelinquish that hope,, say, you
know what it's over and, in thewords of a great Bostonian sage,
every new beginning comes fromsome other beginning's end.
(00:58):
The beginning was over a longtime ago.
Let's catch up.
Go insane on your own terms.
You can do that now because itis after the end of the world.
.
This is a special break-inepisode of Emerson Dameron's
Medicated Minute Selly's numberone avant-garde personal
development program.
I was going to put this in atime capsule and say do not open
(01:18):
before the end of the world.
But why kick the can?
I'm pretty sure the world endedat some point.
I don't know exactly when wecrossed over, but the time to
avail yourself of this resourceis now.
It is after the end of theworld.
Now you know that.
What are you going to do now?
Well, I'm going to tell you.
I'm Emerson Dameron, la'snumber one avant-garde
(01:40):
motivational speaker.
I love you personally and I'mgoing to tell you.
Did I ever tell you how I cameto live in Venice Beach?
It all began one day on aferris wheel in Santa Monica.
That's when I lived downtown.
My then wife and I wouldoccasionally come out to the
beach on weekends and you could,because there was suddenly a
(02:02):
train that went all the way fromdowntown to the beach.
If you had told me that wasgoing to happen, I would not
have believed you, because lifejust can't be that good, and yet
it is.
Sometimes, when life is at itsworst, it is also, paradoxically
, at its best.
For instance, we myself and myerstwhile wife, rode the Ferris
(02:23):
wheel and when we got up to thetop, it stopped.
We were rocking back and forth.
The wind was blowing so hardthat day that I could see
seagulls flying into the wind,hovering.
The fastest they could fly wasas hard as the wind was pushing,
so they just stayed there,making no progress, hanging.
(02:44):
My erstwhile wife was not ableto chill in the same way.
She was absolutely miserable.
She was freezing.
She was always cold at thebeach.
She didn't like it because itwas 10 degrees colder than the
rest of the city.
She was scared, mad, resentful.
At the time, I wanted tocomfort her.
(03:04):
I wanted to fix the problem.
I wanted to take care of thissuffering, this person that I
cared about.
There wasn't a whole lot Icould do, so I just decided to
enjoy myself and, knowing what Iknow now, when I look back on
that experience, I treasure thememory.
I find it highly erotic.
And when we divorced, I moved toVenice Beach because I was
(03:28):
doing a series of things that Ihad not felt comfortable doing
during the marriage, such asmoving my life to a place my
then-wife didn't want to live,across the 405.
As I was walking up and downOcean Front Walk, as I was doing
ecstatic dances, as I wasliving the end-of-the-world
(03:48):
dream, I encountered some merchfrom a rapper.
Nba Youngboy Never Broke Again.
When I saw that, I got inspiredand I said I'm going to be like
that guy, I'm going to be neverbroke again.
I decided the best revengewould be living well, which in
my case would require gettingrich.
So I took two full-time jobs.
(04:10):
This was during COVID.
It was tough, but I startedsocking money away.
I started sacking money away.
I had more money than I knewwhat to do with.
I had achieved wealth.
I'll skip to the end.
I'm now a slightly older boyand I did indeed go broke again
as I became as financially flushas I've ever been in my life.
(04:34):
Focusing my idea of wealthentirely on dollars, on American
simoleons, I did myself seriousharm.
I was losing it in other partsof my life, parts involving
sleeping and eating, friendships, relationships, human warmth
and trust.
I was dragging.
I would have been hitting awall if I'd been able to go fast
(04:57):
enough to really hit a wallwith any sort of violence.
The concept of wealth is alittle bit more open to
interpretation than some of usrealize.
Fortunately, in Venice Beach Ihave a friend who works over at
Magic Mind.
Her idea wealth is mentalwealth.
If you start stacking sleep,diet, exercise, stress
(05:19):
management and exogenouscompounds, which I know all
about because I read all thewhite papers.
Anyone that comes out, I'll atleast F-scan it.
I did not know the power, thepotency of these exogenous
compounds when in concert withimproving the other areas of
life in sustainable ways, makinginvestments in resilience, when
(05:43):
you are able to do thatcomfortably, so that you will be
prepared.
That's what Magic Mind is.
They hooked me up with thefocus shots and the sweep
formula, neither of which is amagic bullet.
I don't know why you would wanta magic bullet, or any kind of
bullet really.
Unless it's extremely wellplaced, a bullet is not going to
(06:04):
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accumulate mental wealth, youmight be disappointed by what
you achieved this week andsurprised and delighted by what
you achieved this quarter orthis year.
The difference was palpable.
I was not crashing, I was notcurling up into fetal position
(06:26):
and giving up on myself as Ioften had and you couldn't tell
because I was putting out bangershows the whole time.
But mid to late 2024, I was ina place, and it wasn't a happy
place.
I got out by making investmentsaround the margins, creating a
foundation of mental wealth formyself, and five days in I was
(06:48):
back in the game.
I noticed I was not angry orscared anymore and I was able to
do that.
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(07:31):
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Much of life is dedicated to theDenial of Death, title of a
book from psychologist ErnestBecker that's on the reading
(08:14):
list so I'm sure you've alreadyread it.
If you're just now starting toprep, you definitely need your
focus and sleep on point.
It's not too late, you canstill do it, because if you give
up on yourself or if youacknowledge the genuine
difficulty of achieving yourgoal, you will impede your
ability to do it, Whereas if youhave ridiculous, ill-advised
(08:38):
optimism about your odds ofsuccess, then those odds will be
compounded by your willingnessto do it, your belief, your
burning desire that is allowedto flourish.
The denial of death is largelythe process of the doing of what
is conventionally referred toas sanity, which is in fact the
(08:59):
most insidious madness.
It's conformity, it's takingyour own word for what's really
going on.
It's thinking that your realityis objectively there and not a
controlled hallucination thatyou're having.
You might get a handjob whenthe janitor comes in, but what
you have to do after the end,when it's truly all over, and
(09:22):
you will know you will not diebefore your time.
Everyone dies at their time.
That is the one and only timethat you are ever going to die.
You will die at your time.
You don't have to be in a hurryto join the choir invisible.
It's guaranteed to happen andit will happen when it does.
But you can dislodge yourselffrom the wheel of life and death
(09:46):
ahead of time by acquiring aselective form of insanity,
which implies that you will dothe choosing and because you
only have options that you knowyou have, that choosing should
be well-informed as much as itcan be.
That's part of the prep workthat I'm sure you're way ahead
of the game on.
You're the best and I love youpersonally.
Helena the Brit (10:30):
Oh, darling, let me tell you about Bruno, my
tragic, delightful sex idiot.
He's as muscled as a frescoedcherub and precisely as
intelligent.
His every utterance is an ariaof incomprehensible power talk,
some bizarre dialect oftestosterone and monosyllables.
Grunts, roars, push through theburn.
(10:50):
What burn, darling?
The man communicates like aprotein shake that's just
discovered vowels.
And yet there I was in adimension that felt like an
unfinished painting, somewherebetween Magritte's preposterous
skies and Kandinsky's spasms ofcolour and chaos.
Reality there was a slipperything, a smear of shapes that
(11:14):
couldn't quite decide what theywanted to be.
A staircase spiralled upwardinto the breast of a cloud, a
crescent moon floatedhalf-submerged in a pool of ink.
Bruno stood at the centre of itall.
His body a glistening monumentof brute force.
His head cocked like an emptyand forgotten piece of crockery.
What's the strategy, eleanor?
(11:35):
He barked, his voicereverberating like a gong struck
in a hall of mirrors.
Strategy, as though I had abattle plan for the likes of him
.
And then he charged at me, thisliving marble slab, this erotic
wrecking ball.
We collided like tectonicplates and, oh, the landscape
quaked, darling, it was violent,a cubist tango of limbs and
(12:01):
impulses.
His hands were all at onceanvils and feathers, dismantling
me piece by trembling piece.
He spun me into shapes I didnot know my body could inhabit.
At one point I was certain Ihad become a trapezoid.
He painted bruises on me withbroad, brutish strokes, as
though I were his canvas, andagony his art.
(12:22):
And when he spoke, oh his words.
Pure nonsense.
Dominate the quadrant, activatethe core, stack games, games.
I've no earthly idea what hemeant, but I nodded, moaned and
begged for more.
At one point he lifted me likeI was weightless, an origami
(12:46):
crane folded into submission.
I flailed, beautifully, ofcourse, a damsel undone by his
geometric cruelty.
He slammed me against a wallthat wasn't there, and yet I
felt it, the texture of itsimpossibility against my skin.
I dissolved into angles,reduced to some surreal
assemblage of passion and pain,all at the mercy of this
(13:10):
absurdly sculpted man.
And yet there were moments,brief, flickering moments, when
I saw something in his eyes.
Not intelligence, mind you,that would be asking far too
much, but sincerity, yes, that'sit.
A pure, almost childlike joy.
(13:30):
As he shattered me like glass,his grin was that of a boy
pulling wings off a butterfly,but somehow endearing.
Do you know?
Once he even called mebrilliant.
Well, his word was, quoteunquote tight, tight, meaning
brilliant.
And oh, his word was, quoteunquote tight, tight meaning
brilliant.
I know the aftermath, darling.
We lay there, entangled in amess of broken geometry and
(13:52):
perspiration, the air thick,with the smell of paint.
Thinner, I think, or perhapsregret.
Bruno looked at me withsomething approaching admiration
, his chest heaving like anunfinished symphony.
You're tight, he said, which Itook as a compliment, though I'm
(14:17):
certain it was meant as apost-workout assessment.
And I well, I told him he wassublime.
But you know what's funny,darling, just before I left, as
I slipped back into my dress,smoothing its fabric over the
constellation of bruises he'dleft behind, I caught him
(14:37):
looking at me with an expressionI couldn't quite play.
Was it pity?
No, amusement perhaps.
And then it struck me, in hiseyes I was the idiot, the fool,
in this surrealist farce.
His sex idiot Me, can youimagine.
But of course he's wrong, isn'the?
(15:00):
Surely I'm the clever one here.
After all, I'm the one tellingthe story.
Emerson Dameron (15:14):
At some point somebody asked the surrealist
artist Salvador Dali if he wason drugs and Dali responded Dali
is the drug.
That's me's me, I am the drug.
I'm on some other drugs that'sreally none of your business.
Some of them are prescription.
I got a pharmacy up in my place.
If you want to come hang out,you can't because you haven't
(15:35):
earned that privilege.
But if you do, you'll find out.
We'll have some interestingadventures.
I don't need any of that stuffbecause I am the drug.
The drugs like me and I likethem back.
I am the drug.
The drug I'm on is calledswagger.
I've got full confidence,libido.
I am alive.
I got the rest of eternity tobe dead.
(15:58):
I got limited time to be alive.
The longer I'm around, the moreit has already happened and the
less I got in front of me, andright now I've got probably less
in front of me than I do behindme.
I haven't seen the longitudinalstudies on doing the amounts of
swagger that I do and long-termeffects on the physiology.
If it lowers life expectancy,it's well worth it, because I
(16:20):
don't deal with things in lineartime.
My swagger is quantum.
I could swing it like thependulum that drives time itself
and I could stop time anytime Iwant, or I can take that and
put it inside.
Somebody strikes my fancy andthen it's like time doesn't
exist when I bang it out in hermind, there was never anything
(16:41):
before this and there will neverbe anything after this.
I will just always be poundingit out and reeling her with her
legs on my shoulders, and that'show it's always been and that's
the way it is you canunderstand why she wants to give
me the slowest, deepest, mostloving blow job of my life,
because I am alive and I'mdropping bombs on this world.
(17:02):
I got more to come.
I got got classics alreadycirculating, distributed and
that's because I handled mybusiness.
I wasn't born this way.
It hasn't always been like this.
I had to overcome some stuff.
I had some difficulties in mylife.
You can't understand that.
You have your own difficulties.
Maybe I can't understand yourdifficulties, doesn't matter.
(17:22):
I dealt with depression, anxiety, loneliness.
I still deal with those thingsI work with or around my
insecurities.
I use them Stage fright Perfectexample.
When I don't have stage fright,I know I'm going to eat it
because I know I don't care.
Stage fright is my ancientsurvival instinct kicking in to
(17:44):
make sure I do a baller show,and anxiety can be seen in a
similar way.
That's me getting myself readyto thrive, not just survive.
If I've been just merelysurviving for too long, that's
where the depression kicks in.
That's to let me know that Ishould go out and get some or
make something happen.
Get things done, done sosomebody else can also GTD.
(18:07):
In a different sense thatstands for something else.
The problem is you know it'sdepression, doesn't know when to
quit.
It takes everything.
It makes me think nothingmatters, which is probably true,
but that's something to behappy about or at least have
some fun with.
I haven't always been able to dothat, I think.
Who cares about anything?
Well, I do, or I want to, but Ican't and I thought what's the
(18:30):
point of that?
I can rock on with my bad self.
My life is a party.
I invite certain people, you'reinvited, but the party rolls on
regardless.
I'm going to do this fun thingat 630 on Tuesday, because you
got to make it exact you cancome or not.
I'm going to have this funthing at 6.30 on Tuesday,
because you got to make it exactyou can come or not.
You can have a great timeregardless.
If you do, I will try to treatyou with respect as much as I
(18:52):
can.
I don't like treating stupidpeople like they're intelligent
and I might hurt your feelingsby accident Sometimes.
I just can't help it.
That's the kind of swaggeryou're dealing with.
I used to roast people to getmyself out of life-threatening
situations and now I do it forfun.
You can get into that, you canget down, you can get up and on
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it.
Unless you hate fun.
Do you have a problem with fun?
How do you really feel aboutfun?
Sit with that for a minute,that'll be fun.
Or do you want to have some?
Do you want to be me If youwant to have some?
Do you want to be me if youwant what I have?
I can teach you how to get it,but you gotta swagger your own
way.
Don't bite my style.
First of all, it's not going tobe convincing.
So you gotta have your ownswagger.
(19:34):
You can imitate me for practice, but then you gotta develop
your own thing.
Also, I don't like competition.
I want you to think I likecompetition, but I don't,
because I'm a monopolist on myversion of swagger.
You can get out of my space.
I did swagger here by myself.
If your girlfriend likes it,tough titties hers because
they're standing up.
ByeComplimentary power moves that
(20:17):
you can do in the office or onthe field or wherever your
octagon or dojo of life happensto be On the house, courtesy of
Emerson Dameron, la's number oneavant-garde motivational
speaker.
If you see somebody you want toget some leverage on and that
person asks you if you're havinga nice day, say the best day of
(20:38):
the rest of your life.
They may not like you, but theywill damn sure respect you.
If you realize that you've saidtoo much and you regret what
has tumbled out of your mouth,say to the assembled I trust you
because you're wise enough tokeep my secrets.
That will shut them up good.
This is Emerson Dameron, LA'snumber one avant-garde
(20:59):
motivational speaker and host ofEmerson Dameron's Medicated
Minutes on K-Chung kchungradio.
org, medicated-minutes.
com.
I love you personally.
Levity saves lives, thank you.
(21:43):
When you choose your illusion,when you exercise your right to
be catastrophically wrong aboutsomething, choose the flavor
that suits you best and thatsometimes requires an ecstatic,
dramatic ego death experience.
What kind of insanity do youprefer?
Wires an ecstatic, dramatic egodeath experience.
What kind of insanity do youprefer?
Do you want to become aparanoid conspiracy theorist
(22:04):
that can make you feel important, like you're, at the center of
a lot of intrigue?
And there are certainlyconspiracies going on all the
time, right, left, up and down,all over the place.
When people accidentally mixmetaphors the way I just did,
there's a hidden message inthere, because everything means
something and it's all about thesame thing and you know that
(22:25):
now and you can be right aboutthat Meaning that you can be
tragically wrong, but on yourown terms.
If you want something morechill, you join a commune.
If you're a winner to excess,an overachiever who likes to do
things your own way, you canindulge in public humiliation as
performance art.
Be all that as it may, pickyour poison and start chugging.
(22:48):
Here comes the fun part Egodeath.
It's something to brag about,it's the ultimate in
psychological makeovers, likeexfoliating your soul with a
cheese grater.
It's painful, freedom hurts.
It's liberating.
If you survive, which has to bean open question to some degree
, the probability of defeat mustbe greater than zero in order
(23:11):
for the risk to mean anything.
Forget all that.
Let the party begin.
There are many roads up themountain of ego death, or into
the canyon, or into the placewhere metaphors don't matter.
I of course prefer psychedelicdrugs, particularly 5-MeO, dmt,
the venom of the Colorado River,toad Bufo Alvarius.
To crib from Hunter Thompson.
(23:32):
I can't recommend 5-MeO, but itcertainly worked for me.
I got a break from beingEmerson Dameron.
Up to that point I'd been in myown company my entire life.
It does get old.
It was nice to have a break formyself.
I still had all my old problems, but because I wasn't me
anymore.
The problems belonged tosomeone else.
For that 15 minutes that wasalso eternity.
(23:55):
The fact that they were otherpeople's problems made them kind
of hilarious.
I've done a lot of psychedelicsand had a lot of bad
experiences, particularly in thebeginning when I was taking out
the garbage.
So I can't recommend themunconditionally.
What I can recommend is themystical sex route Tantra,
cosmic orgasms, just good olrough sex, which will save the
(24:17):
world.
So much of what we call evil isjust awkward, obvious sexual
sublimation.
If you could work out yourkinks in the bedroom or the
dungeon or in the alley behindthe bar, you could save yourself
a lot of time in tanks orboardrooms screwing up the world
.
Rough sex Start having it today.
(24:38):
That emptiness is where myinsecurities used to be.
You can also just lose it.
You can spin out, you canspiral out, you can go all in
and all out simultaneously,fully commit to the bit Balls
out into the wall and just gobonkers, coconuts, crackers,
bananas, put all that in ablender, lose your mind.
(25:00):
Whatever you do, lean into it,see you on the other side,
switch up the tune, try it andsee what happens, and then you
will be there.
It will be what it is, and yetnot.
Nothing will be everything, andvice versa.
All opposites will be united.
All problems will be solved.
New problems will be everything, and vice versa.
All opposites will be united.
All problems will be solved.
New problems will be created,and those problems too will be
(25:23):
solved.
Hurt people will hurt people andthose people will hurt other
people, because hurt people hurtpeople and that's the law of
the land and that's the only wayto get rid of your hurting.
Until someone hurts a masochist, there will be peace in the
valley and in the sky, as above,so below, beyond good and evil,
into the unexplored craggyheights of electric ladyland.
(25:45):
The only way to get there is tobelieve that it's possible,
which requires the cessation ofbelief in anything.
Enough of the talking.
It's after the end of the world.
Now you know that you got yourwork cut out for you.
The best time to get startedwas before the end of the world.
The second best time is now.
This has been a special afterthe end of the world
(26:07):
presentation of EmersonDameron's Medicated Minutes,
la's number one avant-gardepersonal development program,
medicated-minutescom the onlygood podcast.
I'm Emerson Dameron, I love youpersonally.
Levity saves lives.
(26:28):
Oh, before we go.
When you're ready to takecontrol of your mental wealth
and get that handled, you canget your 24-hour bundle of Magic
Mind Focus and Sleepmagicmindcom.
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Sleep focus repeatno-transcript.
The end of the world is a lagging indicator.
By the time it's over, it'sbeen over for a while.
It's not truly over untilthere's no chance of it coming
back.
But sometimes you have torelinquish that hope,, say, you
know what it's over and, in thewords of a great Bostonian sage,
every new beginning comes fromsome other beginning's end.
(00:58):
The beginning was over a longtime ago.
Let's catch up.
Go insane on your own terms.
You can do that now because itis after the end of the world.
.
This is a special break-inepisode of Emerson Dameron's
Medicated Minute Selly's numberone avant-garde personal
development program.
I was going to put this in atime capsule and say do not open
(01:18):
before the end of the world.
But why kick the can?
I'm pretty sure the world endedat some point.
I don't know exactly when wecrossed over, but the time to
avail yourself of this resourceis now.
It is after the end of theworld.
Now you know that.
What are you going to do now?
Well, I'm going to tell you.
I'm Emerson Dameron, la'snumber one avant-garde
(01:40):
motivational speaker.
I love you personally and I'mgoing to tell you.
Did I ever tell you how I cameto live in Venice Beach?
It all began one day on aferris wheel in Santa Monica.
That's when I lived downtown.
My then wife and I wouldoccasionally come out to the
beach on weekends and you could,because there was suddenly a
(02:02):
train that went all the way fromdowntown to the beach.
If you had told me that wasgoing to happen, I would not
have believed you, because lifejust can't be that good, and yet
it is.
Sometimes, when life is at itsworst, it is also, paradoxically
, at its best.
For instance, we myself and myerstwhile wife, rode the Ferris
(02:23):
wheel and when we got up to thetop, it stopped.
We were rocking back and forth.
The wind was blowing so hardthat day that I could see
seagulls flying into the wind,hovering.
The fastest they could fly wasas hard as the wind was pushing,
so they just stayed there,making no progress, hanging.
(02:44):
My erstwhile wife was not ableto chill in the same way.
She was absolutely miserable.
She was freezing.
She was always cold at thebeach.
She didn't like it because itwas 10 degrees colder than the
rest of the city.
She was scared, mad, resentful.
At the time, I wanted tocomfort her.
(03:04):
I wanted to fix the problem.
I wanted to take care of thissuffering, this person that I
cared about.
There wasn't a whole lot Icould do, so I just decided to
enjoy myself and, knowing what Iknow now, when I look back on
that experience, I treasure thememory.
I find it highly erotic.
And when we divorced, I moved toVenice Beach because I was
(03:28):
doing a series of things that Ihad not felt comfortable doing
during the marriage, such asmoving my life to a place my
then-wife didn't want to live,across the 405.
As I was walking up and downOcean Front Walk, as I was doing
ecstatic dances, as I wasliving the end-of-the-world
(03:48):
dream, I encountered some merchfrom a rapper.
Nba Youngboy Never Broke Again.
When I saw that, I got inspiredand I said I'm going to be like
that guy, I'm going to be neverbroke again.
I decided the best revengewould be living well, which in
my case would require gettingrich.
So I took two full-time jobs.
(04:10):
This was during COVID.
It was tough, but I startedsocking money away.
I started sacking money away.
I had more money than I knewwhat to do with.
I had achieved wealth.
I'll skip to the end.
I'm now a slightly older boyand I did indeed go broke again
as I became as financially flushas I've ever been in my life.
(04:34):
Focusing my idea of wealthentirely on dollars, on American
simoleons, I did myself seriousharm.
I was losing it in other partsof my life, parts involving
sleeping and eating, friendships, relationships, human warmth
and trust.
I was dragging.
I would have been hitting awall if I'd been able to go fast
(04:57):
enough to really hit a wallwith any sort of violence.
The concept of wealth is alittle bit more open to
interpretation than some of usrealize.
Fortunately, in Venice Beach Ihave a friend who works over at
Magic Mind.
Her idea wealth is mentalwealth.
If you start stacking sleep,diet, exercise, stress
(05:19):
management and exogenouscompounds, which I know all
about because I read all thewhite papers.
Anyone that comes out, I'll atleast F-scan it.
I did not know the power, thepotency of these exogenous
compounds when in concert withimproving the other areas of
life in sustainable ways, makinginvestments in resilience, when
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you are able to do thatcomfortably, so that you will be
prepared.
That's what Magic Mind is.
They hooked me up with thefocus shots and the sweep
formula, neither of which is amagic bullet.
I don't know why you would wanta magic bullet, or any kind of
bullet really.
Unless it's extremely wellplaced, a bullet is not going to
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improve things for you, but ifyou develop habits that help you
accumulate mental wealth, youmight be disappointed by what
you achieved this week andsurprised and delighted by what
you achieved this quarter orthis year.
The difference was palpable.
I was not crashing, I was notcurling up into fetal position
(06:26):
and giving up on myself as Ioften had and you couldn't tell
because I was putting out bangershows the whole time.
But mid to late 2024, I was ina place, and it wasn't a happy
place.
I got out by making investmentsaround the margins, creating a
foundation of mental wealth formyself, and five days in I was
(06:48):
back in the game.
I noticed I was not angry orscared anymore and I was able to
do that.
I was able to save myselfthrough improved focus and the
acuity that comes from gettingnot just sleep but rest.
You can try this too.
You have the opportunity to tryboth the focus and sleep shots
(07:11):
at the same time.
The union of opposites,polarity, awareness and rest.
You can get them both 45% off.
Quite a deal.
It does not require a big leapof faith, Just a step in the
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Get your starter kitmagicmindcom, slash emersonjan.
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Now, that's a littlecomplicated, you can handle it.
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Much of life is dedicated to theDenial of Death, title of a
book from psychologist ErnestBecker that's on the reading
(08:14):
list so I'm sure you've alreadyread it.
If you're just now starting toprep, you definitely need your
focus and sleep on point.
It's not too late, you canstill do it, because if you give
up on yourself or if youacknowledge the genuine
difficulty of achieving yourgoal, you will impede your
ability to do it, Whereas if youhave ridiculous, ill-advised
(08:38):
optimism about your odds ofsuccess, then those odds will be
compounded by your willingnessto do it, your belief, your
burning desire that is allowedto flourish.
The denial of death is largelythe process of the doing of what
is conventionally referred toas sanity, which is in fact the
(08:59):
most insidious madness.
It's conformity, it's takingyour own word for what's really
going on.
It's thinking that your realityis objectively there and not a
controlled hallucination thatyou're having.
You might get a handjob whenthe janitor comes in, but what
you have to do after the end,when it's truly all over, and
(09:22):
you will know you will not diebefore your time.
Everyone dies at their time.
That is the one and only timethat you are ever going to die.
You will die at your time.
You don't have to be in a hurryto join the choir invisible.
It's guaranteed to happen andit will happen when it does.
But you can dislodge yourselffrom the wheel of life and death
(09:46):
ahead of time by acquiring aselective form of insanity,
which implies that you will dothe choosing and because you
only have options that you knowyou have, that choosing should
be well-informed as much as itcan be.
That's part of the prep workthat I'm sure you're way ahead
of the game on.
You're the best and I love youpersonally.
Helena the Brit (10:30):
Oh, darling, let me tell you about Bruno, my
tragic, delightful sex idiot.
He's as muscled as a frescoedcherub and precisely as
intelligent.
His every utterance is an ariaof incomprehensible power talk,
some bizarre dialect oftestosterone and monosyllables.
Grunts, roars, push through theburn.
(10:50):
What burn, darling?
The man communicates like aprotein shake that's just
discovered vowels.
And yet there I was in adimension that felt like an
unfinished painting, somewherebetween Magritte's preposterous
skies and Kandinsky's spasms ofcolour and chaos.
Reality there was a slipperything, a smear of shapes that
(11:14):
couldn't quite decide what theywanted to be.
A staircase spiralled upwardinto the breast of a cloud, a
crescent moon floatedhalf-submerged in a pool of ink.
Bruno stood at the centre of itall.
His body a glistening monumentof brute force.
His head cocked like an emptyand forgotten piece of crockery.
What's the strategy, eleanor?
(11:35):
He barked, his voicereverberating like a gong struck
in a hall of mirrors.
Strategy, as though I had abattle plan for the likes of him
.
And then he charged at me, thisliving marble slab, this erotic
wrecking ball.
We collided like tectonicplates and, oh, the landscape
quaked, darling, it was violent,a cubist tango of limbs and
(12:01):
impulses.
His hands were all at onceanvils and feathers, dismantling
me piece by trembling piece.
He spun me into shapes I didnot know my body could inhabit.
At one point I was certain Ihad become a trapezoid.
He painted bruises on me withbroad, brutish strokes, as
though I were his canvas, andagony his art.
(12:22):
And when he spoke, oh his words.
Pure nonsense.
Dominate the quadrant, activatethe core, stack games, games.
I've no earthly idea what hemeant, but I nodded, moaned and
begged for more.
At one point he lifted me likeI was weightless, an origami
(12:46):
crane folded into submission.
I flailed, beautifully, ofcourse, a damsel undone by his
geometric cruelty.
He slammed me against a wallthat wasn't there, and yet I
felt it, the texture of itsimpossibility against my skin.
I dissolved into angles,reduced to some surreal
assemblage of passion and pain,all at the mercy of this
(13:10):
absurdly sculpted man.
And yet there were moments,brief, flickering moments, when
I saw something in his eyes.
Not intelligence, mind you,that would be asking far too
much, but sincerity, yes, that'sit.
A pure, almost childlike joy.
(13:30):
As he shattered me like glass,his grin was that of a boy
pulling wings off a butterfly,but somehow endearing.
Do you know?
Once he even called mebrilliant.
Well, his word was, quoteunquote tight, tight, meaning
brilliant.
And oh, his word was, quoteunquote tight, tight meaning
brilliant.
I know the aftermath, darling.
We lay there, entangled in amess of broken geometry and
(13:52):
perspiration, the air thick,with the smell of paint.
Thinner, I think, or perhapsregret.
Bruno looked at me withsomething approaching admiration
, his chest heaving like anunfinished symphony.
You're tight, he said, which Itook as a compliment, though I'm
(14:17):
certain it was meant as apost-workout assessment.
And I well, I told him he wassublime.
But you know what's funny,darling, just before I left, as
I slipped back into my dress,smoothing its fabric over the
constellation of bruises he'dleft behind, I caught him
(14:37):
looking at me with an expressionI couldn't quite play.
Was it pity?
No, amusement perhaps.
And then it struck me, in hiseyes I was the idiot, the fool,
in this surrealist farce.
His sex idiot Me, can youimagine.
But of course he's wrong, isn'the?
(15:00):
Surely I'm the clever one here.
After all, I'm the one tellingthe story.
Emerson Dameron (15:14):
At some point somebody asked the surrealist
artist Salvador Dali if he wason drugs and Dali responded Dali
is the drug.
That's me's me, I am the drug.
I'm on some other drugs that'sreally none of your business.
Some of them are prescription.
I got a pharmacy up in my place.
If you want to come hang out,you can't because you haven't
(15:35):
earned that privilege.
But if you do, you'll find out.
We'll have some interestingadventures.
I don't need any of that stuffbecause I am the drug.
The drugs like me and I likethem back.
I am the drug.
The drug I'm on is calledswagger.
I've got full confidence,libido.
I am alive.
I got the rest of eternity tobe dead.
(15:58):
I got limited time to be alive.
The longer I'm around, the moreit has already happened and the
less I got in front of me, andright now I've got probably less
in front of me than I do behindme.
I haven't seen the longitudinalstudies on doing the amounts of
swagger that I do and long-termeffects on the physiology.
If it lowers life expectancy,it's well worth it, because I
(16:20):
don't deal with things in lineartime.
My swagger is quantum.
I could swing it like thependulum that drives time itself
and I could stop time anytime Iwant, or I can take that and
put it inside.
Somebody strikes my fancy andthen it's like time doesn't
exist when I bang it out in hermind, there was never anything
(16:41):
before this and there will neverbe anything after this.
I will just always be poundingit out and reeling her with her
legs on my shoulders, and that'show it's always been and that's
the way it is you canunderstand why she wants to give
me the slowest, deepest, mostloving blow job of my life,
because I am alive and I'mdropping bombs on this world.
(17:02):
I got more to come.
I got got classics alreadycirculating, distributed and
that's because I handled mybusiness.
I wasn't born this way.
It hasn't always been like this.
I had to overcome some stuff.
I had some difficulties in mylife.
You can't understand that.
You have your own difficulties.
Maybe I can't understand yourdifficulties, doesn't matter.
(17:22):
I dealt with depression, anxiety, loneliness.
I still deal with those thingsI work with or around my
insecurities.
I use them Stage fright Perfectexample.
When I don't have stage fright,I know I'm going to eat it
because I know I don't care.
Stage fright is my ancientsurvival instinct kicking in to
(17:44):
make sure I do a baller show,and anxiety can be seen in a
similar way.
That's me getting myself readyto thrive, not just survive.
If I've been just merelysurviving for too long, that's
where the depression kicks in.
That's to let me know that Ishould go out and get some or
make something happen.
Get things done, done sosomebody else can also GTD.
(18:07):
In a different sense thatstands for something else.
The problem is you know it'sdepression, doesn't know when to
quit.
It takes everything.
It makes me think nothingmatters, which is probably true,
but that's something to behappy about or at least have
some fun with.
I haven't always been able to dothat, I think.
Who cares about anything?
Well, I do, or I want to, but Ican't and I thought what's the
(18:30):
point of that?
I can rock on with my bad self.
My life is a party.
I invite certain people, you'reinvited, but the party rolls on
regardless.
I'm going to do this fun thingat 630 on Tuesday, because you
got to make it exact you cancome or not.
I'm going to have this funthing at 6.30 on Tuesday,
because you got to make it exactyou can come or not.
You can have a great timeregardless.
If you do, I will try to treatyou with respect as much as I
(18:52):
can.
I don't like treating stupidpeople like they're intelligent
and I might hurt your feelingsby accident Sometimes.
I just can't help it.
That's the kind of swaggeryou're dealing with.
I used to roast people to getmyself out of life-threatening
situations and now I do it forfun.
You can get into that, you canget down, you can get up and on
(19:13):
it.
Unless you hate fun.
Do you have a problem with fun?
How do you really feel aboutfun?
Sit with that for a minute,that'll be fun.
Or do you want to have some?
Do you want to be me If youwant to have some?
Do you want to be me if youwant what I have?
I can teach you how to get it,but you gotta swagger your own
way.
Don't bite my style.
First of all, it's not going tobe convincing.
So you gotta have your ownswagger.
(19:34):
You can imitate me for practice, but then you gotta develop
your own thing.
Also, I don't like competition.
I want you to think I likecompetition, but I don't,
because I'm a monopolist on myversion of swagger.
You can get out of my space.
I did swagger here by myself.
If your girlfriend likes it,tough titties hers because
they're standing up.
ByeComplimentary power moves that
(20:17):
you can do in the office or onthe field or wherever your
octagon or dojo of life happensto be On the house, courtesy of
Emerson Dameron, la's number oneavant-garde motivational
speaker.
If you see somebody you want toget some leverage on and that
person asks you if you're havinga nice day, say the best day of
(20:38):
the rest of your life.
They may not like you, but theywill damn sure respect you.
If you realize that you've saidtoo much and you regret what
has tumbled out of your mouth,say to the assembled I trust you
because you're wise enough tokeep my secrets.
That will shut them up good.
This is Emerson Dameron, LA'snumber one avant-garde
(20:59):
motivational speaker and host ofEmerson Dameron's Medicated
Minutes on K-Chung kchungradio.
org, medicated-minutes.
com.
I love you personally.
Levity saves lives, thank you.
(21:43):
When you choose your illusion,when you exercise your right to
be catastrophically wrong aboutsomething, choose the flavor
that suits you best and thatsometimes requires an ecstatic,
dramatic ego death experience.
What kind of insanity do youprefer?
Wires an ecstatic, dramatic egodeath experience.
What kind of insanity do youprefer?
Do you want to become aparanoid conspiracy theorist
(22:04):
that can make you feel important, like you're, at the center of
a lot of intrigue?
And there are certainlyconspiracies going on all the
time, right, left, up and down,all over the place.
When people accidentally mixmetaphors the way I just did,
there's a hidden message inthere, because everything means
something and it's all about thesame thing and you know that
(22:25):
now and you can be right aboutthat Meaning that you can be
tragically wrong, but on yourown terms.
If you want something morechill, you join a commune.
If you're a winner to excess,an overachiever who likes to do
things your own way, you canindulge in public humiliation as
performance art.
Be all that as it may, pickyour poison and start chugging.
(22:48):
Here comes the fun part Egodeath.
It's something to brag about,it's the ultimate in
psychological makeovers, likeexfoliating your soul with a
cheese grater.
It's painful, freedom hurts.
It's liberating.
If you survive, which has to bean open question to some degree
, the probability of defeat mustbe greater than zero in order
(23:11):
for the risk to mean anything.
Forget all that.
Let the party begin.
There are many roads up themountain of ego death, or into
the canyon, or into the placewhere metaphors don't matter.
I of course prefer psychedelicdrugs, particularly 5-MeO, dmt,
the venom of the Colorado River,toad Bufo Alvarius.
To crib from Hunter Thompson.
(23:32):
I can't recommend 5-MeO, but itcertainly worked for me.
I got a break from beingEmerson Dameron.
Up to that point I'd been in myown company my entire life.
It does get old.
It was nice to have a break formyself.
I still had all my old problems, but because I wasn't me
anymore.
The problems belonged tosomeone else.
For that 15 minutes that wasalso eternity.
(23:55):
The fact that they were otherpeople's problems made them kind
of hilarious.
I've done a lot of psychedelicsand had a lot of bad
experiences, particularly in thebeginning when I was taking out
the garbage.
So I can't recommend themunconditionally.
What I can recommend is themystical sex route Tantra,
cosmic orgasms, just good olrough sex, which will save the
(24:17):
world.
So much of what we call evil isjust awkward, obvious sexual
sublimation.
If you could work out yourkinks in the bedroom or the
dungeon or in the alley behindthe bar, you could save yourself
a lot of time in tanks orboardrooms screwing up the world
.
Rough sex Start having it today.
(24:38):
That emptiness is where myinsecurities used to be.
You can also just lose it.
You can spin out, you canspiral out, you can go all in
and all out simultaneously,fully commit to the bit Balls
out into the wall and just gobonkers, coconuts, crackers,
bananas, put all that in ablender, lose your mind.
(25:00):
Whatever you do, lean into it,see you on the other side,
switch up the tune, try it andsee what happens, and then you
will be there.
It will be what it is, and yetnot.
Nothing will be everything, andvice versa.
All opposites will be united.
All problems will be solved.
New problems will be everything, and vice versa.
All opposites will be united.
All problems will be solved.
New problems will be created,and those problems too will be
(25:23):
solved.
Hurt people will hurt people andthose people will hurt other
people, because hurt people hurtpeople and that's the law of
the land and that's the only wayto get rid of your hurting.
Until someone hurts a masochist, there will be peace in the
valley and in the sky, as above,so below, beyond good and evil,
into the unexplored craggyheights of electric ladyland.
(25:45):
The only way to get there is tobelieve that it's possible,
which requires the cessation ofbelief in anything.
Enough of the talking.
It's after the end of the world.
Now you know that you got yourwork cut out for you.
The best time to get startedwas before the end of the world.
The second best time is now.
This has been a special afterthe end of the world
(26:07):
presentation of EmersonDameron's Medicated Minutes,
la's number one avant-gardepersonal development program,
medicated-minutescom the onlygood podcast.
I'm Emerson Dameron, I love youpersonally.
Levity saves lives.
(26:28):
Oh, before we go.
When you're ready to takecontrol of your mental wealth
and get that handled, you canget your 24-hour bundle of Magic
Mind Focus and Sleepmagicmindcom.
Slash Emerson, jan,e-m-e-r-s-o-n-j-a-n.
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