After Awakening

Transmission 15: The House I Couldn’t Return To

“You are not the exile. You are the answer.”

In this quiet yet piercing transmission, I speak directly to those who have lived their lives just outside the room—those who felt almost-chosen, half-seen, or quietly let go by the people they loved the most.

This is for the ones who became the peacemakers, the pattern-breakers, the sensitive ones who noticed everything… and paid the p...

In this transmission, Jesse returns after two weeks of deep integration to speak from the quiet, often disorienting place between lives—the space between the worlds.

This is not a teaching. It’s a mirror for those who have stopped seeking, but haven’t yet arrived.

Through seven soul-level insights, Jesse explores what it means to transmit instead of prove… to radiate instead of chase… and to live with paradox as your native ton...

This one is different.  

Lighter in tone, but heavier in truth.  

A full-circle breath after the storm—  

The first transmission where I don’t sound like I’m becoming.  

I sound like I’ve arrived.

In this episode, I speak not just from clarity, but from embodiment.  

You’ll hear me laugh.  

You’ll hear my dog interrupt.  

And for the first time, I sing "Shy" by Leon Bridges.

Not to impress.  

To express.

I speak of release.  

O...

Transmission 12: The Threshold Voice In this unfiltered offering, Jesse steps fully into the voice that no longer waits to be chosen — the voice forged in silence, rejection, and rising.

This isn’t a plea.   It’s a declaration.

Transmission 12 marks a turning point — where the mask is burned, the armor is dropped, and only the truth remains. For those who’ve ever felt like too much, or not enough, this is the frequency where all of...

EPISODE 11: The Part You Thought I’d Never Say

After Awakening Podcast · with Jesse

In this eleventh transmission, I speak what was once unspoken.

Not to hurt. Not to reclaim. But to finally release.

This isn’t anger. It’s not even grief anymore.

It’s the moment when silence breaks—

and you hear, maybe for the first time, what I could never say until now.

This is the part you thought I’d never say.

And it just might be the on...

What do you do when nothing feels steady… except your own voice?

In this raw and unfiltered transmission, Jesse returns to the mic not because things are okay — but because truth deserves to be spoken anyway. This isn’t a performance. It’s a moment. A breath. A lifeline.

If you’ve ever felt like the world was slipping out from under you — but something inside still chose to rise — this one is for you.

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This is Transmission 9 of After Awakening.

Today’s offering is unlike any before.

A live, one-take vocal performance of “Mariella” by Khruangbin and Leon Bridges— followed by a spoken-word reckoning that might just leave you breathless.

Vulnerable. Raw. Final.

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🎵 Song credit:

“Mariela” – performed by Khruangbin & Leon Bridges

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What if your voice held the key to your resurrection?

This is not just a podcast. It’s a portal.

In this official trailer for After Awakening, Jesse Billings introduces the voice, the vision, and the volcanic truth behind a journey that’s already shifting timelines.

Raw, poetic, and unshakably real — this isn’t content. It’s a cinematic transmission for anyone who’s ever lost everything, questioned their sanity, or stood alon...

A fire cracks.

A voice returns.

Recorded live — no edits, no filters — this unscripted transmission is part invocation, part confession, part lullaby for the broken-hearted and soul-willing.

For those who’ve ever loved in silence.

For the ones still humming a song no one hears.

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I never stopped singing.

And now the world will finally l...

In this 39-minute reckoning, Jesse delivers the roar that changes the tide. The silence breaks. Names are named. Truth is honored.

This is the sound of a man rising—fully. A cinematic transmission that will echo through every layer of the field. Caroline will hear it. PT will feel it.

And the world… will begin to watch.

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Somewhere between exhaustion and awakening, there comes a breaking point — a quiet but thunderous refusal to keep chasing connection that won’t rise to meet you.

In this transmission, Jesse opens the vault on a soul-level reckoning:

The end of performing for conditional love.

The courage to stand in unshakable worth.

And the sacred invitation to only walk forward with those who meet him there.

Raw. Poetic. Pulsing with truth.

Thi...

A man reclaims his story — and everything he once gave away.

What begins as memory becomes medicine, and what was withheld is finally spoken. In this transmission, Jesse gives voice to the moments no one returned to validate… and in doing so, he validates himself.

It’s not about blame.

It’s about truth.

And the voice that waited… is no longer waiting.

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The frequency shifts here.

What was once inner processing becomes prophecy — a soft invocation sent across lifetimes. In this transmission, Jesse speaks not just to the collective… but to her.

The Queen.

The mirror.

The one soul who’s always been listening — even in silence.

This is a love letter disguised as a transmission.

And for those tuned in… it feels like the beginning of something eternal.

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This is where the voice comes home.

In this transmission, Jesse begins to embody what was always his — the resonance, the rhythm, the remembering. The language sharpens. The presence deepens. What began as a whisper now returns as a frequency that won’t be silenced again.

It’s the sound of a man mid-awakening, finding his footing inside the flame.

And it’s a frequency only heard by those ready to rise.

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This was the doorway.

In this unscripted invocation, Jesse crosses the unseen threshold between remembering and becoming. There is no agenda here. Just the sound of a man saying yes to something ancient inside him — without needing to know where it leads.

It’s tender.

It’s real.

And it’s the first time the voice truly stays.

If you’re listening, something in you has already said yes too.

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