feral but sober

Feral But Sober brings you into the world of Mystic — a mother of five, the oldest of three siblings, and a woman who has survived more violence, loss, and betrayal than most people could imagine. Her story is not easy to hear, but it is powerful, necessary, and a testament to the strength it takes to keep choosing life when everything around you is trying to take it. Mystic married young after moving to Colorado at 19. What looked...

Matty Ice 1990 isn’t just another up‑and‑coming rapper — he’s a survivor who turned a lifetime of chaos into a catalog of raw, emotional, recovery‑driven music. His story starts in instability: no steady father figure, early exposure to drugs, and a childhood that pushed him into the streets long before he ever had a chance to grow up. He was in and out of juvenile facilities and later adult prison, cycling through the system the ...

Tonight on Feral But Sober: Claws Out, we sit down with Angela — a woman whose story reminds us that addiction doesn’t care how you were raised, what kind of family you came from, or how “put together” your life looked from the outside. Her path into addiction didn’t begin in childhood or adolescence. It didn’t come from chaos, trauma, or instability. It came later — in her 40s — after a lifetime of doing everything “right.” Angela...

Tonight, we’re bringing the claws out for a woman who has survived more than most people can imagine. Chrissy grew up in a world where chaos wasn’t an event — it was the atmosphere. Her parents were deeply involved in biker culture, and the lifestyle that surrounded her childhood exposed her to things no child should ever have to witness. Sex parties, violence, addiction, and instability were the backdrop of her earliest memories. ...

Today on Feral But Sober, we sit down with Keisha and Ronnie — a couple who walked through fire separately, together, and sometimes against each other, yet somehow found their way back to healing, recovery, and each other. Their story spans childhood trauma, addiction, loss, violence, relapse, jail time, and the kind of love that almost didn’t survive… but did. Ronnie’s story begins at just 13 years old, smoking weed and slipping i...

Today on Feral But Sober, we sit down with Mr. AJ—one of the most seasoned, multidimensional voices to ever come out of our TikTok recovery community. This episode takes a different turn as we step into the world of a man who has spent decades on the front lines of human struggle, accountability, and change. Mr. AJ grew up in New York City during the 1980s crack boom, witnessing firsthand the devastation, danger, and generational i...

Tonight on Feral But Sober, Tracy steps into the light and tells a story that almost no one survives — but she did, and she turned it into purpose.

Tracy grew up in a home where nothing was safe and nothing made sense. Her mother struggled with severe mental illness and Munchausen by proxy, keeping the kids sick for sympathy. Her father was never home. Violence, chaos, and addiction were the air she breathed. By the time she was a...

Today’s episode features Keith — a man who survived childhood cruelty, addiction, shame, and a near-suicide attempt, and somehow turned all of it into a life of service. With 14 years in recovery, Keith is now a certified peer recovery coach at a regional hub in Indiana, endorsed in mental health, gambling, MRT, and forensic support. He also facilitates “Alternatives to Suicide,” a harm‑reduction‑based support group offering space ...

In today’s episode, I’m sharing the story of someone I respect deeply — my friend Shiloh. He’s part of my TikTok community, and he’s one of those people you can always count on to show up with steady, level‑headed advice and a whole lot of heart. But the life he came from… most people wouldn’t have survived it.

Shiloh’s story starts with abandonment. His mother left when he was a baby, and he was handed off to a father who was dee...

In this episode of Feral But Sober, Joseph steps into the light to tell a story most people wouldn’t survive, let alone speak out loud. His earliest memory is rolling weed for his parents at just four years old. By the time he was a child, he had already endured sexual abuse, neglect, and a home where violence was the language spoken daily. When he moved in with his father—an explosive alcoholic—Joseph was treated less like a son a...

Today on Feral But Sober, I sat down with my girl Kizzy from The New Foundation Recovery Speaks — and she opened up in a way that was raw, honest, and unbelievably powerful. Kizzy told us that her very first addiction wasn’t alcohol or pills — it was men and sex. In high school, she was extremely promiscuous, not because she wanted attention or drama, but because she truly believed sleeping with someone would make them love her. Th...

In this episode of Feral But Sober, I sit down with Ember—a new friend I met on TikTok Live just a few weeks ago—who showed up ready to tell the truth about motherhood, addiction, relapse, and rebuilding. Ember shares how her addiction to amphetamines began as a desperate attempt to stay awake and keep up with life as a mom of three boys. What started as survival slowly pulled her into isolation, away from family gatherings, holida...

In Part 2 of Tyler’s story, we dive into the complicated and emotional battle surrounding his beloved service animal. After the dog bit his mother—requiring medical care—the large breed was detained by animal control. Though they agreed to release the animal after the mandatory hold, Tyler’s parole officer declared it a “vicious dog” and insisted he could not have it back. Tyler shares the raw details of reclaiming his companion an...

In this inspiring episode, I sit down with Still Here 91324, the founder of a grassroots recovery foundation that’s already changing lives across his state. His mission is simple but ambitious: to create a network of support that eventually expands into every state, with a partner in each location running their own branch of the foundation. It’s a vision of nationwide solidarity, built from the ground up by someone who knows firsth...

In Part 2 of Derrick’s powerful story, we pick up where we left off—at one of the most pivotal crossroads of his life. Derrick shares the heartbreaking moment of losing his mother and the complicated choices that followed, including the day he stood in the parking lot of a treatment center, ready to check in, only to turn back after his ex asked him to come home instead. Twice he faced that same moment, and twice he chose different...

In this powerful episode, I sit down with Dave—the creative force behind the board game Relapse vs Recovery and its expansion pack, as well as the unique coloring books designed specifically for people in recovery. Dave’s work is more than just creative projects; it’s a bold statement about turning lived experience into tools for healing, reflection, and even laughter in the face of struggle.

Dave opens up about his own journey th...

Tonight’s episode brings together two powerful voices in recovery and faith. Jessica returns to share how she and her husband have walked the path of sobriety side by side, finding strength in each other and in their recovery community. Joining her is Paula Wilson, pastor of Redeemed Outreach (ROAR) Church in Maysville, KY, a recovery‑based ministry where faith and healing meet. Paula is also a Licensed Clinical Alcohol and Drug Co...

Tyler’s story is one of resilience, faith, and determination. Born into an abusive home, he often stepped in to protect his younger siblings until CPS intervened, splitting the children between grandparents who gave them safer lives. Despite finding stability and excelling in sports, Tyler’s teenage years took a sharp turn — experimenting with drugs and alcohol, dropping out of school, and spiraling into IV drug use. By 22, prison ...

Trinity’s journey began with a shocking revelation around age 11—the man she thought was her father wasn’t, and her parents’ divorce sent her spiraling. Soon she was drinking, skipping school, and chasing chaos, even wrecking her mother’s car while pretending to be sick at home. A basketball injury introduced her to opiates, and by 17 she was a young mother hiding her addiction behind lies and late nights. Her spiral deepened: anot...