The Music of Life
Sharing my personal experiences through the pain of divorce, the healing through spirituality, and music's influence through life's greatest lessons and memories.
Episodes
In this raw and deeply personal episode, I open up about the most defining chapter of my life—the journey from devastating darkness to radiant light. Through the lens of my own experiences, I reflect on pain, healing, and how faith and resilience can carry us through even the most unimaginable circumstances. From childhood upheaval to the soul-crushing experience of divorce, I share how I uncovered my inner light and ...
Hey beautiful souls, welcome back to The Music of Life! In this intense episode, I take you with me through an unexpected wave of healing that caught me completely off guard. This wasn't just about revisiting the past—it was about uncovering a wound I didn’t even realize was still bleeding. I had what I can only call an emotional epiphany, and I knew I had to share it with you, not just for connection, but in hop...
In this episode, we’re talking about something that’s been on my heart lately—healing. Specifically, I’m talking about the different paths people take to heal and how not everyone’s journey looks the same. I came across a few powerful quotes this week that sparked a conversation about coaches—dating coaches, divorce coaches, life coaches—and the contrast between that structured style of support versus something more i...
In this episode, I open up about my own spiritual journey, especially in the wake of my divorce, and how it led to the most transformative awakening I’ve ever experienced. From confronting the ego to finding peace through service, I walk you through the stages of spiritual growth that have shaped the woman I am today.
The “seven levels of spirituality,” the idea of ego death, and how leaning into meditation, self-refle...
In this heart-centered episode, I dive into a deeply personal reflection sparked by a recent conversation with my liver doctor—a conversation that turned into a powerful reminder of how far I’ve come, both physically and emotionally. From revisiting my journey through liver disease to confronting the bittersweet dynamics of my current relationship with my daughter, this episode holds space for vulnerability, healing, ...
In this episode, we’re diving into the recent total lunar eclipse—also known as the Blood Moon—that happened on March 13. Now, I’m not an astrology expert, but I’ve got some insights, personal experiences, and a little Google research to share with you! We’ll talk about what a Blood Moon actually is, how lunar energy affects us, and ways to harness its power for self-care, manifestation, and emotional balance. Plus, I...
In this deeply personal episode of The Music of Life, I'm opening up about some profound experiences that have strengthened my faith and connection with God. From unexpected medical turnarounds to moments where divine guidance was undeniable, I'm sharing the ways I’ve seen God’s hand in my life. If you’ve ever questioned whether miracles exist or wondered about the power of faith, this episode is for you.
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Healing from deep emotional wounds is never easy, especially when you're trapped in a storm of pain, betrayal, and isolation. In this episode, I open up about my spiritual healing journey—one that unfolded while I was still in the midst of daily emotional torment. I share the powerful lessons I learned about resilience, self-care, and finding my strength when I had no one to lean on but myself. From the quiet mom...
In this episode of The Music of Life, I’m flipping the script! Instead of hosting, I had the incredible opportunity to be a guest on Side Quest Success Stories with host Stephen Duetzmann. I share why I started this podcast, my personal journey through a toxic divorce, and the intense spiritual healing that followed. I share how this podcast became a platform for healing—not just for me, but for others navigating simi...
Divorce is never just about legal proceedings—it’s an emotional battlefield. In this episode, I sit down with Dr. Robert Goldman, a seasoned attorney-turned-psychologist specializing in forensic evaluations, child custody cases, and court-ordered therapy. We dive into the complexities of the legal system, parental accountability, and how to manage expectations when seeking justice in court.
We also discuss the emotiona...
Life has a way of bringing people into our world at exactly the right time. In this episode, I open up about a powerful connection that played a huge role in my healing journey during and after my divorce. I share how meeting someone who truly saw and valued me helped me break free from people-pleasing tendencies, rebuild my self-worth, and experience emotional safety in ways I never had before. This wasn’t just about...
Hey everyone, welcome back to The Music of Life! I'm Caryn Portnoy, and today’s episode is a deeply personal one. I’ve talked a lot about my divorce in past episodes, but now, I feel like I’ve turned a corner. It’s time to focus on healing, hope, and the journey forward. My healing process wasn’t quick—it took over two years—but I made it through, and I want to share what helped me move from heartbreak to a place...
Co-parenting with a narcissist is not just difficult—it’s a relentless, exhausting battle that impacts every part of your life, especially your children. In this episode, I relive the realities of narcissistic co-parenting, from parent alienation to emotional and legal abuse. I share my own experiences, highlight expert insights, and include powerful clips from professionals like Dr. Ramani and Dr. Christine Marie Coc...
In this episode, I open up about my own experience with legal abuse during my divorce. This is a story about resilience, empowerment, and discovering the strength to rise above unimaginable challenges. I share what legal abuse looks like, how it impacts those of us who endure it, and why community and healing are so essential. I’m here to remind you that no matter how overwhelming it may feel, you’re not alone, and yo...
Hi everyone, it’s Caryn, and welcome back to The Music of Life! This week, I’m diving into a deeply personal and eye-opening episode about the subtle—and not-so-subtle—ways financial control and manipulation can manifest during a divorce. I’ll share the bizarre story of how toilet paper became a symbol of power in my marriage, along with the emotional and financial toll it took on me. From hoarded household goods to d...
This week, we’re diving into one of the most challenging experiences a parent can face: navigating divorce from a narcissistic partner. Sharing insights from leading experts like Dr. David E. Clark, along with my own journey, we explore the devastating impact of narcissistic parenting and how it can dismantle relationships with your children. But don’t worry—you’re not alone, and there is hope.
If you’ve been through t...
In this deeply personal and heartfelt episode of The Music of Life, I open up about the emotional and psychological abuse I endured during my marriage and how it shaped my life. Reflecting on childhood dynamics with emotionally unavailable parents, I share how these patterns influenced my choices and relationships as an adult.
This episode sheds light on the subtle yet devastating effects of emotional abuse, the power ...
In this raw and revealing episode, I get into the challenges of navigating co-parenting and overcoming manipulation during and after divorce. From struggles with custody agreements to dealing with intentional disruptions, I share my experiences of staying resilient amidst attempts to alienate me from my daughter. You’ll hear about the impact of toxic dynamics, how I managed to rise above it all, and the lessons I lear...
In this episode, I share the raw and emotional journey of navigating a complex custody battle and the process of moving out of the home I shared with my ex-husband and daughter. I dive into the challenges of maintaining my relationship with my daughter amidst constant interference, control battles, and the heartbreak of watching her caught in the middle. This story touches on the relentless harassment, the custody hur...
In this episode, I’m opening up about a new layer of my divorce journey—the impact of friends and family. Divorce has a way of revealing people’s true colors, and in my case, it was a harsh realization. I talk about navigating friendships that turned toxic, watching so-called friends play “neutral” while adding fuel to the fire, and even witnessing inappropriate boundaries between friends and my family. This episode i...
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