Disciple Blueprint Podcast

Moses led somewhere between one and two million people through the wilderness for forty years. He interceded for them, carried their complaints, and served faithfully decade after decade. And then one day he snapped — struck the rock, shouted at the people, and it cost him the Promised Land. This episode is about what unaddressed exhaustion eventually costs, why the angriest people in the room are often the most depleted, and...

What's Really Behind Your Anger | Disciple Blueprint Podcast

Anger is almost never the real issue. It is the surface emotion — the one that shows up first and loudest — covering something deeper: hurt, fear, unmet expectations, pride, or plain exhaustion. In this episode we walk through all five hidden causes of anger, anchor each one in Scripture, and Raymond shares a personal story of the two times in his life he was g...

What Cain Teaches Us About Anger | Disciple Blueprint Podcast

Before the first murder in human history, God showed up and asked Cain a question. Not a condemnation — a question. "Why are you so angry?" He saw what was building in Cain's heart, named it, warned him exactly what would happen if he let it continue, and gave him a way out. Cain didn't take it. This episode goes deep on that moment and what it reveals about the gap...

Slow to Anger — How the Spirit Changes Us | Disciple Blueprint Podcast

We've spent this week looking honestly at anger — what drives it, what it costs, what it covers. This final episode is about what actually changes it. Not willpower. Not better habits. The Holy Spirit doing transformative work from the inside out. Raymond closes the series with the second of his two personal stories about being angry at God — th...

David Wrote His Best Psalms From a Cave

David wasn't in a comfortable quiet room with good lighting and a journal when he wrote some of the most profound prayers ever recorded. He was hiding. He was scared. He was alone. And out of that came Psalms that still wreck people thousands of years later.We wrap up the Loneliness series with this: your season of isolation might be producing something you can't see yet. The cave isn't the en...

The Night I Was Terrified of Being Alone Forever

Most of us don't talk about this out loud. But a lot of us have had that night — the one where the thought crept in that maybe this is just how it's going to be. Forever alone. Forever on the outside. And it was genuinely terrifying.In this honest episode, we get personal about what that kind of fear can do to you — and more importantly, what to do with it. We talk about t...

El Roi — The God Who Finds You in the Desert

Hagar didn't expect anyone to come looking for her. She was alone, she was desperate, and she was done. And then God showed up — not with a crowd, not with fanfare — right there in the desert.This episode digs into one of the most quietly powerful names of God in the Bible: El Roi — "the God who sees me." We unpack Hagar's story and what it means for anyone who has...

He Waited Until I Was Alone to Start Talking

There's something about a quiet moment that can feel terrifying — and something about it that can feel sacred. Sometimes both at the same time.In this episode, we talk about how God has a way of showing up not in spite of our loneliness, but through it. The solitude you've been dreading? He might be using it as an invitation. The silence you've been filling with noise? He might be w...

The Loneliness Nobody Talks About in Church

You can sit in a full sanctuary and still feel completely alone. If that's ever been you, you're not making it up — and you're not the only one.In this first episode of our Loneliness series, we're going somewhere a lot of people are afraid to go: the kind of loneliness that hides behind a smile, a handshake, and a "I'm doing great." We talk about why the church can sometimes feel li...

The reunion is not a sentiment. It is a promise. This episode closes the Grief Series with the most important truth of all five days — and the most personal story Raymond has shared all week.

A few months after Wendy died, a woman at church pulled Raymond aside and told him something Wendy had once said — that in their entire 33-year marriage, she had never doubted once that he loved her. This episode is about what is co...

You are allowed to grieve and believe at the same time. This episode talks about how — and why the separation grief creates is a window into something far bigger than any of us expected.

Raymond shares the hardest realization of his grief: that the daily absence of Wendy — the conversations, the hand-holding, the four or five kisses a day — gave him a picture of what permanent separation from God actually feels lik...

Three months after Wendy died, Raymond walked into a bank to open a business account. On the credenza behind the desk was a sign that said three words: In The Midst. What happened next changed everything he thought he knew about Romans 8:28.

This episode is about whether God is actually doing something in your grief — not as a concept, but as something you can see. Raymond shares the bank story, Wendy's retreat, and the woman ...

Grief doesn't just break your heart. It disrupts your mind, drains your body, and forces you to rebuild a daily life you never asked to change. This episode talks honestly about what that looks like — and why it is not a spiritual problem.

Raymond shares the story of camp, Lily, and selling the RV — the routines grief destroys and the new ones it forces on you. Then he walks through what the Psalms say about the physical...

Is grief a sign of weak faith? If you have ever felt guilty for how hard you are crying, or wondered why a stronger faith does not seem to be making this easier — this episode is for you.

Raymond opens the Grief Series with the story of his daily routine with Wendy — the lunch check-ins, the three porches, the two white rocking chairs, the brothers who showed up every evening. And what happened to all of it when she died...

Understanding who God says you are is one thing. Living from it on a Monday morning when the voices are loud, the circumstances are hard, and the old story feels more reasonable than the truth — that is something else entirely. This episode is about closing the gap between what you know and how you actually live.

In this final episode of the Identity and Shame series, Raymond Smith brings everything together with the most prac...

Shame does not heal by pretending it never happened. It does not heal by trying harder, feeling differently, or getting your act together. It heals because Someone absorbed it. On the cross, Jesus was not just bearing sin in some invisible spiritual transaction — He was publicly stripped, mocked, and humiliated in the most degrading form of execution ever designed. He did not avoid shame. He walked straight into it. For you.

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Guilt says I did something wrong. Shame says I am something wrong. That difference is everything — and it is why shame does not go away when you clean up your act, improve your behavior, or finally get things together. Shame is not attached to what you did. It is attached to who you believe you are.

In this episode, Raymond Smith gets honest about one of the most painful seasons of his life. He was twenty-one years old when he...

Some wounds don't come from enemies. They come from the people who were supposed to be in your corner — a parent, a spouse, a coach, someone whose words carried enormous weight. And when that person tears you down instead of building you up, the damage doesn't just hurt. It builds a foundation. A wrong one.

In this episode, Raymond Smith shares two personal stories about shame. One happened in a bowling alley when he was sixte...

Is grief a sign of weak faith? If you have ever felt guilty for how hard you are crying, or wondered why a stronger faith does not seem to be making this easier — this episode is for you.

Raymond opens the Grief Series with the story of his daily routine with Wendy — the lunch check-ins, the three porches, the two white rocking chairs, the brothers who showed up every evening. And what happened to all of it when she died...