Dear Recovery

Dear Recovery

Hello beautiful people, this podcast is a listener supported space for anyone struggling with eating disorders, disordered eating, body distress/dysmorphia, or Co-occurring mental health and substance use challenges. Each episode is guided by listener emails and DM's, questions stories, fears, and hopes read and responded to with compassion clinical insight and lived recovery and experience hosted by, me Colleen, a marriage and family therapist working in private practice as well as a person in long term recovery from an eating disorder and substance use this podcast is not about perfection or quick fixes. It is about being heard, being understood and knowing you're not alone. This space is inclusive of all genders, bodies, and identities, including members of the LGBTQIA plus community. Whether you're in active struggle, early recovery long term recovery or simply searching for language for what you're experiencing, you are welcome here. This podcast is not a substitute for therapy or medical care, but it is a place to sit, listen and remember that recovery in all the imperfect forms is possible. Just a short disclaimer for this podcast; I do not discuss any numbers or weights or explicit behaviors, and I will always keep your identity anonymous if that is your wish. Most importantly, I always encourage you to seek out higher levels of professional care as appropriate, and I will answer emails or DMS to questions and experiences, etcetera where I feel I can genuinely give advice or share my own personal experience, and perhaps what helped me. A note to remember is that recovery in all its imperfect forms is possible and I truly just want to connect with you, help, hear you, and hopefully answer some of those anxiety provoking questions that I know I was riddled with for so many years. I promise, no question is too stupid, outlandish, bizarre or weird, because I know how isolating this disease is, but I promise you are not alone and any topic/concern is welcome here :)

Episodes

September 16, 2026 45 mins

What happens when an eating disorder starts affecting more than just food?

In this episode, I’m answering a heartfelt listener question about restrictive eating, bingeing and purging, depression, anxiety, sleep, isolation, and persistent thoughts of not wanting to live.

We’re talking about why eating disorders can often exist alongside other mental health struggles, how restriction can affect the brain and body, why eve...

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What should you expect when you actually get to sober living?

In Part 2 of this two-part episode, we’re talking about some of the things I wish I had known before moving into sober living—from what to bring and how to find your recovery community, to navigating roommates, setting boundaries, helping others without losing yourself, and finding a job in early recovery.

I’m sharing some of my own experiences (includi...

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Going to sober living can feel really freaking scary.

In Part 1 of this two-part episode of Dear Recovery, we’re talking about what it’s actually like to leave detox or treatment and head into sober living—including the fear, anxiety, uncertainty, and “Oh my God, what am I doing?” feelings that can come with it.

I share my own experience of driving to sober living crying the entire way, what helped me ...

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What if your eating disorder is the thing keeping you from drinking or using drugs?

In this episode of Dear Recovery, we talk about the fear of letting go of one coping mechanism when you're terrified another one might take its place. I share some of my own recovery story, including what happened when I recovered from my eating disorder but hadn't yet learned how to cope with life w...

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What happens when you want to go shopping with a friend, but your eating disorder starts telling you that you don’t belong because your bodies are different sizes?

In this episode of Dear Recovery, we’re talking about body comparison, shame, friendship, and the fear that other people are judging our bodies—even when they may not be judging us at all.

Because your body size doesn’t determine who you get to sp...

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In this episode of Dear Recovery, we talk about the fear of “bad” foods, why food labels can hold so much power over us, and whether recovery is possible while only eating the foods that feel safe. 🩶

If the thought of introducing foods like pasta, ice cream, burgers, or Oreos feels terrifying, you're not alone. Recovery can feel like a leap into...

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In this special guided meditation, we make space for sadness instead of pushing it away. Together, we'll gently explore what happens when we allow ourselves to feel difficult emotions with compassion and curiosity. You don't have to fix your sadness or make it disappear—you can simply give it a moment to be seen, felt, and processed. <3     

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Why do certain comments about our bodies stay with us for years? In this episode of Dear Recovery, I answer a listener's question about the confusing and sometimes painful impact of other people's opinions about our appearance. We talk about why even comments meant as compliments can become complicated, especially in eating disorder recovery, and how we can begin to set boundaries and stop letting other people's opinions become the...

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In this episode of Dear Recovery, I answer a listener's heartfelt question about the confusing, messy, and sometimes scary process of eating disorder recovery. We talk about taking steps forward and backward, learning to nourish and trust your body, the sneaky ways an eating disorder can hide behind “healthy” rules, and why recovery doesn't have to be perfect to be real. If you've ever wondered whether you're doing reco...

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Can you recover from an eating disorder and substance use disorder at the same time? In this episode of Dear Recovery, I answer a question from a listener who is trying to navigate recovery from both. I talk honestly about how difficult it can be to face two battles at once, because I’ve been there myself. We’ll talk about whether you have to recover from one before the other, ...

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August 16, 2026 2 mins

Hi friends, I had a laptop crash, but I'm already in the works to get a new one and I will be back. My goal is to start uploading episodes again by next Monday. Okay, thank you, love you, and I will see you soon friend <3

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Episode 18: “Why Can’t I Sit Still?” — When Rest Feels Scary

Why can’t I just sit still? Why does resting feel so uncomfortable? And why does my eating disorder make me feel guilty for doing it?

In this episode, we talk about low-level movement, why it can become such a powerful part of an eating disorder, the biology behind the urge to keep moving, and some small ways to begin interrupting the cycle. ...

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BMI: Part 2 — Taking Back the Power

In Part 2 of our conversation about BMI, we continue exploring its history, limitations, and why we give numbers so much power. I also take another little research rabbit hole—this time into credit scores—and somehow bring it all back to recovery. 😂

We’ll talk about breaking the cycle of checking, advocating for yourself, ...

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Have you ever found yourself checking your BMI over and over, believing that one number somehow determines whether you're healthy, successful, or enough? In Part 1 of this two-part conversation, we gently unpack the history of BMI, why eating disorders cling so tightly to it, and why your worth has never belonged inside a mathematical equation. 

 "If something has been weighing on your heart, I'd love to hear from you. Se...

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In this episode of Dear Recovery, we talk about why old photos can feel so triggering, how eating disorders attach meaning to past versions of ourselves, and how recovery helps us build compassion for every chapter of our lives. 💜

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Why do some foods feel completely safe while others feel terrifying? In this episode, we explore why eating disorders create safe foods and fear foods, how our brains learn these patterns, and how recovery helps us find freedom—one courageous bite at a time.

 "If something has been weighing on your heart, I'd love to hear from you. Send me your questions, your thoughts, or even just say hello. You can email me at de...

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Episode 13: Why Does It Feel Wrong If I Don't Eat My Food in a Certain Order?

Have you ever felt anxious because you ate your meal in the "wrong" order, at the wrong time, or didn't follow your usual routine? If so, you're far from alone.

In this episode of Dear Recovery, we explore why eating disorders create rigid food rituals, why breaking those routines can feel so overwhelming, and how anxiety often mistakes familiarity for sa...

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Hello Friend,

Swimsuit season can bring up a lot of fear, anxiety, and body image struggles—but you don't have to let those thoughts steal another summer.

In this episode of Dear Recovery, we're talking about what really matters when recovery meets beach days, pool parties, and vacations. We'll explore how to quiet the eating disorder's voice, make room for flexibility, and remember that the people who love you aren't inviti...

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Episode 11: You Can Change Your Body Later

Can you recover if you still want to change your body?

If you've ever thought, "I want recovery...but I don't want my body to change," you're not alone. In this episode, we talk about one of the biggest fears that keeps so many people feeling stuck in an eating disorder.

Together, we'll expl...

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Did I trade my eating disorder for alcohol...or was I trying to survive the same pain in a different way?

In this deeply personal episode of Dear Recovery, I share my own experience navigating both eating disorder recovery and alcohol use while exploring why these struggles so often overlap. We'll talk about co-occurring disorders, coping, shame, and the hope that comes from looking beneat...

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