How I Met Jesus
A spiritual diary. A healing journey. A love story between a human heart and a gentle God. How I Met Jesus is a daily, intimate podcast where Elena — a lady who grew up in China, now living in America, once a Buddhist and now a new Christian — shares the quiet, unexpected, transformative moments that led her closer to Jesus. Not through religion, but through real life: heartbreak, fear, success, anxiety, faith, loneliness, miracles, and small everyday grace. Each episode feels like opening a handwritten letter — soft, honest, vulnerable, and deeply human. Here, you’ll find: • stories of spiritual awakening across cultures and continents • how God met her in fear, confusion, ambition, and longing • emotional healing through prayer and scripture • lessons learned in uncertainty, waiting, and surrender • reflections on love, identity, insecurity, and courage • prayers that speak gently into the soul This is not a podcast about perfection. It’s about learning to trust. Learning to rest. Learning to hear God in the quiet places. Learning to let your heart be held — even when life feels messy. If you’ve ever wondered where God is in your everyday emotions, or if you’re healing, searching, rebuilding, or longing for peace, this podcast is for you. Come walk with me — one story, one prayer, one gentle revelation at a time — as I share the journey of how I met Jesus… and how He keeps finding me, again and again. ✨
Episodes
Is it wrong to want money?
In this episode, I explore the quiet tension between faith and financial desire — the part of us that wants to build, grow, and create… and the part of us that feels uncomfortable about it.
Through personal reflection and a powerful family story, I begin to uncover how our beliefs about money are often shaped long before we realize it — through history, fear, and what we’ve inherited.
Sometim...
In this episode, I open up about something I’ve carried quietly for a long time—my fear around money.
It’s not just about numbers, income, or stability. It goes deeper than that.
I share where this fear really comes from—growing up in an environment shaped by pressure, uncertainty, and unspoken expectations… and how those experiences still influence the way I think, work, and even make decisions today.
If you’ve ever f...
Why does money feel so heavy… even when we have enough?
In this episode, I reflect on the quiet anxiety I’ve carried around money — the pressure to earn more, the fear of not having enough, and the constant need to feel secure.
Because sometimes, it’s not really about money. It’s about what we believe will happen if money is not there.
When money becomes our safety, uncertainty begins to feel like a threat.
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Why does it feel like the things we truly love don’t always make money… and the things that make money don’t always feel meaningful?
In this episode, I reflect on the tension between passion and survival — the desire to follow what we feel called to do, while still trying to stay financially secure.
Through personal experiences and honest questions, I explore the deeper struggle behind money — fear, control, and the n...
What if you don’t have to prove your worth anymore?
In this episode, I reflect on the shift from striving to be enough…
to finally living from the truth that you already are.
After exploring unworthiness, fear, and identity, this episode is about release — learning to stop performing for love, and start living from a place of being already loved.
You are not here to earn your worth.
You are here to live from it...
If I already understand where my unworthiness comes from…
why is it still so hard to change?
In this episode, I explore the tension between awareness and transformation — why old beliefs can still feel real, even when we know they’re not true.
Through personal reflection, I share what it looks like to slowly unlearn what was never true, and begin to trust a different truth.
Just because something feels true doesn’t...
Where does the feeling of “not enough” really come from?
In this episode, I reflect on how unworthiness is often not something we were born with — but something we learned.
Through personal stories and childhood memories, I explore how early experiences, family dynamics, and unspoken messages quietly shape the way we see ourselves.
Many of our beliefs about our worth were formed before we even understood them.
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Have you ever been loved… and still felt uneasy?
In this episode, I reflect on a pattern I began to notice in my own relationships — how fear, insecurity, and unworthiness can lead us to push love away, even when we deeply want it.
Sometimes it’s not that love is missing. It’s that we don’t know how to trust it. Sometimes we don’t push love away because we don’t want it.
We push it away because we’re afraid it won...
Have you ever been loved by someone… and still felt like you didn’t deserve it?
Or found yourself questioning a relationship, not because the other person did something wrong — but because something inside you felt uncertain?
In this episode, I talk about a deeper layer of unworthiness — the kind that shows up in relationships.
Sometimes it looks like insecurity.
Sometimes it looks like overthinking.
And someti...
Have you ever felt like you weren’t enough — even when everything on the outside seemed fine?
In this episode, I open up about a quiet but persistent feeling I’ve carried for years: unworthiness.
It’s not always obvious. Sometimes it shows up in subtle ways — in the way we hesitate to speak up, the way we question whether we deserve love, or the way we shrink ourselves around people we think are “above” us.
Through a recent...
For a long time, I believed I knew exactly where my life was supposed to be.
California represented opportunity, energy, and possibility. After moving to the United States from China, I spent several years there and assumed that it would eventually become my permanent home.
But life took an unexpected turn and brought me to Kansas.
At first, Kansas felt temporary — quieter, slower, and very different from the life I im...
For most of my life, I believed a simple formula:
Work hard → prove your value.
Become strong → then you will be safe.
Succeed → then you will be respected.
But recently, while reading Ephesians 2, I realized the gospel reveals a completely different order.
Not effort first, then value.
But being loved first, then identity.
In this episode, I share how that realization challenged the way I’ve lived for many ...
When I first returned to Los Angeles, I was overwhelmed by uncertainty. The cost of living was high, my livestream business was starting from zero, and many days felt discouraging.
In this episode, I share the story of that season — rebuilding a business, working long nights, facing slow growth, and learning to live with uncertainty.
A simple sentence from a friend changed how I saw that time:
“Maybe instead of s...
After years of questioning my worth and searching for love in the wrong places, I began to realize something important: much of my identity had been shaped by fear, expectations, and old stories about who I was supposed to be.
In this episode, I share the journey of reclaiming my identity — not from success, approval, or past wounds, but from a deeper understanding of who I am in God’s eyes.
What happens when we stop ...
Today is my birthday. In this episode, I share a deeply personal story about my relationship with my mother.
For many years, I carried the belief that she had abandoned me as a child. That belief shaped how I understood love, relationships, and even how I saw myself.
But through reflection, prayer, and an honest conversation with her, something began to change.
I started to see my mother not only as “my mother,” but as...
In this episode, I reflect on a childhood memory that shaped my relationship with conflict and boundaries.
As a child, I learned that saying no could bring punishment, and that staying quiet was often the safest way to survive. That lesson stayed with me long into adulthood, influencing how I handled relationships and my own voice.
This episode explores how early experiences shape our patterns — and why learning bound...
Why is it so hard to say no?
In this episode, I share a painful realization: for most of my life, I was more afraid of disappointing others than losing myself.
Growing up, I learned to keep the peace, soften my needs, and avoid conflict at all costs. Being “easy” felt safer than being honest. But that habit followed me into adulthood, shaping my relationships, my decisions, and the way I showed up in the world.
Through...
In this episode, I share a season of my life when I stopped trusting my own feelings.
After a painful conflict in both business and relationship, I found myself suppressing anger, doubting my instincts, and questioning my own reality. On the outside, everything seemed to continue as normal — the business was running, life was moving forward. But inside, something had quietly collapsed.
I began to realize that suppress...
In this episode, I share a deeply personal story about a season when fear quietly shaped my decisions — especially in love and business.
After meeting Jesus, I thought life would feel safer. I believed faith would protect me from major loss. But instead, I discovered something unexpected: fear doesn’t disappear. It changes form.
I talk about the moment I almost lost both a relationship and a company, how fear disguise...
In this episode, I share the moment that changed how I understand prayer.
Watching a pastor pray for a homeless mother, I realized prayer isn’t about perfect words or spiritual performance. It’s about presence. It’s about honesty. It’s about love.
I used to feel awkward praying — sometimes all I could say was, “God… I’m tired.” But slowly, prayer became the place where I stopped pretending and started being real.
If yo...
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