My Lost Decade Podcast

For more than 30 years I struggled with anxiety, depression, and the relentless voice in my head that seemed determined to keep me trapped. During ten years of incarceration in some of America's toughest prisons, I studied psychology through Open University courses. Those lessons, combined with my own experiences, helped me regain control of my mind and find a level of peace I never thought possible.

Today we're talking about mood ...

The Roads That Shaped Me, behind every quote is a story.

Most people know me through a quote.

A few words shared online. A reminder to keep going. A thought about kindness, healing, or happiness.

But behind every quote is a story.

A story of mistakes. A story of heartbreak. A story of resilience. A story of lessons learned the hard way.

This podcast isn't about teaching from a mountaintop.

It's about sharing the roads that shaped m...

My Lost Decade deals with the Reality of life behind bars as I experienced it and mental health issues like depression anxiety and thoughts of suicide.

Coming to Terms with Ourselves

Mental illness. Madness. Insanity. Call it whatever you want.

The moment we stop denying it and finally admit something is wrong, that’s where healing begins. That moment gives us a new level of awareness. We stop running from ourselves and star...

If you want to see the worst of humanity, go watch the shift change at any prison in America

The brutal, unforgiving, dehumanizing system they call the California State Prison Life.

The California Prison system is a brutal unforgiving environment, the whole system is designed to dehumanize you, turn you into an animal.  That way they, the system ensures that most of the inmates return because they can’t adapt to life out...

The screams from the gang rapes will haunt me forever

My introduction into the world of the California State prison system was an education that I will never forget.  

That education came at the reception centre in Chino.  Without doubt one of the most notorious yards in all the California prison system.  

Its way past horrible, it’s old, all the buildings are falling apart, leaking roofs more broken ...

“I saw my first inmate killing within 5 weeks. An argument over food… it ended in seconds.”

“I was arrested at my home in Georgia and transported to San Diego for arraignment. What followed was 31 months in a detention centre that breaks you down piece by piece.

23 hours a day locked in a cell. Freezing cold. No windows. Food so bad you’d rather go hungry. And if you didn’t have money on your bo...

“At 6am, I was watering my roses in my front garden. Four hours later I was in handcuffs… and within twenty-four hours I would learn how quickly the system strips you of your identity.”

From a dramatic armed arrest involving multiple federal agents and helicopters, to the degrading and dehumanising intake process inside an American jail, Episode One immerses listeners in the moment where freedom is abruptly and p...